Quote: “You don't get to choose if you get hurt in this world...but you do have some say in who hurts you. I like my choices.”
― John Green, The Fault in Our Stars
“Alison Rose Alistair! Where the hell are you?” Jennifer’s voice echoed through the phone. I nearly dropped it because it was too much on my poor ears. It was the next day and I had woken up late, like really late, due to my phone ringing. First I had tried to ignore it, thinking whoever it was would just stop and leave me a voicemail. But no, Jennifer was really stubborn. She wanted to talk and talk she would. I had trudged out of bed, still in my disheveled state and grabbed my phone.
“Yeah, yeah. I’m here,” I murmured sleepily as I sat down my bed.
“Where is here? Alison, where the hell are you?” Jennifer sounded annoyed and I didn’t want to deal with her. But I knew I couldn’t back out of it now. Shouldn’t have picked up in the first place.
“New York. Jennifer, please don’t shout,” I said groaning as I rubbed my eyes to chase the sleepiness away.
“New York? Seriously?” I could notice the hint of amusement and surprise in her voice.
“Yeah. I just needed to get away, you know,” I replied hoping she really knew. I didn’t want to explain it to her. I hoped she would understand.
“Oh. Yeah, I know. Umm..I’m sorry.” Jennifer’s voice was soft now. I nodded my head as tears filled my eyes.
“Yeah, me too,” I said as I wiped them away.
“Don’t you dare start crying, Alison. You’re stronger than you know.”
Yeah, right.
“I’m not,” I lied miserably. Jennifer knew me too well, she always saw right through me. I wasn’t a hard person to read.
“Yes you are. I don’t really know what to say,” she spoke after a few seconds.
“You don’t have to. I should have listened to you. I’m fine.” Even though, I trusted Jennifer with all my heart, I couldn't really tell her how I felt. Of course, she knew I was upset because I loved Jeremy so much but I still refused to open up to her. I refused to open up to anybody. I just wanted to be alone.
“No. It’s not your fault. You didn’t know. And you’re going to be fine. I just know it.” I knew what she was trying to do; make me feel better. More tears clouded my vision as I thought of him.
“Yeah, sure I am,” I replied as I rubbed my eyes.
“Yes you wait and see. Everything is going to be alright,”
“Just shut up. My life is the opposite of alright.” I was starting to get irritated now. I appreciated that she was trying to make me feel better but it just wasn’t working then.
“Okay. So? How’s New York City?” Jennifer asked, changing the subject. I was grateful for it.
“Same as always,” was all I managed to say.
“Did you meet anyone yet?”
“Not really.”
“Alison, go out. Just go out and try to have fun,” Jennifer encouraged. I rolled my eyes.
Is it really that simple?
“You know three years ago on your wedding day I told you ‘focus on your man’? Forget it. Now I’m telling you to focus on yourself. Go live your life.”
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Anything But Perfection
RomanceJeremy and Alison have been in love since they met, ten years to be exact. They're together just like they've always wanted to be but the worst part is -they are not happy. They used to be but that changed when a horrible incident changed their live...