Super Rich Kids (BoyxBoy)

Chapter 24 (pt.2): Zealous Kind of Love

Codependency, defined as a reflection... mirror image of my own world.

Codependency, emotional and psychological reliance on a single partner, typically a partner who requires support due to an illness or addiction.

Codependency, similar to dependent personality disorder.

In such a scenario there is always a someone who cannot function with their "innate self" the someone who is strictly fixated on a single partner, who relies on them heavily and has organized their thoughts around only them and their very being.

Said partner would play the part as addict. They can also be considered codependent. In this fabrication, said codependent relationship requires one character to be addicted to substance... or certain behaviors.

The second person is formally obsessed with such behavior and with the person in general, blinded and infatuated. Character number two suffers from a disease... the disease of lost self.

These are intense and unstable interpersonal relationships, where one active member faces an inability to be alone. This also means frantic efforts to avoid such circumstances.

Couples are faced with chronic and unsympathetic feelings of boredom, loneliness and monotony. Often they put their partner's needs before their own. They are consumed with raw desire and an insatiable need for acceptance, affection, and attention. Coupled with dishonesty, denial and a hint of low self worth.

When you include romantic ties into the story, codependency begins to sound all too familiar to me.

They are relationships that typically have a rapturous beginning, guided by a feeling of a whirlwind romance. Character one and character two feel drawn to each other as if they're soulmates, as if some omnipotent entity has brought them together by chance.

The feeling is euphoric, intense and fairy-tale like.

Though, it doesn't last longer than a few months.

As the relationship unfolds, the codependents develop an unhealthy attachment and rely on each other for their sense of self-worth. In such a relationship, the codependent's sense of purpose is based on making sacrifices to satisfy their partner's needs.

These relationships signify a degree of unhealthy clinginess, where one person doesn't have self-sufficiency or independence. One or both parties depend on their loved one for fulfillment.

There is almost always an unconscious reason for continuing to put another person's life ahead of your own, and often it is because of the mistaken notion that self-worth comes from other people.

Now I stop to step out of the storyline, because this fabrication is nothing more than a mirror image... a reflection of everything I have been dealing with and everything I have been living through.

I place this template over my life, try to distinguish and identify with character one and character two but cannot be certain of who I am in my own reality. Am I the addict in my own ways or the codependent in all ways? Or have I become both?

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I fixed my collar, straightened my cuffs and centered my tie, before I made any movement to walk out onto the stage. There was no applause at our presence, not this time. People were too preoccupied with the fancy dishes set out in front of them, too entertained by meaningless conversation.

It reminded me too much of home. The high ceilings with intricate designs, the clatter of heavy forks on ceramic plates, the fancy clothes that made everyone look vaguely similar, and the onslaught of voices.