After You

Chapter Fourteen

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«Chapter may contain some sexual content. Sensitive readers be warry»

The red door. Here I am standin out in front of that damn red door. I thought I would never come back to this place. No I can't come back to this god awful place. I turned back around and began the other way but something stopped me. I made a promise to Hayden I have to go. Even if it kills me.

I opened the red door stepping inside escaping the chilly air. Maple Syrup instantly filled my nose and all the memories came rushing back. I hate this place. Why did Hayden make me come back here? Doesn't he understand that this place is actually in my nightmares sometimes. I know that sounds ridiculous but you have no idea. This place was the place of torture and hell.

This is the place where they think they know you even when you don't speak. You always have some deep emotional issues due to tragic events that you can't deal with so you bottle it up. People actually come here and spill everything to this person. I bet you that the same thing will be said as I was in here last time.

"You have some anger issues that you need to work out but you don't know how to deal with it so it comes out in a way you can't control. I think that if you opened up to someone then you would be able to resolve this issuse. Now of course I will always be here for you to speak with."

Let's just say it resulted in the therapist with a broken nose and me being dragged out by the security. Which where only there for me in the first place. I shoved my hands deep into my pockets and sat down in the nearest chair.

I noticed some if the changes they had made to the office. The fish tank that took up most of the coner to my right was gone. More comfortable chairs where added. There was a fridge with bottled water saying help yourself. The stupid magazines that would always clutter the coffee table was gone.

I pulled out my headphone from inside my shirt where I would keep them tucked away sometimes. A song blased through the headphones and I tapped my foot to the beat.

"This is my imagination where my dreams are real and my thoughts are free

I don't have to bow down to anybody, because when you're here you listen to me

I'm the one in charge, everything is the way it should be

People on the streets they fear me, I show up in your dreams unexpectedly

But don't expect any missing you from me, because you're the one crying my name

You say you want another chance because you really fucked up but last time I checked you're the one that left because your mama found out

Now I'm on fire you can't put me out

The closest you'll ever get to having me back us when we're rolling around and going down on some good memories

You're breathing hard now well try breathing when I'm not around you'll find it damn near impossible

I'm not going to fight for your attention anymore, no in matter of fact I'll hold the door open for you

Let it hit you in the ass on your way out. I don't need you dragging me down

All we ever do is argue anyway, baby did you really think I was here to stay after all the trouble you caused me

You're not worth anything to me now. I refuse to help you off the ground.

You need to try a little thing called helping yourself."