After You

Chapter Seventeen

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This chapter contains language. Sensitive readers be warned.

Tessa POV

So now they know. Hayden knows why I've been avoiding him. Kyle didn't even know. John looked smugged when I shifted. I hated that, my wolf wants to rip him apart. There's something more though. I'm not just a wolf I'm somthing else entirely, I don't know what but I can feel it.

John left as soon as I finished yelling at him. Which I was naked during part of. He wouldn't stop eye fucking me. It took everything in me not to rip him apart limb from limb. Yes that had also explained my mood swings. Apparently it happens when you're close to your first change.

I have been skipping out on school and my therapy sessions. I was with Kyle most the time and other times I was just out running in the woods. There is one thing I know. Hayden is not my mate. There is something in the pit of my stomach that tells me as much. I was not meant to be with the future alpha of this pack. But I really didn't care. I love Hayden more than life.

Kyle had cut his hair and right now we where waiting for it to grow back out to black. No he didn't just it super short or anything he just got it touched up.

Hayden came over and sat down by me. He pulled me against his chest. "Why didn't you tell me." He asked into my ear.

"I couldn't tell you or anyone. I had to figure things out on my own." I nodded in understanding and I allowed myself to get lost in his touch.

If I ever lost Hayden I don't know what I would do. My life would be more of a hell then it already is. I closed my eyes and opened them again.

"You're time is near. Long live Queen Tessa!" Chats of long live Queen Tessa rang through my house. It's been a while since I've heard the voices so they where hard to tune out.

I pulled away from Hayden and stood up. I shook my head try to stop the voices but they wouldn't. I opened my eyes after I had them squeezed shut. I already knew what I was going to see as my eyes were met with all the dead bodies.

I didn't scream at them or yell and curse at them this time I just let them be. I let them chant and slowly disappear. Hayden got up and kissed me soundly on the lips. I have missed him the past week. I've missed him so much.

I pulled back finally really looking at Hayden now that I didn't want to rip anyone apart. And he looked like shit to say the least. He hasn't shaved at all, his hair was a mess. His eyes had circles around him and I could smell the alcohol on his breath along with the cigarettes. A cigarette that's what I need right now.

"I'm going out for a smoke anyone want one?" A asked looking at Hayden and Kyle. Hayden shook his head and Kyle did want a smoke so he followed me outside.

"By the way Hayden you're cleaning this mess up." I smiled at him and he laughed a bit shaking his head.

Yeah there is no way I'm cleaning up this parties mess. I mean hell I didn't even get to enjoy it. I went to my car and pulled out the box of cigarettes sticking one between my teeth and handing another to Kyle.

I stepped out of the car closing the door a little harder then I meant to behind me. I light Kyle's cigarette before I lit mine with the lighter out of common courtesy. After I lit mine I took in a long drag.

Jonathan POV

I met Tessa Grandma exactly where she told me to meet her. She wanted to me again after I already briefed her yesterday. I was pissed because I was hanging out with Tess when she ordered me to show up.