After You

Twenty Nine

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Song for this chapter is the end by Kings of Leon. Probably one of my favorite bands.

"Hayden!" He countined to tickle me.

"All you have to do is say it." I was laughing to hard to pay and real attention to his face. But I knew that he had a huge smile on his face.

"I love you, you idiot." I yelled at him while trying to hold in a laugh long enough to say it.

"I love you too Tessie." He leaned down and kissed me.

"Why did you have to leave me?" I pulled back. I wrapped a finger around the back part of his hair and played with it.

"I'll never really leave you." He looked me in the eyes. His eyes that I never thought I would see again.

"But you have before and you will. You're dead Hayden." I looked down at his lips only because I couldn't stand the intensity of his eyes without wanting to cry.

"No I'm not." He forced me to look at him. I closed my eyes. I could smell his cologne. I really just want to savor every moment that he is here. Maybe because I know that he isn't really here.

"I'm only dead if your heart belives that I am. We're remembered by the living Tessa. And we are as alive as they remember us to be." He whispered in my ear. I opened up my eyes to tell him that it was all my fault that he is gone and I could never be sorry enough. But he was gone and I was staring at the same while I have been for weeks now. His funeral wasn't as glorious as Kyle's was. I really don't want to remember it right now. Because unlike Kyle's I remember it all. I remember what I did and I just can not think of that right now. I smiled slightly because the smell of his cologne lingered in the air.

"Tessa baby please get up." Archer begged me. I just sat there in silence. I rolled out of bed and walked over to the bathroom. I closed the door and turned on the shower. I stepped into the hot water without bothering to remove my clothes. There is no point to any of this anymore. But Archer was my mate and no matter what I will not leave him.

I am standing back and watching Archer fade away because he thinks he has lost me. And it's all my damn fault. Hayden was not my mate he was another person on this planet. And people die, even if we don't want them to they die and leave us. I need to move on because none of this is going to bring him back.

For the first time in a while I imagined some decent clothing. I stared in the mirror as the new clothing appeared on me. I was wearing a maroon shirt, with black legs, brown combat boots, a black cardagin, then matching white scarf and beanie. I took the time to brush my hair and teeth. Then all the necessaries like deodorant, and perfume. I even put on makeup. Opening the door I walked back into the room. Archer stood there with his head in his hands. When he heard me walk in he shoot out of the seat he was sitting in.

I looked over him and he looked as shitty as I felt. His black hair was sticking out in all directions, his beautiful eyes have lost their shine. He had bags under his eyes and he was in a desperate need of a shave. He was in the same ratty pj bottoms and t-shirt that he has been wearing for who knows how long.

'John' I called out in my mind. I know he can hear me.

'What Tess.' He sounded annoyed. He had no right. I've been the one avoiding him. John was the one that controlled Archer, none of this was Archer's fault it was John's.

'Was Hayden really Christal's mate?' I demanded more than asked. I had to know.

'How did you find out about that.' He asked and I took that as a yes then I cut off the connection.