"Anxiety" | Namjin (Editing)

Chapter 5

{Jin}

"Namjoon? Are you okay?" A voice said. It was his mother.

Namjoon widened his eyes in shock and put a hand over my mouth saying:
"Y-yes, I'm just talking over the phone, sorry."

"Oh, well have a goodnight baby I love you." She said sweetly.

He was so embarrassed so he whispered:
"I love you too."

When his mother left he quickly put the hand away from my mouth and sat on his bed.

"What you heard now, don't you dare say it to someone if you want to keep living in this world."

"First of all, I don't want to keep living so do whatever you want, and how will I tease you for having an amazing relationship with your mother? I wish I had a relationship like that at least with a human being." I said rolling my eyes.

"You deserve it anyways." He said playing on his phone as always, with a bored expression on his face, as always.

"You're actually the one who deserves it and you have a loving mother while I have a witch and a demon by parents." I said getting mad, how can he be so cruel to me?

"Why do you freaking act like you're the victim?? While you're the pure devil yourself." He was now standing infront of me.

I stood up and slapped him, yes I freaking slapped him and I know I'm dead meat now.

"I act like a victim?? I ACT LIKE A VICTIM? Tell me, who's the one that gets beaten up in school almost everyday? Who's the one that's been struggling with fucking SAD while you were laughing with your group of friends having the time of your life?! Is that you? Because I don't think so!!" My face was so red and tears were falling from my eyes.

He only scoffed and said:
"I really thought you were different, go to sleep and get the hell out of here tomorrow, I don't want to deal with you anyways."

"I'll just go now."

"I fucking told you! You can't leave right now my parents are here."

I just went to his sofa and closed my eyes, he then came up to me and threw something at me.

"Go take a shower, you never got home anyways from school."

"But-."

"I put there some boxers that are new so, go."

"..."

"GO BEFORE I FREAKING CHANGE MY MIND! You're so annoying do you perhaps want me to shower you?"

"Where's the bathroom?" I said and he looked humiliated which honestly was funny.

"Idiot it's here in my room the door over there, I'll be outside for a moment."

When he left the room I saw a picture on his night desk (did I say that right?) on the picture there were two boys hugging, looking at the camera with big smiles on their faces.

"He looks like me" I thought pointing at the boy on the left side of the picture, I have no pictures of me when I was a little kid so I don't really know I looked like and not being able to remember my past doesn't help me at all.

I shook off that thought and went to the bathroom with the picture of the boy still on my mind, he honestly looks so much like me but I won't ask Namjoon, he'd probably kick me out of the house if I ask him something that personal.

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I was laying on the sofa trying to sleep, Namjoon was already sleeping but I couldn't because I was too hungry, I've been hungry all day because I wasn't able to get lunch and I feel like dying but I don't dare to say something to Namjoon so I just decided to sit and try to ignore the concert my stomach had.

I was crying, my parents really don't care about me, the guy that "saved me" hates me to death and I'm hungry. I get so emotional when I am so hungry, it's even worst than when women have their hormonal days.

Namjoon woke up and saw me.

"Why are you crying?" He said and I just shook my head.

"Stop crying you're already ugly." I just cried even louder.

"Damn it!! Look, I'm sorry for what happened, I did actually mean it but stop crying I can't sleep."

"That's not it you moron!" I said, I really looked like I was throwing a tantrum.

Namjoon suddenly remembered that Jin used to cry a lot when they were both kids when he was hungry.

"Perhaps are you hungry." He said and this time I was literally bawling like a little kid.

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{Namjoon}

I don't even know why but yes I'm here at the kitchen preparing some food for Jin, I don't even know what do I hate more Jin or cooking? I don't know but right now these two things are in my life.

I made him soup, rice and 4 sandwiches full of everything I could put on them, I don't even cook for myself and here I am cooking for him.

I knocked on the door and when he opened it his face lit up immediately.

He devoured everything while I was watching him amused, I thought I would have to save food that he would left but I guess he's still the same, he used to eat so much when we're little and right now it's just the same.

He finished up the last sandwich and I swear his eyes looked they had stars on it, they were shining and he looked happy, I felt like my heart softened but I quickly shook the thought off from my head.

"T-thank you, I know you didn't do it because you wanted to but I'm still thankful." He said and for a moment I felt like I was having a heart attack.

"Go to sleep." I said and he nodded cutely crawling to the sofa.

I smiled without noticing it and turned the light off.

"Goodnight Namjoon"

"Shut up Seokjin."

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I'm so sad that Jin can't remember his past ;-; and Namjoon still thinks that Jin's bad. Omg I'm crying.

Just kidding xD please enjoy reading and thank you.

God bless chu.