"Anxiety" | Namjin (Editing)

Chapter 21

"Hey is Namjoon, can we meet at a park? I would like to hang out with you at least just for today if you want, maybe?" My heart nearly exploded when I read the message and a huge smile was plastered on my face in that moment.
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{Jin}

I walked to the assigned park where he said he would be, the cold weather was giving me chills and I totally forgot to bring a jacket with me, well shit.

I heard someone call my name and when I looked to my right I saw him sitting on a bench holding two cups of coffee smiling at me showing his deep dimples, how I missed that smile so much.

"Hey" I said smiling, I haven't smiled like this for like more than 7 years, it feels good.

"Hey, I bought you hot chocolate and here, some cookies." He said giving me a huge ass cup of hot chocolate and a bag of chocolate chip cookies.

I laughed out loud making him look at me confused.

"This is way too much Namjoon."

"It fits just perfectly on your flat stomach, we both know that." I laughed again and he looked at me amused with a huge smile on his face which I also haven't seen in years.

We both stared at eachother until the atmosphere got awkward and I cleared my throat looking away.

"So... You wanted to hang out?"

"Yes, of course but I had something else to talk to you."

"You mean like clear things?"

"Yeah, I wanted to talk about the situation about our parents." He said trying to not sound awkward.

"Um yeah, I know..."

"Where are they living now?"

"They're constantly moving countries and places but right now they're in China, I came to Korea to finish investigating and to tell the truth on tv."

"Can I help you in something?"

"Please don't get involved Namjoon, I know you're eager to know but eventhough they're faking their death they're as powerful as ever and I dot want you to get hurt so please stay out of it for now."

"Okay I'll do as you say." He said looking down disappointed.

"How's your dad?"

"He's fine, he's a little sick but he's showing progress everyday, and well my mom is doing fine I guess, she's not the same but she's fine."

"I really want to meet them one day, but I'm not brave enough to show my face to them though."

"They're eager to meet you, mom asks almost everyday about you and dad also says he really wants to see you again. I'm sure they'll have no problem meeting you again."

I looked down and as I did the cold breeze hit my skin sending chills all over my body, Namjoon noticing the situation took off his jacket and put it around me I instantly felt butterflies on my stomach, I guess my feelings for him haven't changed one bit.

"Y-you don't have to it's really cold you'll get sick."

"It's okay as long as you're the one who doesn't get sick at all." He said smiling widely.

"I feel so bad honestly."

"Why?"

"I've been a dick to you this whole time and you're still the same, I made you suffer for 7 years and I still do and you're still as caring as always."

"Well, I guess I'm paying my doubt to you, when we were on highschool I treated you like shit remember? And you still fell in love with this bastard." This time his smile was fading and his dimples weren't showing anymore.

"That wasn't your fault also Joonie, you know that."

He looked down and said:
"I wish you remembered everything from when we were kids, you used to sing to me single night and after that you would kiss my forehead and leave, most of the time I would cry because you left and you had to stay with me till I fell asleep. Do you still love me the same, hyung?"

I was now sobbing, I just can't understand how a person is able to tear apart one person's dream and be so veil and the worst thing is that the person who made all this to the person I loved was my own parents.

"I love you so much Joonie, I miss you and I can't wait till this is over so I can finally be with you just like how we want." I said cupping his cheeks with my hands kissing his forehead.

"I love you and miss you too, and please stay safe I beg you I don't want to lose you or anything again." His eyes were also full of tears now and we hugged eachother, we really don't wanted to let go so I think we stayed like that for more than 10 minutes.
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"See you tomorrow at work, right?" He asked, we were now at my apartment.

"Of course." I said smiling at him.

"Well, see you tomorrow princess." He smiled opening the door and left.

I also smiled but, it was a bittersweet smile. I knew that tomorrow would be a rough day and a really dangerous one and that worried me a lot.

"Got everything ready for tomorrow?" Taehyung asked as he and Jungkook came out of their room.

"Yeah, the only thing I need is the spectacles and that pin you told me about the other time that could record."

"I put it on your bag don't forget it. You'll give them a huge surprise huh?" He said laughing while Jungkook was just checking his camera not paying too much attention to the conversation.
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The next day

I walked through the halls of the company making my way to the room that the interview would take place.

I felt an anxiety attack coming so I stopped and took out the bottle of pills and also took a deep breath trying to calm down. When I felt better, I decided to keep going.

Now infront of the door I had a smirk on my face knowing that something big and really interesting will happen today at the company. I turned the doorknob opening the door revealing myself with a smirk on my face. Those persons were laughing and making joke, and as soon as they turned around to see who came in their faces fell instantly.

"Well good morning Mr. And Mrs. Kim, my name's Seok Jin and I will be your interviewer for today."
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