"Anxiety" | Namjin (Editing)

Chapter 20

"Kim Seok Hyun, not death."
"Some people's souls are so wicked, that for them going to hell would be a vacation instead of a curse or a tragedy." -Seokjin.

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{Jin}

I haven't had an anxiety attack for like more than 3 years now and since I saw him again, they came back.

I got out of the bathroom where I had my first anxiety attack of the day , looking pale and lifeless I walked through the corridors of the company, nobody was there, everyone were at their office minding their own business.

I quickly picked up my bag only to notice that something was missing and it was my journal. I literally feel like my soul just left my body, I quickly ran through the corridors making my way to the dressing room, I just really hope no one saw what's inside of it.

When I opened the door my heart broke in pieces at the sight of Namjoon sitting on the floor reading the journal sobbing. When he noticed that I was on the room he rushed towards me grabbing me by the neck and pushed me against the wall.

"Why didn't you tell me?! Just why?!? Why did oh go through this alone when I could've helped you and support you, just tell me!!!!" He screamed and the grip on his neck only got tighter.

"Please Namjoon..."I said trying to breath and when he noticed what he was doing he let go. To my surprise, he rested his head on my chest, tired and obviously still crying, I quickly hugged him tightly and explained everything.

"That night when my parents "died" I received a phone call from the one you thought was my boyfriend, telling me to meet him so I did. He worked for my father and he also wanted vengeance so he told me to go with him and his husband to do it. I know and I'll never even forgive myself for leaving you but I had to, I don't wanted you to get hurt again." The hug only got tighter as he hugged me this time crying really hard.

When he stopped crying a little he said:
"Are you really coming back to me as my boyfriend when you finish this?"

"Of course Joonie." I said playing with his hair.

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It's been a week and everything has been well... Not normal but Namjoon and I have been in good terms, as for my parents we sent a detective to spy and give us information about them, an when I have just more than enough evidence, I'll give a VERY special report on the news.

"Seokjin-ah, the spy sent some interesting pictures." Taehyung said coming from his bedroom hold on his laptop on his hands.

"When do you think I should give a report about this on the tv?"

"Wait just one month, and Jin, you know you can't tell anyone in the company you'll do this, except for Jungkook."

Jungkook applied for the company and he surprisingly got accepted really quick as a VJ.

"Okay Tae, oh and please send me the pictures of Seokhyun."

"You mean your dad?"

"Did I had one?" I said laughing sarcastically.

I got up to head to my room and received a message.

"Hey is Namjoon, can we meet at a park? I would like to hang out with you at least just for today if you want, maybe?" My heart nearly exploded when I read the message and a huge smile was plastered on my face in that moment.

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This is a really short chapter, I know lmao but the next one will be longer and more interesting I promise, I miss you guys so much I've been like out of this amazing world because of school and other shit.

By the way, check out my other ff "monster" please ㅜ_ㅜ.

I love you :*