"Anxiety" | Namjin (Editing)

Chapter 18

"Namjoon I-"

"Just forget it" I said and walked off.
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{Namjoon}

I woke up by the sound of the alarm, I rubbed my puffy eyes that were crying the whole night. Getting out of bed I looked at the mirror to see my face as pale as ever and dark circle were under my eyes, indicating I haven't slept much.

I got in the shower and while I was washing my hair, flashbacks of Jin came to my mind.

"Will you be my boyfriend?"

He jumped on me hugging him until I told him I couldn't breath and he said:

"Yes!!! Omg are you for real?"

"Well, we were making out and everything, so why not asking you to be my boyfriend?"

He blushed madly hitting my arm playfully.

"Give me a peck." I said.

"There's people here, they'll look at us." He said looking down.

I frowned standing up on a bench.

"Hello everyone, my name's Namjoon and I'm here with my boyfriend Jin. I just asked him to be my boyfriend and he said yes but when I asked him to give me a kiss on the lips he said no because you would stare at us, now I want to ask, are you guys offended or feel disgusted by the fact we are a couple and I want to do what a normal couple would do?" I said, and his face was red like a tomato, tears formed in his eyes and my heart was beating so hard at that moment, he was my everything.

"NO!! Kiss, kiss, kiss!!!" The crowd cheered.
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When I reached the company everyone stared at me because of the dark circles under my eyes and my unusual pale face, I just looked down ignoring the stares I just went straight to the dressing room waiting for my coordinator to fix my hair and face, to my surprise, the person who went through the door wasn't my coordinator, it was Jin. We looked at eachother but I quickly looked to the other side ignoring his presence.

"Namjoon, let-" he tried to say but I cut him off.

"Don't, please I don't wanna know we're just strangers after all."

"Namjoon it's not wh-"

"I do NOT want to know about your fucking life, and again, it's Reporter Kim for you." I said leaving the room, tears once again falling down making its way down to my cheeks, I shouldn't have come to work.

I went to the boss office to excuse myself because I couldn't stay any longer in this situation here.

"Are you sure you don't want me to take you to the doctor? You look really sick Namjoon and you have never skipped work like this." Mr. Park said.

"I'll go by myself but thank you anyways boss." I said forcing a smile at him, I bowed and left the room.

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I was now at Yoongi's coffee shop, I decided to stay at his house for a few days until he gets better, he handed me the coffee and said:
"Why do you look like you fought with the devil?"

I looked down at my coffee and took a sip from it trying to ignore what the older said to me.

"Fucking dumbass butch why the fuck you ignored me you fucking lizard?!" He growled as he hit me with a cloth on his hand making the customers look at us.

"Shut up, I'll tell you when we get to your house, it's about Jin..." I said breaking down in tears once again.

"OMG Joonie, here take the keys and wait for me at home I'll be there early I'll just tell Hani to close the store for me." He said giving me the keys and smiling at me, honestly, I couldn't ask for a better friend.

I left the coffee shop and quickly made my way to Yoongi's apartment, stopping at a convenience store to buy snacks and beer, while I was in the snacks isle I saw a boy who looked like he was on his early 20's but was dressed as a business man so I'll just say he's in his mid 20's. He noticed me looking at him and turned his face to look at me, I noticed that he had a name tag placed on the left side of his tuxedo which read "Kim Tae Hyung". That name sounds so familiar, wait, isn't he Jin's boyfriend or husband?

"Um, excuse me I noticed you keep staring at me. Do you need anything?"

"Do you... Perhaps know Kim Seokjin?" I asked with a cold tone and a sad expression on my face, if he said yes and that he was his boyfriend I don't know what I'll do from now on.

"Ah, yes I'm actually his-"

"Um, I have to go okay? Sorry, I don't feel okay nice to meet you anyways."

"Well I guess, see you later (?)"

"I guess..." I said quickly leaving the store like a fool, I have to admit I had a tiny bit of hope that he would say he didn't knew Jin at all and that all of this was a lie and that Jin never left me and this is just a bad dream or maybe I'm just stuck in a parallel world or some kid of shit like that. But no, this is more real than breathing and living.

I sat down on the sofa now at yoongi's apartment, I just decided to wait for him and tell him everything so I turned the tv on watching the news.

While I was watching the news I received a text message from yoongi saying:

"Sorry 😁"

"What happened? Why are you sorry?"

"I'm sorry for what I'm about to do."

Confused I decide to call him instead but at that exact time some ringed the bell, to be honest I got a little scared because I knew yoongi might be doing a prank or something on me because you know... He's the devil himself, so I cautiously walked to the door and when I twisted the knob to reveal who was behind it, my eyes were almost going to fall out of my eyes.

It wasn't Yoongi or a thief, it wasn't even my father who was the least person I wanted to know about, it was Jin.

He looked at me panting, a look on his face I had never seen and I swear that state was leaving breathless but when I came to my senses I was about to slam the door shut but it was too late because he entered the apartment shutting the door but what he exactly did next was the thing they shocked me the most.

He pulled me by the waist trapping my lips with his own, I was trying to fight against it but I gave in, I missed this so much that even if it was wrong right now because he would obviously be cheating on his boyfriend, I'll do it without regretting it.

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Hello bitches, jk Lmao.

Should I do a smutty nutty chapter? 🌚🌚

Or nah?

Thank you for reading the story I hope you enjoyed, BYE.

Btw. Sorry I just wanted to say that my smol mind is giving me some ideas to do a scifi fanfic .-.

And I want you guys to tell me if you have any like bands you would like me to do the ff about, please not Bts (it's not because I don't love them) but I already have two so I want to have like a variety (?) anyways please let me know I will be so greatful, now BYE.