"Anxiety" | Namjin (Editing)

Chapter 17

{Jin}

I was deep in thought and felt a prescience behind me walking the same way I was, I slowed down a little bit my pace and the person also did the same so I obviously knew someone was following me and I started picking up my pace and all of the sudden, the person grabbed my arms pushing me into an empty studio, pushed me against the wall trapping both of my hands putting them on my sides.

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"N-Namjoon?" I asked as I immediately recognized the similar scent.

"Why are you here?!"

"Stop it h-hurts!"

"Is that more important?! Why did you came back? Did you heard I worked here?!"

"No..."

"AND WHY ARE YOU HERE?! WHY DID YOU HAVE TO APPEAR NOW?! YOU DO REALIZED HOW MANY YEARS HAVE PAST SINCE YOU LEFT ME RIGHT?!"

I looked down, tears falling off my eyes I couldn't believe he was acting like this but I understand him completely, I left him anyways.

"You know the reason I left Joon."

"We could've solve it together and you know it."

I just stayed quiet, only tears falling down and sobs leaving my mouth.

"Joon-"

"It's Boss Kim for you Mr Jin." He said and left leaving me there crying like a lost child.

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{Namjoon}

"It's Boss Kim for you Mr. Seokjin" I said and left the room crying.

I went to the bathroom to wash my face, my heart hurts so much. I feel so stupid for doing that but I just couldn't hold it back.

"Reporter Kim, we'll be on air in a few minutes please come to the studio quickly." One of the VJ's said.

"Ah, yes sorry."

On my way to the studio I saw him again walking, he looked like a lost child that recently lost her mother breaking my heart into pieces, I grabbed his arm and said:

"Mr. Seokjin, would you wait a few minutes for me? I have to discuss some issues about our work so I would like if we talked about it."

They were all lies, I just wanted to see him and see if he was doing well but I wanted to approach him the right way.

"I-I have n-no prob-blem, I'll wait for you in the studio." He said and I just nodded and left.

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When everything was done I bid goodbye to everyone and looked at Jin signaling him to come with me, we walked to a coffee shop and sat there.

"What would you like to drink?" A waiter asked us.

"1 vanilla bean latte for him and I just want a cappuccino with extra whipped cream."

"You still remember?"

"I never forgot about you..."

He looked down sadly and then looked at me saying:
"You told me you wanted to discuss something about the work, what is it?"

"I was just lying, I wanted to talk to you that's it."

"I thought you didn't wanted to see me."

"I do want to see you, but that doesn't mean I'm not mad at you."

"Where have you been all these years?"

"China."

"Why?"

"They're there..."

"Who?"

"Some people I'm investigating."

I knew he was lying, I know his habit of playing with his fingers whenever he's lying, but I just ignored it and just nodded at him.

"Did the investigation got solved?"

"We have some evidence but we still need time."

"And why did you moved again to Korea?" I was hoping for him to say that the reason he moved again was because of me but I thought wrong.

"I came to do some investigations about the same case."

"Did you mis-"

His fucking phone just had to interrupt when I was about to ask him something important.

"Ah, Taehyung? Yes I'll be home now, want me to bring you some food? Ok see you home."

Those words felt like a knife stabbing me multiple times in my heart and soul, I felt dizzy so I just stood up while he looked at me frowning and asking me something that I couldn't figure out what were those words.

I left the coffee shop running and he was calling me like crazy but I just ignored him and kept running.

The person who told me to wait for him, not 1 or 2 years but I waited 7 fucking years for him which felt like eternity is living with another man, maybe they're even married? I don't want to think about it.

I felt someone running behind me and I stopped, if it was a delinquent who wants to take my life I would gladly let him do it, but it wasn't a delinquent it was Jin.

"What happened? You left so sudden I thought something bad happened to you!" I only scoffed and took his hands away from my shoulders.

"Mr. Kim Seok Jin, 7 years ago you left a letter saying to fucking wait for you and I fucking did!!!! I never looked at any man eventhough I had a lot of man who were interested in me yet when they confess their feelings for me I rejected them telling them I was waiting for someone, even if it took 50 years or more I would still fucking wait for you and here you are... Living with another man and totally forgot about this fool who waited for you like crazy 7 fucking years!!!!"

"Namjoon I-"

"Just forget it" I said and walked off.

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