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Depressed!Suho X Reader

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Depressed!Suho X Reader

Your POV:
I wonder what's wrong. I just called Joonmyun to tell him that I am going home and to ask him when he will be back, but he told me that he is already at home and is waiting for me. He sounds sick, I hope he is alright. I am almost home.

Suho's POV:
I can't stand this anymore. It is so hard. I worked so many years and try so hard, but sometimes it is just too much. I need to be strong, I need to be the leader. I think I am doing a good job, but I have so many doubts. Our popularity is rising, the pressure is getting stronger, everyone is watching our group's every move. As the leader, if anything happens, I am the one to blame. As the leader, I need to guide the members, help them with their problems, but sometimes I don't have the answers, sometimes I need help. But I can't talk to the members about my problems and I don't want to burden (Name). I care about her and I understand that she must have her own problems as well.
*Ring* *Ring*
"Joon-oppa, I am home! Where are you?"
"I am coming, (Name)."
It's funny, from just hearing her voice I feel better. She has such a strong affect on me.

Your POV:

You hear footsteps coming down the stairs and turn around to great Joonmyun, but you instantly notice something is off. He is less cheery and you can see dark bags under his eyes. When he smiles at you it is genuine, but feels a bit forced, as if can hardly muster the strength to slightly move his lips. He silently walks over to you and embraces you. He looks so fragile, so pale. You can feel how cold his hands are through the thin fabric of your shirt. He lets go of you and silently goes to the living room, where you usually eat dinner, while watching TV. His strange behavior worries you and you quickly heat up your dinner, that you prepared in the morning.
You bring the food to Joonmyun and sit next to him. He hardly eats, watching the TV in silence. You keep stealing glances his way, but he just stares aimlessly at the television set in front of you. You can't take this anymore, you have to understand what is the matter with him. He is sitting on the floor in front of the couch, skipping through the different channels. You gently take the remote away from him and turn off the television. He doesn't even turn around.
"Oppa."
No response.
"Joon-oppa!"
Still nothing.
"Joonmyun, please look at me."
You notice his shoulders are shaking, but before you can get off the couch and look at his face, he turns towards you and wraps his arms around your waist, burying his face into your stomach. You are surprised, but quickly lean down and kiss his head, pat his back and try to calm him down. You can feel his tears soaking through your shirt, but right now you are more worried about what is troubling Joonmyun to such an extent. You loosen his grip around your waist and sit on the floor in front of him. He quickly brings you back into his embrace, with his face in the crook of your neck and arms holding you tight. You open your mouth to say something, but he quietly pleads in your ear, his voice weak and shaky.
"(Name), please, just let me hold you, without any questions. I can't find the strength to say anything yet."
You silently nod and place your head on his shoulder, clutching at the fabric of his shirt.
You don't know how long you sit like that, in each others embrace. It could have been hours or just a few moments, you don't know.
Then, he calmly gets up.
"It is getting late, let's go to bed."
And with that he swiftly goes up the stairs.
You hurriedly turn off all of the lights and head towards your shared bedroom.
You enter and see his clothes carelessly thrown on the floor, and him sitting on the bed in just sweatpants that he goes to sleep in. He is sitting hunched over with his face in his hands. He is sitting with his back to you.
You don't know what to say, so you simply climb onto the bed and hug him from behind. You leave a light kiss on the back on his neck and he takes your hands in his and kisses your fingers
"Oppa, what happened? I know you don't want to tell me because you don't want to burden me, that is the kind of person you are, but your actions right now and more of a burden. You not telling me what is troubling you is hurting me. I can't stand to see you so weak, because I feel helpless. I don't know how to help you and it's ripping me apart. Please, Oppa, tell me what's wrong."
"(Name), am I good leader?"
"Of course you are, without your guidance, the members wouldn't have been able to stay a team for so long, their teamwork is all thanks to you. They all come to you with their problems and you help them."
"But what if I can't? What if I need help?"
"That's simple."
"Really? Who can I ask?"
"Me, of course."
He turns around and looks into your eyes. You smile and lean forward, so that your foreheads are touching.
"Oppa, I may not be as wise or mature as you, but I am your girlfriend and I am always willing to hear you out and help you. You help and support me in so many ways, I want to be able to do the same for you."
He listens to what you say and smiles. He softly kisses your lips and nuzzles your noses together.
"I have always known this, but today I see it clearer than ever."
"What?"
"You are all I need for happiness."
You are deeply touched and can't help but smile even wider.
"Let's go to sleep."
You lie down in each others embrace and Joonmyun feels as if a weight has been lifted from his heart. He pulls you sleeping figure closer and a small giggle escapes his lips. You looks at your sleeping features with pure love and sincere gratitude. He lightly kisses your lips, so that you don't wake up and whispers into your ear.
"You are my happiness, (Name). I love you."
He closes his eyes and falls asleep, but not before noticing the small smile that creeps onto your lips.
I love you too, Joon-oppa.