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Depressed!Youngjae X Reader

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Depressed!Youngjae X Reader

Your POV:

It has been about a week since me and Oppa have sat down and just talked. He has been so distant lately and I can clearly see that something is bothering him, but he won't open up to me. He won't talk to any of his band-mates either. I have been trying to talk to him, but he just knows how to change the subject or escape the conversation. When I woke up this morning, Oppa was still sleeping. I had to go out and do some shopping, but a few hours passed already, so he should be awake already. I won't let him escape this time. I want to help him.

You enter the apartment and see him sitting on the couch in your living room. His eyes are glazed over and he is looking off into space. He has not noticed your presence yet and simply continues to sit lifeless on the couch. You can't stand to see him this way and drop your bags, making your way over to him. The sudden noise snaps him out of his daydream and his attention is now on you. You are standing in front of him with so many questions racing through your mind, but you can't seem to put them into words. You feel so helpless. Suddenly, Youngjae's eyes widen and he quickly stands up, gently stroking your cheeks. You realize you had started crying and you quickly muster up your courage. You needed to help him, this was no time to be showing how heartbroken you were by the whole situation.

"Oppa?"
"Yes? What is it, (Name)?"
"You wouldn't lie to me, right?"
"No. Why would you ever think that?"
"I just wanted to make sure."
He looks utterly confused as he studies your face.
"Oppa, are you feeling okay?"
He hesitates, but smiles at you. After knowing him for so long, you can tell that it's a mask.
"Of course I am. Why do you ask-"
"-Liar."
"W-What?"
"Please, Don't lie to me, Oppa. I know that something has been eating you alive for some time. We have been together for long enough for you to trust me, no?"
"I....want to, but.....I just can't....."
"Oppa..."
His eyes soften and you can see the real feelings of pain and doubt swimming in those eyes that you have come to love. He seems so lost. You understand that you won't get any information out of him right now. You take him by the hand and silently lead him to the bedroom you share. He doesn't know what to say, so he silently lets you drag him. You enter the bedroom and lead towards the bed, motioning for him to sit down. You then proceed to close the curtains and turn off or remove any light that penetrates the confines of your room. Once that is done, you slowly make your way through the darkness and sit down on the bed. You feel around for Youngjae and find that he is in the same spot as where you left him. You gently tug on his arm and lie down, with him lying nest to you.
"Oppa, no one can judge you now, no one can see your tears, you can even imagine that I am not here, but please say what is bothering you. Holding it in isn't good for you. If someone is hurting you or offending you I will go make them stop, beat them up if I have to, if you want something I will go anywhere and do anything to get it for you, just for you to smile genuinely once again and for the sadness to disappear from your eyes."
The moment you finish your speech, you can feel warm arms wrap tightly around you in a bone-crushing hug, but you don't care because you haven't really properly hugged him in a while. Lately, you had to initiate all of your hugs and would only get a weak response, but right now he was holding on to you as if you were his life line. You could not help but feel happy for finally getting through to him.
"(Name)....You love me, right?"
"Of course!"
"Why?"
"What? What do you mean why? Why shouldn't I love you?"
"It's just.....I feel that I am not good enough. Not good enough for B.A.P., not good enough to be an idol....not good enough for you."
"W-Where did you get that from?!"
"I was just thinking-"
"-Stop. Oppa, B.A.P. would not have made it this far if all of you hadn't worked hard and you are just as important as any of the other members and of course you are good enough to be my boyfriend. Youngjae, you have never been mean to me, you always look out for me, put up with me, spend time with me, even though you come home dead tired from you schedules, you know who I truly am an love me for it. You are everything I could want in a boyfriend."
"But I am busy most of the time."
"Yes...I know, but even if in the day time you are out preforming or training, in the evenings you come back here. You may come back sometimes at 2 or 3 in the morning, but you still come back and gently hold me in you arms. I don't completely fall asleep until I feel your arms around me. I know this sounds cheesy, but it is how I truly feel."
"Thank you so much...."
"Huh? For what?"
"Telling me your true feelings and making me understand that I can rely on you. And...that I mean so much to you..."
"Of course you do, Oppa. I am glad I could help you."
You feel him stroke your hair gently and leave kisses all over your face until he finally finds your lips in the darkness and gives you a strong kiss. All of the feelings he has trouble expressing through words he tries to pass on through that one kiss. You realize how much you have missed kissing him and hold to him tighter. You begin to feel feel a bit lightheaded and he breaks away, but still stays close enough for you to feel his warm breath tickle your lips.
"Saranghae, (Name)."
You smile and reply with another kiss.