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Suga X Insecure!Reader

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Suga X Insecure!Reader

I can't take much more of this.
I know that this is probably all in my head, but I still can't get rid of these thoughts.
I look in the mirror and see a plain, ugly human being and I question myself every day, why is Yoongi still with me? He is surrounded by gorgeous girls every day and he doesn't seem to show them any interest. He tells me he loves me, but I can't help but doubt him. I know all relationships are supposed to be built on trust, but I can't help but feel this way. These thoughts are me alive. Yoongi is not the most affectionate of people, so I don't really initiate anything between us, but I noticed that lately we hardly even hug anymore. Could it be that he has finally lost interest. If I knew he was comfortable with it, I wouldn't let him go, but I don't know how to talk to him about it. Maybe this means that he wants us to break up? We are drifting apart and he just doesn't know how to break the news to me.
I won't be able to take it if he tells me that he doesn't love me anymore, so I will save myself from the heartbreak and leave.
I don't have that much stuff so it takes about half an hour for me to gather some of my things. The rest I can just send for later. It's not like he will need any of it. It is already dark outside and it is raining, but I never minded the rain. I pick up my bag and leave the note on the kitchen table. I reach for the door, but before I can step out into the cold, I meet face to face with a soaking Yoongi. He looks at me and then at my bags with a puzzled face.
"Where are you going at this hour?"
Hurry (Name)! Think!
"M-My parents c-called and asked them if I could come over. They need my h-help and wanted me to come right away."
Smooth.
"Oh, okay. Just wait here, I will go get some water and I will drive you there."
You wait for him to turn the corner and quickly head for the door. You are opening the door, when you hear glass shattering.
The note!!!
"(Name)!"
You turn around and run out into the rain. You run until you feel so tired, you are about to collapse.
Suddenly, you feel a pair of strong arms around your waist. You spin around and see Yoongi looking at you with an angry and hurt expression. You try to get away, but he holds on tight and throws you over his shoulder. You are too weak to protest, so you simply let him carry you.
When you get home, he does not look at you. He puts your bag in the living room and begins leading you to your bedroom. He takes out some pajamas and throws them onto the bed next to you. He then takes his pajamas and goes to the bathroom to change.
You change out of your wet clothes and quietly lie down, waiting for Yoongi to return.
He enters the room and you quickly sit up. He puts clothes on a chair and sit down at the edge of the bed, facing away from you, and buries his face in his hands.
You have never seen Yoongi like this. Did you really mean that much to him?
"Y-Yoongi?"
His shoulders are shaking and you know he is crying. Yoongi was a strong person, but he was human too and could be a very breakable being. You crawled closer to him and hesitantly put a hand on his shoulder. You wanted to hug him more than anything, but you were afraid that he would push you away. That he wouldn't accept you. He turns around and can't hold back, so he roughly yanks you forward into his embrace. He clings to you like a lifeline and you are trying to stop yourself from full-out sobbing onto his chest. He calms down a bit and looks you in the eyes. You see pain and anger.
"Why would you leave me? Did I do something wrong? Did I make you uncomfortable? I know that at times I might not be the best boyfriend. I don't take you to fancy places and over-the-top romance is not my thing, but for you I can change. What made you decide to leave me?"
You shake your head at him.
"I don't need anything of the sort, Yoongi. It's just....I thought you were going to dump me, so I wanted to save myself from the heartbreak...."
"W-Why would I....?"
"I can't help but feel as if you have drifted away from me. That you don't want to even hug me anymore. Not to mention, you are constantly surrounded by beautiful girls that would love your attention, so what is holding you back?"
He stiffens, but lunges at you, kissing every inch of your face he can and tightly holding your waist. He stops and holds himself up, hovering over you. He looks down at you.
"You have no idea how much I wanted to hold you, but he seemed distant and I thought that you didn't like it, so I tried to control myself. (Name), if I could, I would never let you go, I would lay in bed cuddling with you all day ever day."
"It's not that I didn't like it, it's just I was insecure about you being so close to me. I was afraid you would notice more of my imperfections and you wouldn't want to be near me. I was afraid you would realize that I am not as good as you thought I was and that you deserve better...."
"....silly girl."
He lowers himself onto the bed and lays his head on your chest, snuggling into your side and wraps his arms around your waist. He reaches for your hand and places and kiss to the sensitive skin of your palm and you twitch. He keeps leaving feather kisses on your palm and the inside of your wrist, making you unable to hold back your giggles. He looks up at you and brings you hand to his chest, right where his heart is. You can feel the fast beat of his heart, which once again proves how worried he was. In turn, he can hear your heart beating next to his ear at a rapid pace.
"(Name), I love every inch of you and I would never leave you over something like that. Looks aren't that important to me. You will always be the only one in my eyes, remember that. I may not look it, but I need human contact just like anyone else. When I had to restrain myself from touching you too much, it was unbearable for me. I really wanted to simply lie in bed with you like this . Spending my Sundays like this is all I could ever ask for. Hearing your heart beating and kissing you all day is enough to make me happy. I now know what you were thinking and I realized that you enjoy this just as much as I do, so don't think you can escape from me."
You smile through the tears that are threatening to fall and he props himself up on his elbows to wipe away your tears. He gives you a kiss on your lips, then he makes his way down to your neck and finally he leaves a kiss right above your heart before once again lying comfortably on your chest with his arms around your waist. He nuzzles his face into the fabric of your pajamas.
"I love you, (Name)."
"I love you too, Yoongi."
You wrap your arms around his head and leave a quick kiss on his forehead before falling into a peaceful sleep.