Falling In Love With Death

23: Can I Do It?

Amaryllis Roman

"Havoc?" I asked. Chaos nodded.

"Don't look so surprised, you would have met him eventually."

"Well I don't know him, why can't you come with me." I asked.

"Hawaii isn't my territory." He said shrugging.

"Territory?"

"I don't collect souls on islands, therefore If I did go with you, then Death would most certainly notice."

"Then what is your territory." I asked.

"Mostly the southern parts." He said vaguely.

"Of America?" I asked, Chaos snorted.

"Of the world Lis." I blinked.

"T-the w-world? How do three guys do the world?" Chaos laughed.

"Well we do just fine." I scowled.

"That's a really bad joke." He shrugged.

"It worked a hundred years ago."

"I'm sure it didn't work even back then." Chaos coughed awkwardly and shoved his hands in his pocket. I laughed.

"Anyways if Havoc's coming with me, then we need to set a few ground rules, but wait is he even aware of our plan?" I asked.

"He's up to date. The only ground rule you need to set, is hands to yourself, trust me Lis no matter how much you'll want to hit him...don't."

"Why would I want to hit him?" Chaos chuckled nervously.

"No reason, just keep that in mind. He's coming right now so be polite." I snorted.

"When am I not." I said proudly.

"Wait he's coming now? Chaos I'm in sweats." I shrieked.

"So? You were in shorts and a stained tee shirt when I first met you." I scowled.

"Yea well you were being an asshole and I didn't have a heads up that time, now however I do."

"She's trying to look pretty for me, Chaos would you look at that, Death should watch out." I heard a deep voice with a heavy British accent say.

This should be fun.

"Havoc, I'm assuming." I said turning around. Havoc was sitting down on my study table with one leg propped up on my chair and the other crossed over it. He had dirty blonde hair and hazel eyes, he looked to be a little older than Chaos, maybe mid 20's?

"Guilty. I've heard quite a lot about you Amaryllis. I'm intrigued to see what it is about you that has Chaos and Death glued to your side. And Mali..." He whistled and hit his knee.

"Even she wants you, clearly your a trouble magnet." He said standing up. He pushed the chair away and slowly walked towards me stopping barely a foot away.

"I like trouble."

"Havoc cut it out." Chaos said irritated.

"What? I'm just having some fun." He said putting his hands up in defense.

"Chaos, do you really except me to go to Hawaii, with him?" I whispered harshly.

"No amount of whispering will be unheard by me. I'm supernatural Amaryllis." I frowned but bit my tongue nonetheless. Right, they had super hearing. Of course they did.

"Well then I'll say it to you. I don't want to go with you, sorry for wasting your time." I said avoiding eye contact. The little space between us vanished as he pushed himself against me as I slammed into my wall. My already bruised sides were yelling in pain.

"If you want to enter my territory, I suggest you address me properly, your pitiful existence is but a blink of an eye to me, hear my warning otherwise I may just lead the sinistrams to you myself, let's see how you fair on your own. Last time you didn't do so wel-" But Havoc was pulled off of me and thrown across the room hitting my mirror, shattering it as he fell to the floor.

"I didn't ask you to come here only to have you act like this." Chaos roared. I flinched at his harsh tone, I'd never seen Chaos this angry before.

"You didn't ask at all." Havoc spat.

"Your right I didn't, I ordered you because I'm your senior." Havoc averted his eyes, and pressed his lips into a thin line. Chaos took a long drawn out breath and sighed.

"Just do it Havoc. Let's not do this infront of her."

Havoc shook for a moment before regaining his composure and pushed himself up off the ground. He plastered on a fake smile and shifted his gaze to me.

"Can't wait sugar." He said as he walked towards the window and jumped onto the sil. He looked back at Chaos his eyes a fiery mess and jumped.

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I raced to the window sil my heart beating frantically at the thought of his crumpled body. I threw my head over the sil and gasped. There was nothing there.

"Supernatural, remember?" Chaos said appearing by my side.

"Right, sorry." I said bringing my head back in.

They couldn't die. They were death. Yet I had this uneasy feeling about thier safety.  I sighed and sat down.

"Next Monday is the break." I said breaking the silence.

"I'll arrange it." Chaos said softly.

"Lissa why are you wearing a turtle neck in the spring?" Chaos asked all of a sudden. I snapped back to reality and stood up.

"I was really cold last night." I said remembering the library.

"I'll see you later I have to go." I said grabbing my bag.

"Lis why are you rushing? You've got plenty of time at the library." I laughed bitterly.

"See Chaos the thing is, us humans have everything but time."

"Lis I didn't mean it like th-"

"Just go Chaos. It's 5 in the morning I've dealt with all I could considering I barely 3 got hours of sleep, ill deal with you when I'm less snippy now go please." I said walking towards my door. Before I reached the doorknob I looked to my side and saw my shattered mirror.

That was a metaphor for my life right now. Destroyed and dangerous. As I saw my reflection in the disfigured pieces I realized that if I stayed with death this was how my life would be. Was I really willingly to save the world at my own expense? Was I even that good of a person, if I think back I consider myself pretty selfish. I wanted my dad all to myself but he ended up leaving, I wanted Alex to be my friend even though I knew it would pain him to do so.

Could I really do this? Could I really protect Kokai? Save Death and ultimately the world?

"Can I do it?" I said as I stared at my reflection in the charred mirror pieces.

"Can I?"