I'm Not That Girl(Maya/Lucas/Riley)

Chapter 34.

Maya's pov-

I had barely any sleep, I couldn't get it off of my mind about what I did with Charlie..

I felt guilty, really guilty. Sure, Lucas and I had done some stuff that was to be considered bad in the past but neither of us would ever dare to dream to kiss someone else...

Did this make me a bad person? I felt like one, after Texas it was one bad thing after another.

I glanced over at my phone, there was one message off of Lucas asking me if he could come round to my place and several off of Charlie.
There was multiple of text messages off of him, apologising for what he had done last night.

I was as guilty as he was, I should be apologising also...but I didn't want to discuss it properly yet.. I didn't want anything to change, right now I just wished I could stay inside of my bedroom forever but that wasn't possible...

Lucas: Hi Maya! Can I come around today? I was thinking we could watch some movies or something, whatever you want.

I sighed, looking down at the message and feeling as guilty as ever for what I had done.

Maya: Not today, Lucas. I really don't feel well..

Lucas: What's wrong?

Well I couldn't exactly send him a message telling him I kissed somebody else and that I lied about not feeling well, can I?I'm officially the world's worst girlfriend.
It feels that way.

Maya: I just don't feel well, I've got stomach ache and I feel sick. It's best you don't come round.... I mean, really.. It could be contagious.

Lucas: Oh :( I hope you feel better soon, Maya. Have some rest.

I decided to check my messages from Charlie after this... There was a lot.

Charlie: Maya... I'm really sorry.

Charlie : Maya?

Charlie : Please answer...

Charlie: Maya, I get that you're angry but answer!

Charlie: ...

He felt as guilty as I did, I was in a huge mess with two people I cared deeply about. Boy, this was going to be a really difficult situation...

Maya: Charlie, I'm sorry too.. but it's best we don't talk for a while.

Charlie: Won't it look suspicious to Lucas if we don't talk?

Maya: I guess so...

Charlie: Can I come round, please?I won't stay long... and I'll even bring food too, I know that your mom is at work so you'll probably be eating late but I care about you, I want to know your okay.

Maya: I understand that Charlie, I really do.. Fine, I guess you can come over then.. Oh, and thanks for you going to bring me food.. it means a lot. Oh, and if anyone asks I'm ill..

Charlie: No problem, I'll be here in probably fifthteeen minutes or so, and okay.

I frowned and tried to be patient about Charlie coming over, I just wanted this to end despite it already just begun.

"Baby girl?"

I looked up from my phone to see my mum standing in my doorway. "Babygirl, what's wrong?Why haven't you left your bedroom?I would have thought that you wanted to have some fun today, like you did last night with your friends."

I tried to avoid contact with her and pretended to cough. "I think I've come down with something, I don't think I should go out today."

My mom looked concerned at this point and walked over to me. "Let me feel your temperature, you aren't normally ill."

"Um... no, don't feel it just get me some medicine!" I said, nervously. "Lots and lots of medicine!"

My mom nodded and walked out of the room, in search for medicine.
I sighed in relief, all of this was just too much. Maybe Charlie could help cheer me up, even though I got him involved in all of this mess.

All of the sudden I heard a knock on the front door, but I couldn't answer it.... I was ill, afterall.

My mom stopped looking for medicine and opened the door. "Hi there, Charlie. What can I do for you?"

"I came here to see Maya, I heard about her being ill and thought some Chinese food should do her some good." Said Charlie. "I've been brought some soup for her."

"Of course, come in. You might want to not sit so close to Maya when you go in her room, you could catch what she's got." Said my mom, sounding slightly worried.

"I'm sure I won't." Said Charlie. "I rarely get ill."

"Maya rarely gets ill, just be careful either way." Said my mom.

I heard some footsteps heading towards my bedroom and a door opening, than closing.

"Hey, Maya." Charlie said, smiling a little.

It wasn't a proper smile of his, I could tell. The smile seemed to lack... actual happiness?

"Hey, Charlie. Wanna sit down?" I said, gesturing towards my bed.

Charlie walked over to my bed and sat himself down, placing the food on my bedside table.

"Shall we talk then?"

"We'll have too, about yesterday.."

Charlie nodded.

"Why were you so upset first when you told me you liked me?" I said, biting my bottom lip. "You seemed really .... angry with yourself."

"I was angry with myself. How could I like you?You are dating Lucas, and then we kissed... which is all my fault, i've ruined everything for you, Maya." Said Charlie, frowning.

I sighed. "Charlie, you haven't ruined anything. I have, besides, I'm glad I know now, anyway."

"Why?"

"Because now ... I guess I have to figure out how I truly feel, you've been there for me a whole lot recently, and I'm really grateful for that.." I said smiling, a little.

He smiled back at me. "You feel the same, in some ways?"

"I do, but I still feel things for Lucas... I just need time, I guess."

Charlie nodded.