the love project ➛ austin mahone

11 - Do I like him?

Chapter 11

On the way home I was still shaken up a bit about what had happened. Not about Austin doing that. I mean it was nothing. He just tackled me like he was supposed and told me I was out.

It was me. How I felt when he was doing that. Like I wanted it to  be something.

Like how I wanted him to kiss me.

When I got home, I jumped out of the car and ran into the hosue without saying goodbye to any of them. My uncle still wasn't home so I didn't really care about being quiet. I kicked off my shoes and walked into my room and collapsed on my bed.

I had come up with one conclusion.

That I liked him.

But it seemed so wrong.

He's a player and my friend. You can't like a player and a friend!

But it felt like the only explanation, or maybe I was just over-thinking it.

But until I'm positive I can't and I mean can't tell anyone about this! I can't even tell anyone when I'm positive. This is a kind of thing that no one can find about especially Austin. I haven't really felt this way about anyone... ever.

I haven't really known anyone for most of my life.

But I also have never really had friends my whole life, which is why I can't lose them. So I just won't tell anyone.

Maybe I was just overthinking this whole thing.

I mean it was just Austin. There's nothing special about him that I would like I mean besides his piercing haxel eyes, how he always flips his hair and how he loves to wear snapbacks and beanies and how he always has that little smirk on his face-

Wait... maybe I do like him.

I sighed dreamily before closing my eyes and falling into deep sleep.

***

"Wake up Hayden," someone yelled and shook me awake. My eyes fluttered open as I recognized Uncle Ben standing in front of me.

"What time is it?" I mumbled.

"7:10, you better get ready," he explained. I nodded and slowly sat up, my head feeling dizzy. My head still hurt my last night.

Oh yeah... last night...

I blushed and my uncle gave me a weird look.

"You okay Hayden?" he asked.

"I'm fine, perfectly fine," I said happily and giggled. He gave me a suspicious look before leaving. I stood up from my bed and walked into the hallway and into the bathroom to take a shower.

***

"You have cross country after school so I'll pick you up at 5 okay?" he asked. I nodded and stepped out of his car and onto the curb. I closed the door shut and I looked around looking for Sarah. I spotted her in the corner sitting on a bench and I made my way over to her. She smiled when she saw me.

"Hi!" she said and I sat next to her.

"Hey, last night was fun, have you guys done that before?" I asked.

She nodded excitedly, "We used to do it every Friday but then we got busy, so now we just do it on random days where we're all free," she explained.

"Oh and that reminds me... I was meaning to ask you last night but I didn't get the chance.. where were you yesterday?" she asked.

"Umm, I-," I trailed off.

"Did you skip with Chelby?" she asked. Without thinking I nodded shamefully.

"She did that to me too. I thought we would  be good friends and I thought she actually liked me as a friend but she was just using me, don't hang out with ehr anymore okay?"

I wasn't surprised though. I secretly knew she was using me but I just needed to prove myself.

"Don't worry, all they talk about is clothes and stuff. I won't be hanging out with them anymore," I explained. She smield and then we both looked up and saw Austin walking over. 

I held my breath as he reached us.

"Hey guys," he said and sat next to me. We both said hi to him and I exhaled.

"Last night was so fun!" Sarah exclaimed.

Sarah and Austin went on and on about last night and when they will do it again.

I spaced out for a minute thinking about random things and then my dad came into my head. I wonder what he was doing. Probably locked up in that cell, starving.

I cringed at the thought. I know he was bad and deserved it, but in the end he was still my family and I gre up with him.

"You okay Hayden?" Sarah asked and raised her eyebrow at me. I looked up and saw Austin and Sarah staring at me.

"Oh uh yeah," I said and gave her a fake smile.Sarah bought it but I could tell Austin didn't.

"Oh there's Alex! I'm going to go talk to him! See you later!" Sarah said and zoomed off leaving me and Austin alone. I glared at Sarah as she ran towards Alex.

My heart fluttered as Austin put his hand on my shoulder. I held my breath and looked at his hand but he didn't pull it away. I met his gaze and butterflies filled my stomach.

"Are you okay?" he asked.

"Yeah...," I lied.

"You can talk to me you know," he whispered and leaned in closer to me, "You can tell me anything."

I let out a breath and looked at him for a second.

"You wouldn't understand," I muttered and looked away ignoring the urge inside of me to just kiss him. I looked up again. His lips... inches away, I just had to lean in and...

The bell rang and I cursed under my breath.

"We'll finish this later," he said and took off without another word. I sat there for another few seconds and smiled to myself.

He cared about me.

I stood up and shakily followed everyone to class.

***

The rest of the day went by in a blur. In drama, we just finished our question sheet and we'll be presented that in front of the whole class tomorrow.

At lunch, we just talked about what we usually did. Austin didn't look at me once.

And now school is over and I'm sitting outside the locker rooms tying my shoe on the bench.

"Hi," a familiar voice said behind me. I turned around and saw Alex standing in the doorway of the boy's locker rooms wearing a soccer jersey.

"Hi," I said and smiled at him. He walked over to me and sat down next to me.

"You got on the cross country? That's impressive. You have to be pretty fast for the cross country team. I tried out for the boy's team and didn't make it," he said. I raised my eyebrow at him.

"Really? Wow," I stated.

"Yeah, well I better go, soccer's about to start, see you later," he waved goodbye and left. I finished tying my shoes and walked out to the track.

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