the love project ➛ austin mahone

27 - Truth or Dare

Chapter 27

I pulled my knees to my chest and shut my eyes lightly. I didn't know what to do. I had no one to talk to about this. The only person I ever told anything was Austin. And I can't talk about how much I like Austin in front of Austin right?

I can't tell Sarah, I can't tell Alex, who else is there?

Rob...

My eyes widened. I could ask Rob for help. He knows Austin, he would know what to do, and I can trust him and he wouldn't judge me. I just have to wait for this dumb hike thing to be over so I can talk to him alone.

 I just need to let this out. I've been going crazy keeping this inside. I need to tell him my whole story. Not just Austin, but my mom, my dad, everything. I need someone who I can talk to about everything. I need someone who will understand, who will help me.

But what if he tells Austin? They're close friends...

A knock on the door interrupted me and I instantly knew who it was. I didn't answer, not wanting to talk to Austin at the moment.

"Hayden please open up. I know you're in there. I want to talk to you," he said. 

Without warning the door opened and Austin walked in. I sat up abruptly and glared at him.

"You idiot! I could've been chaning or something," I said a little harsher than I meant it to be and his face fell. I shifted my eyes. I couldn't bear to look at him when he was hurt.

"What's wrong? Did I say something?" he whispered the last part as he sat down at the edge of the bed I was laying on. I shook my head, still avoiding eye contact with him afraid that I would give in.

I can't even tell my best friends, so how on earth could I tell him?

"Hayden, um I'm sorry for whatever I did to upset you. I don't know maybe I'm overreacting and it wasn't even me, maybe it was some guy you liked who broke your heart-," I flinched as he said that and he unfortunately noticed.

"Oh Hayden... I'm sorry I didn't mean... who broke your heart?" he asked genuinely and I almost wanted to laugh out loud and say "It's you!"

"You can't physcially break someone's heart unless you take it out of their chest and stab it with a sharp knife," I said shyly,, looking at my hands and I heard him laugh which caused me to smile a little.

"There's my Hayden, now tell me something, Hayden you like me right? Like as in a brother right?" he asked and I held my breath not knowing what too say.

"No," I whispered hoping he wouldn't hear but no suck luck. He raised his eyebrow at me.

"Ok not yet at the brother/sister stage but that's not the point. You can trust me Hayden. I'm here for me. You can tell me who mentally broke your heart," he said and I smiled to myself when he said mentally.

"Um Austin I can't," I said and lifted my gaze up to meet his eyes. I couldn't read them, but he didn't look very happy.

"Why not?"

"U-um... because it's...," I stuttered, thinking of something to say. I was tempted to say "It's you" but we all know how that would turn out.

"Who is it Hayden?" he asked and brushed my cheek with his finger. I bit my lip, making sure not to say anything stupid. He also bit his lip and I looked down. Was he trying to seduce me or something? Because it was definitely working.

"N-no," I muttered under my breath.

"What do you mean no?" he asked, his face slowly getting red and his voice getting louder. I dhrunk back in my seat away from him.