Over (COMPLETED)

Over 29

SOPHIA

"Sorry I can't be there, but I know you'll gonna kill it " I cheered him up and he smiled instantly.

"Its fine, really. I also want to watch you sing one of the songs on your EP but I'm miles away. Just don't feel nervous, aright?" I nodded on my phone.

I'm having facetime with Greyson.

He is at Singapore, promoting his EP

"How's your flight? Had a jetlag?"

"A little. How 'bout you? How's Cologne?"

"Great. I'm just nervous right now" I confessed.

"Just think that you're just singing in front of my mirror." I laughed at his response.

"There. Always smile and be confident, you'll do great. Gotta go, babe. Good luck" He says and smiles.

"Good luck, call me after" I said and finally turned off my phone.

We've been at this set up for months, not really dating but we both like each other.

So yeah, its my first day at Shawn's tour and guess what? It's his birthday.

I finally reduced some baggage on my chest because of Grey so I also had the nerve to talk to Shawn slight normally.

I walked back to the mirror and saw a sticky note on it

"You'll do great, just be positive"

I smiled knowing where this cheer up note's from.

I gave myself a final look and walked outside.

"Ready?" Tim beams at me.

"Always." I said confidently. See how Greyson did to me? Haha!

I walk on the stage and all I can say is... Wow!

So damn wonderful large crowd.

"What's up Cologne!" I yelled.

"So yeah, I'll be playing one of the songs on my EP tonight for the first time." I glimpse at the side and saw Shawn flashing me a wide grin, I smiled back.

"So this is, I don't wanna know" I utter and started to sing.

"Tried to tune out the Sunday quiet,
Thinking a drink would ease your mind
That Bloody Mary tastes like what you gave away
The minute you lay your head to rest
And you start to feel it in your chest,
You have your second thoughts
And you just wanna talk
But I'm doing everything I can to just get over you"

I wrote this when I was on my first months of moving on after what happened between me and Shawn.

(Title of the song is I don't wanna know by Astrid Smeplass)

"So, when you clear your throat
And reach out for your phone
Think I know exactly what you wanna say
But don't, 'cause I don't wanna know
I don't wanna know"

I basically wrote everything I've felt. Every words has its meaning that's why I wanted to sing it tonight for the first time, because honestly, I'm finally letting him go. I can't be stuck my whole life sulking because I lost him, there are other things to be lived for.

"Can't say I want you to be sad,
But I didn't think you'd move so fast
And I can't look at you holding someone new
Thinking about it, only hurts
'Cause I know you use my tricks on her
But could you please not go to every place I showed you?
I'm still doing everything I can to just get over you"

Though we end up like this, I'm glad that he has Hazelle with him. She seems nice and they look happy together. I'm not being a hypocrite but that's what I feel. We both have to be happy with our own lives.

"And when I hear your name, I have to walk away
'Cause I'm just so scared of hearing what they're gonna say"

I don't have to avoid him like I always do, we should bring the friendship that we had before. I think that's the best for the both of us.

"I don't wanna know
I don't wanna know
I don't wanna know
I don't wanna know"

I really can say that time heals all wounds, and will make you a better person. That's what I've learned. When you fall, stand by on your own and never let anything stop you.

"It's not easy to stay busy
Long days, and late nights
Can't keep you off my mind
But are you feeling the same?"

I'm so grateful to have Greysom with me. He helps me in any possible way. He's so nice and congenial.

I closed my eyes and started to sing the last line..

"The minute I lay my head to rest,
I start to feel it in my chest
I'm having second thoughts, but I don't wanna talk
'Cause I don't wanna know"

I felt hot tears streaming down my face. But this isn't the sad one, this is actually a farewell. I'm happy that I already accepted what happened and I'm already living life the way I should be.

"Happy birthday, Shawn Mendes!" I greeted him and he waved at me.

I smiled widely and waved to the audience and walked backstage and ran down to watch Shawn.

He'll be playing also a new song today.

I felt relieved, after a long time. I finally let go what's not really mine

He heads up to the stage with his guitar and waves his hands to the clattery and untamed fans.

I'm so proud of him, all of his shows were sold out and worth watching.

Play Three empty words while reading, 'cause its the song Shawn will be playing

Everyone's screaming as he starts singing.

He dressed up so simple, just a black shirt, pants and his usual kicks.

His hair got coiffure. He looks just so damn perfect.

I love the way how his jawlines clenches. He's a happy and indelible memory that I'll surely won't forget.

Maybe this is how we meant to be. And I'd whole heartedly would accept where fate will bring us both.

Shawn will always have this special place in my heart.

The song was actually amazing. I loved it. He really is a good song writer.

The show was astonishing, you can see how much his fans loves him. They we're truly heart melting.

I feel like a proud mom.

(I actually always say that line. Hahahaha)

I made my way to Shawn's room and caught him checking his phonem

"Hi." I said gently.

"Hey. You need something?" He asks.

"No.. Uhm.. Happy birthday" I retorted and handed him my gift.

It was a simple crafted bracelet. I honestly made it by myself.

"Oh.. Thanks" He says and smiles at me.

"I'll go ahead. By the way, your new song was really great." I compliment and start to walked out

"Uh.. wait" He stops me and I looked at him. He was running his fingers to his hair.

Damn.

"Your song was perfectly glorious." He enunciates and I just smiled in response.

Happy birthday, Shawn Peter Raul Mendes. This is mostly the best gift that I could give you, is to finally let you go.