Over (COMPLETED)

Over 42

SOPHIA

Is it really me or i just hit two birds with one stone? I hate myself for being such an ass for loving two guys who deserve better! But i can't... i can't let go neither of them. I'm a bitch, i know. But you won't understand what i feel unless you walk on my shoes. I love Greyson. Yes, i know in myself that i do love him but the thing is, i alwayd find myself running back to Shawn. My love for him just always comes back and honestly i think it was never gone. My feelings for him just sleeps when i know he's with Hazelle maybe because i'm hurt. I'm a fucking mess and i don't know want to do anymore

"Don't miss me too much, aright? " Greyson jokes and i hugged him tight

"You'd come home to me, do you?" I asked him while my face is in his chest

Grey will be leaving for a week for his shows

"Of course. I'd come home to my princess" He responds and kisses my forehead

"And don't go out without informing me" He adds

"Yes, dad" I said and he chuckles

I drove him to the airport and left after an hour. I was on my way home thinking to call Kylie for an overnight

My phone vibrates and i checked on it

Shawn :
Where you at?

Me :
On my way home

Shawn :
Where did you go?

Me :
I drove Grey to the airport

Shawn :
Oh

I felt a slight guilt with his reply. But that's how it works. We deal with kind of set up and we need to accept that we're not in a normal relationship

Shawn :
Up for a ride?

Me :
Where up to?

Shawn :
Somewhere no one knows us

I chuckled and feel sad. It's impossible that no one could notice us wherever we go. Everyone knows Shawn and maybe also me

We decided to meet streets away from my house and we used his car

"Who's car is this?" I asked him scanning around the car

"I bought it.. someone might notice my jeep so i figured i might get another that no one knows that its mine" He replies and smiles at me

"So where will be headed at?" I ask

He just smiled at me and winked. My heart just went crazy. Darn it, Shawn

"What are your plans after college?" I suddenly asked while he's busy driving

"Same old song writing. Making new music" He reponds and looks at me "How 'bout you?"

"I'm planning to have a shop. You know how fond i am with baking since your mom taught me" I replied genuinely

"Yeah. Your cake was really great" He says and helds my hand

"If i don't know you, i would truly believe you.. but, i know you just said that because you don't want me to get hurt" I respond and he chuckles

"I'm not! It was really delicious" He's still fighting but i'm not convinced

"Sure, Shawn Peter Raul" I mumbled and he laughed

I yawned. I'm tired because of the past shows and we have to travel to different places to promote my E.p