Over (COMPLETED)

Over 31

SOPHIA

"Where's Shawn?" I flew back to europe the day after Greyson's birthday.

"He's crocked. He actually smashed his phone on the floor." John says and my hands went cold.

"Oh my god," I walked inside his room and I saw bottles of beer scattered on the floor.

"Shawn? Shit. What's wrong?" He's sitting on the floor with a bottle of beer on his hand. I took it and placed it far from him.

"Hey," I start.

He looks at me. His lazy eyes we're about to shut.

"Fuck. I hate this fucking feeling" He rants.

"Shawn. Let's clean you up. You smell awful." I said to calm him.

"You said... you said you have something.. important to work on." Maybe he saw Grey's instagram post.

"Cameras are everywhere, Sophia." He hissed.

It was me and him kissing on the stage.

"I'm sorry.. I just have to be with him. It's his birthday" I explained.

He laughed sarcastically.

"Really, huh? You like him that much that you even lied to me?" He groans.

"That, there had nothing to do with you. Just come on and get you into bed." I said and forced him to stood up.

I guided him to his bed.

"Shawn!" I accidentally lay on his bed and he was on top of me.

He looks straight to my eyes and I'm avoiding his gaze.

"Shawn, what are you doing?" He slams his lips to mine and started to kiss me.

I tried to push him but he is just too strong.

I can taste the alcohol in his mouth. Fuck why did I even kissed him back?

The face of Greyson flashes in my mind.

I pushed him again and I immediately stood up.

"What the fuck, Shawn?!" I groaned angrily.

He ran his fingers to his hair.

"Shit." He curses.

He sat on the edge of his bed.

"How does it feel? To taste someone elses lips?" He asks irritated.

"Excuse me?" I hissed.

He is so fucking messed up.

"You kissed him infront of people. God damn, Sophia" He frowns.

"Why do you even care? And stop acting such a jerk. I say, annoyed.

"'Cause it fucking hurts! I made this but I'm the one who's being miserable. Shit. This feeling didn't even changed a bit." He blurts out and buries his face on his palms.

"What are you saying?" I asked confused.

"Nothing. Just leave. I'm sorry." He says and I can even move my feet.

I'm frozen upset right now.

* *

Damn this feeling. Shawn left me upset the last night I went to his room! I didn't even slept well for days because I was thinking about it all day and night.

Just great. It's our last show in europe and I missed home.

I miss my mom and dad.

My phone rings and I took a glance on it.

Greyson Calling...

I feel a slight guilt. I think I'm cheating on him.

I answered the call.

"Hey," I start.

"Hi babe. I miss you." He says and I smiled.

"Missed you too. How's the show last night?" I asked.

"Great. Did you sleep well? You sound a little tired." He mumbles.

"I'm fine. I badly wanna see you." I said sounding like a kid

"Aw. I'll see you the day after tomorrow so wait, okay? As much as i I wanted to see you, we still have things to finish." He responds.

"Aright. Call you later, take care" I said. Tim is calling me.

"Take care, Sophia" And I hung up.

I faced Tim with his arms crossed .

"What?" I asked.

"Shawn's not in track. What happened?" He asks and sits infront of me.

What happened? He just fucking kissed me!

"I don't know." I shrugged.

He gave me an unsatisfied look.

"Really. Why don't you ask him anyway?"

"He doesn't want to talk to anyone. He's muted all day."

I sighed.

"Okay. I'll try to knock some sense to his brain." I said and hurried to Shawn's room.

I took a deep breath before twisting the doorknob.

I saw him standing beside the window, staring outside.

"Shawn." I called.

He looks at me and looked away quickly.

I went closer to him.

I stood in front of him. He's still staring outside.

"Let's talk." I murmured. Finally, he looked at me. He got bloodshot eyes and messy hair.

I held his wrist and drag him to his bed and we sat on the edge of it.

"What's wrong?" I asked. Sounding with full concern.

I sincerely wanted to help him. If he's willing to.

He just shook his head.

"Shawn," I mumbled and I held his hands.

"I messed up." He confessed.

I looked in his eyes. I really love those lazy eyes.

I didn't answer. I just wanted him to talk.

"I'm supposed to be happy. But why the hell I am hurting like this?" He complains.

"Do you have a fight with Hazelle?" I asked him.

"No... She has nothing to do with this.."

My heart starts to beat like a drum.

"I just wanted for you to find someone who can give all his time that you needed, and now you finally found him. It sucks, I can't even breathe seeing you with him." He continues and I saw the pain is his eyes.

What is he saying?

"Shawn," I sighed "We're both happy now. I can be a friend whenever you need someone to talk to. Let's not make things complicated. You have Hazelle I have Greyson, it's unfair for the both of them, we'll hurt them." He holds my hands tighter.

"I'll always be here for you." I said and I smiled at him.

"I'd always regret letting you go." He says and pulls me for a hug.

"You'll be fine." I tapped his back.

I really don't need answers anymore. I just wanted for the both of us to be happy.