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Special Chapter #4

Shawn

I didn't mean that we'll end up fighting over what we've talked. I just want to inform him that she's still mine.

I just want to scream earlier when Greyson got here and kissed Sophia infront of me, like what the hell? Did he do that for a purpose?

I see how Sophia cared for him and it fucking sucks. I was left there, arguing with own thoughts of dragging her out of his car and take her home with me. But the thing is, i don't have the right. I hurted her in the first place so i should face the consequences for what i did and i'm damn regretting it!

I remembered her face the last time we're at Canada. I went home after few months with Hazelle and i did it for a purpose. I wasn't really going to kiss her, it's just i'm going to reach for something and my face was too close to Hazelle's that Sophia and Cameron caught us. I didn't chased her, i know i'm a jerk but i want to let her go back then, the reason is i can't give and make time for her. She deserves to be spoiled and treat like a usual boyfriend does to his girl but i can't. I'm busy with my career. And the time that i'm away from her just made me realized that i can't be the guy she needs. So i needed to push her away. I ignored her phonecalls and didn't text her.

Yes i liked Hazelle, that was the first months that i'm working with her. You know, she's so fun to be with and we actually have the same interests which was Sophia and i never had, she wasn't really fond of music that's why i'm shocked hearing that she released songs. But i realized that it was wrong. I felt empty when that time came, i lost the tinge of feelings that i had for Haze. I ascertain that i can only gave her friendship the day that she confessed to me.

I was singing at magcon the last time i saw her after me and Hazelle saw her at the beach. That was christmas, she was with Cameron and she didn't speaked any single word to anyone. Cameron just forced her to go that night. Her eyes were so red and she looked exhausted because of crying. I wanted to hug and comfort her so bad but i'm reminding myself why i'm doing that. I love her so much that i wanted her to be happy.

(Play Running Low. The song actually is what Shawn wants to tell us)

I played Running Low that night. The christmas night at magcon and after that i didn't saw her again.

Her parents didn't tell me where she is. No one knows where she is or they just don't tell me

Months later when i finally saw her, at the beach. My heart just went crazy when i saw her face. I missed her so much that i want to hug her so tight and lock her in my arms. I told Hazelle that time that i'll be finding something when i dropped her to the restaurant but i just went back to see if she's still there but unfortunately she wasn't. But when i came back to the restaurant, she was there laughing beside Cameron. And swear that my heart fucked up so bad that it just wanted to scream how much i love Sophia.

I'm so happy that i'm finally near her. I kept on doing things that will force her to spend time with me, on the next months then i learned about Greyson. I almost forgot everything when that news came to me. It felt like my world's crashing down

"It's your fault, Shawn. Face the fucking outcome" That's what i told myself to keep my cool

And the day comes that she keeps pushing me away. It feels like stabbing my heart with a thousand knives and tearing it into little pieces.

I know i'm stupid for making wrong decisions but i can't take it back, all i can is to make them right. I will win her back, that's what i promised. Even she pushed me a hundred times i will never give up. I wasted so many months without her and i'm missing her so bad.

"Shawn" Hazelle calls me

I didn't answer

"What's wrong?" She caught me again crying

"Stop this, please. Let me go" I pleaded and bended my knees infront of her

"Shawn! Get up!" She says pulling me to stand up but i remained

"I can't do this anymore, i love her so much" I said burrying my face to my palms

"I know. You don't have to remind me that" She calmly replies

"Just a year, Shawn. All i'm begging is a year until i get well. Is that too much to ask?" She says while kneeling infront of me

"I can't.. i'm about loose my mind seeing her with someone else" I said between my sobs

"Please. Even just half a year. Please, Shawn. Don't leave me just yet"

That's why i can't be with Sophia. Hazelle is sick and she wanted me to accompany her during her medications. And it tires me, she knows that all i can be is just a friend but she pleaded me to be by her side until she recovers. Her mom also begged me. But this is too much. I'm missing half of my life without the girl i love

And i can't stand seeing her falling for someone else.

What should i do?

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I'm crying with Shawn's POV! (I'm crazy for crying at my own thoughts lmao) Just for you to know! Here's to explain some "what's?" In your heads hahahaha... so don't hate Shawn, okay?