Unfazed

Thirteen

I scrolled through my Instagram early this Wednesday morning when I saw that I was tagged in this post.

I was a bit confused but, I quickly caught on what he was trying to do which clearly didn't take rocket science. I shrugged my shoulders and slipped on a hot pink Puma T-shirt, black ripped skinny jeans and some hot pink huaraches.

I smoothed some ORS edge control to sleek down my baby hairs and side parted my hair in a low ponytail I did my makeup with some light foundation, I did my eyebrows and some clear lip gloss.

I grabbed my MK bag then walked out the door. My father's birthday was coming up. It's sad you know. My dad taught me so many things and he had a long life ahead of him.

As I parked my car I saw I glare coming from Miracle. "I see you're just nigga hopping, huh," Miracle smartly remarked leaning on some one else's car.

I stopped in my tracks, turned around and walked to her.

"Bitch, you've been nigga hopping and homie hopping, hoe! Are you mad that you're nigga made me his WCW. In fact, he's not even your nigga!," I yelled and everyone started staring.

"Actually, he isn't. But, I've been feeling that nigga Julian. I wonder if he wants me instead a refrigerator built, big bodied bitch like you!," she yelled getting in my face.

See, this is what makes me snap. Delusional bitches like her makes me snap.

"In your fucking dreams! Bitch, back up a taste, hoe," I calmly warned, walking away and entering the building.

As I swayed away, I felt a hundred pair of eyes on me. I walked over to my locker to see Rodney.

"Yo, what's up with you making me your Woman Crush Wednesday?," I asked putting my combination in.

"Just to show that I notice you," he told me licking his pink lips.

I rolled my eyes, "Thanks, I guess." I took out my iPad and my textbooks.

"So, shawty, I was thinking you would appreciate this," he said pulling out my favorite flowers.

"Orchids! Thanks, Rodney! I love these. I'll put them in some water when I get home," I yelled pulling him into a side hug.

He stared into my eyes then told me, "C'mon. I got a place we can talk at." I was a bit hesitant but I followed up with his offer.

We made our way under the bleachers where we made a long conversation.

"Look, LoLo. I'm really sorry for all the trouble I caused throughout these months. Can we start fresh? As friends?," he asked smiling. His words sounded good to my ears.

"Yes, we can but, don't claim me because that extra drama is what I'm not here for," I assured. He nodded his head, wrapped his arms around me gave me a long hug.

As we slowly separated, Rodney's lips came close to mine and his lips came in contact with mine.

"What the fuck, Rodney?!," I yelled slapping him clean across his face.

"Loyalty, I'm sorry. I was in the moment and-"

He was cut off by the shrieking of Miracle. "Maybe, Julian will be mine now that you're kissing other niggas besides your own. I got receipts bitch," she smartly remarked.

I nodded my head slowly before charging at her and punching her face until her hand mushed me in the face.

"Bitch, ease the hell up off my best friend!," Taylor screamed jumping in the middle pushing her from me.

Miracle kicked me in the stomach were a sharp pain almost made me vomit.

"Yo man, break that shit up," Rodney yelled pulling me away from Miracle.

"Ease up off my girl, man!," Julian demanded grabbing me out of Rodney's arms.

I walked to the bathroom with my hair messed up and a sharp pain in my stomach. "Girl, what happened?," Taylor asked.

"I was talking to Rodney and Miracle interrupted our convo and the bitch swung," I explained half lying.

As I fixed my hair up, the sharp pain was so intense that I yelled out and I felt fluid leaking out of me. "Girl, I gotta go the bathroom," I mentioned to her.

"I'll go with y-"

"Nah, I'm good. I'm fine," I rapidly told her.

I rushed into the bathroom to find that I was bleeding tissue and blood clots in my panties.

I haven't been on in about, 3 months. I think me being on the pill made it irregular. Now, that I think about it, I now realize that I have skipped a few days of taking my birth control.

All day I have looked for Miracle, to fuck her up about my baby. I have always denied being pregnant but today I realized that I was.

I'm scared of telling Julian considering the fact that he won't believe me.

When class was finally over, I hurried home to find that my mom wasn't there as usual.

I quickly ran upstairs, grabbed my body pillow, and cried until no more tears could come out. I called Julian but it rang 6 times and hung up.

"Julian, this is my 7th time calling you. I really need to talk to you. Call me when you get a chance," I cried recording my voicemail.

"Fuck!!," I screamed chucking the phone to the wall.