Unfazed

Fourteen

I drove all the way to Julian's house to tell what happened between Rodney and I. I also needed to tell him about my miscarriage.

When we first had sex, it turned into always having protected sex into not using condoms at all. Then the last time we did it was about three months ago.

So I'm sitting here on his doorstep waiting on the courage to ring the doorbell with no make-up on, my frizzy hair that was once straightened, and to add, I looked like a bum.

When I finally rang the doorbell, Jackson came to the door. "Yes," he asked swinging the door open and exposing his half-naked body to me. Of course, after what happened in the past, I really didn't want to see him at all.

"Where is Julian?," I asked shifting my weight to my right leg.

"Oh, he's at the library working on something with some girl named Michelle or Miracle. I don't know, something like that, but, he was coming over here to pick up his stuff to move in with his Aunt. Do you want to come in and wait?," he informed then, asked being slick.

"No, just tell his ass to call me or come by my house," I demanded with sass.

I walked back over to the car and while driving back home, I rolled up a blunt and smoked it until it disappeared in my hands.

Lord please don't let me lose another man I love...

Just I pulled up in the driveway, my mom walked out of her car.

"Gone again?," my mom scolded. She should be the last one talking about being gone.

"Says the one that just pulled in," I mumbled under my breath.

Walking into the kitchen, I grabbed some chicken breast, seasoned it, cut it open and stuffed mozzarella cheese in it. Then after coating it with bread crumbs and baking it, I coated it with Mozzarella sauce and Parmesan cheese and baked it.

"Thanks for cooking for us, but I have to go on a date. Lock the door!," She called out dashing out the house.

"But ma-"

"I don't wanna hear that now. I got to go," she yelled out walking out the house.

Tears clouded my vision as I threw the food in the trash. I can't even have a full conversation with my mom. I can't wait to be grown and move out, honestly.

After eating, I filled my bathtub with strawberry bubble bath soap and steamy water. I closed my eyes letting the stress vanish away.

I rinsed off, and walked around butt naked to dry. "You really need to stop teasing a nigga," a deep voice commanded. I jumped hearing the bass of his voice.

My instinct made me cover my body. I ran to my closet to get my bathrobe to cover my bare body.

"Julian! How did you get on here?!," I yelled surprised.

"You see, I knocked. Then, the door flew open. You really need to lock your door, especially at night," Julian explained sitting down on my bed.

His eyes followed my every step. It was like he wanted to just pounce on me.

"Come here," he said grabbing my arm making me sit on his lip.

"Actually, I'm glad you came. You see-"

He interrupted me by kissing me and pulling my body on top of his. I was so lost in temptation, I forgot what I was gonna say. He opened my robe, exposing my hard nipples. He started taking my right nipple in his mouth making love juice drip out of me.

"Jul...ian, please," I giggled pushing him away. He got on top of me gripping my wrists.

"Why are you acting so stingy with my pussy," Julian asked while he kissed my neck and licking around my sweet spot.