Yes, I know I'm jumping to conclusions. Yes, I know I'm getting all worked up over what's probably nothing. But, I just can't help to be jealous it's in my nature.
I grabbed my books and walked to class. Not really caring to talk to anyone this morning. I was only a couple minutes early and a few people were already here. Most of the people in here I didn't really know the only person I recognized was Nate but I didn't really want to go sit next to him in case he didn't want me too.
I guess me looking at him made him look up. "Hey Phillips, sit here." He said
I just nodded still thinking about this whole Jack thing.
"Aye is something wrong?" He asked examining my face to read my emotions.
"Oh um. Not really. I don't think so. I mean I don't hope so." I said starting to ramble.
"Okay what's up?" He asked trying to hide his laugh at my rambling.
"You're good friends with Jack right?" I said nervously.
"What did he do?"
"Well I don't really know but he was looking for someone and I don't really know if it's a girl or like what's the deal and-"
" Look Jack doesn't tell me everything but I highly doubt it's what you think." He said truthfully looking me in the eyes.
"You're right I'm probably over reacting." I sighed "Right?" I asked now getting worked up again.
He laughed " Yeah probably." He mumbled as the teacher walked in.
What does he mean probably?
Only a week into school and I'm doing horrible because of these boys. I honestly don't really mind though I feel more normal than ever. I've never really had friends besides Sammy. I've only had people that I would talk to so I wasn't alone all the time. But this boy that I met has messed me up in a week. I can't think of focus on anything other than him.
The bell rang snapping me out of my thoughts and most people were out the door while I was still packing up my things.
"Excuse me Ms. Phillips." My teacher said gaining my attention " You seemed pretty out of it today is everything okay?"
"Oh, Oh yes Sir just somethings on my mind. I'm sorry Sir."
"It's okay but if you're not focusing you're going to be behind in my class and I want to prevent that. So if you ever need a tutor just come in and see me okay?"
"Oh okay thanks Sir."
I grabbed my bag and walked out trying to avoid any more awkward conversations.
I go from class to class until lunch. Every class I'm zoned out. This is eating my brain. I was thinking about going to the library and eating so I didn't have to see him. But on second thought I'm going to be the one with him before any other girl can be the one with him.
"Aye there's my girl." Sammy said leaning against the locker next to mine.
Sammy the one person who can make me calm and clear my mind. "Hey Sammy." I said looking at him.
"Hey are you okay all day when I see you you're completely out of it?" He asked concern laced in each word.
"Oh yeah I'm good."
"I know you're not but I won't push it we can talk about this later."
I smiled gratefully at him because one he knows when I'm lying, two he cares, and three he's letting me do it at my own speed.
"I love you , Sammy." I said
He chucked at the random affection.
"Love you too, A.
We walked into the lunch room together and as soon as my worrying left it came back again when I saw him. He was just sitting there casually. He gets to be casual while I'm freaking out. Something just seems of about that.
