A Lifetime Of Love (Braxton fanfic)

Chapter 32

(Tamar's POV)

I took diezel in my room to talk to him. Diezel is the baby just like me and I understand how it feels to be treated a certain way and to feel that everyone is against you.

"Wow deizel I never seen you like that" I said as we sat on the bed. He stayed quiet, he was shaking his legs I could tell he was still very mad.

"Just calm down" I said putting my hand on his thigh. A tear fell from his eye. "It's okay just breathe" I said and he took a deep breath.

Once he calmed down alittle I started to talk.

"Can you tell me what happened." I asked.

"Denim" he started. "Denim said we should spy on you and moms conversation" he said. I already didn't like where this was going.

"Okay" I said.

"So we did" he said. "Diezel I know that's not all that happened" I said. "What went down in the hallway" I asked.

"Mom asked what happened so I told her the truth" he said still shaking his leg. "The whole truth?" I asked.

"I.." He started.

"I guess I didn't tell her one thing" he admitted. "And what was that" I asked. "That I wanted to spy on y'all also" he said.

"Okay you know that's wrong right?" I asked and he nodded. "Okay what else happened" I asked.

"When you started crying. I think Sierra got upset and ran to the room and locked us out" he said. Oh my gosh. Sierra probably thinks it's her fault. I'll have to talk to her later.

"Okay." I said.

"So denim got mad that I told mom the truth and balled up his fist. Then mom stopped him" he said.

"Okay" I said grabbing his hand.

"You can't hit your brother baby" I said.

"But he pushed me" he said. "I understand but at the same time that's still your brother" I said.

"So when he pushed me I was just suppose to let him. He always treats me like I'm not important. I had to defend myself" he said.

"I hear you diezel but you can't do that. You know how many time I wanted to knock the crap out of all my sisters" I started.

"I can't do that though. We all had arguments. Hey me and your mom just had a small one but we will not put our hands on each other. And that's something I don't understand. You guys know better then to hit" I said.

"I don't know what happened" he said.

"Regardless of what happened next time you be the bigger person and stop it. Cause you know what will happen if this every happens again" I asked him and he shook his head.

"Things can get so much worse and you two will grow up resenting each other. And this beautiful relationship that you have now will go away" I said.

"I just get so mad auntie" he said, his eyes getting watery again. I hugged him.

"I know. Trust me I know" I said pulling away from the hug. "But next time just walk away it's the best thing for us babies to do" I said and winked at him.

He smiled and hugged me. "Thank you" he said. I kissed his cheek and we walked out into the living room.

Diezel went and hugged Toni. "I'm sorry mom" he said. "It's okay baby" she said.

"Thank You" Toni mouthed to me. I smiled and turned to go into sierras room.

I seen Logan and Sierra both laying on the bed. Logan had fell asleep and Sierra was just looking at him. I softly knocked on the door and she looked at me and smiled.

"Hey suga foot" I said. "Hey" she said sitting. We were talking low so we wouldn't wake Logan.

"Sorry you had to see that" I said. "That was pretty intense" she said and I nodded my head.

"I heard you got upset" I said walking and sitting down on her bed.

"Just alittle" she said.

"How come" I asked.

"I just thought that I was stressing you out and making you upset" she said.

I smiled. "I love you so much" I said. "Your not stressing me out" I added.

"So how come you were crying" she asked.

"I.. I guess I'm just afraid" I admitted. "Of what?" She asked.

"To fail. To fail with you. To fail with anything. I just want you to be safe and happy" I said and she hugged me.

"I'm extremely happy now" she said. I wrapped my arms around her.

"Do the boys usually fight?" She asked.

"Never. I mean they argue but they never hit each other" I said. "Do you think.." She started.

"Nooo no no no it's not your fault" I said.

"Okay" she said.

"I'm kind of tired is it okay if I take a nap with Logan" she asked. "Of course" I said kissing her forehead.

"Nighty night baby girl" I said getting up and closing her door.

I walked back to the living room it was only Toni there.

"Where is mommy and diezel?" I asked. "Mommy took him outside to settle things" she said. I nodded and sat down by her.

"You okay?" I asked her.

"Just surprised to be honest" she said. "Never seen neither of them like that" she added.

I laid my head on her shoulder. "It'll be okay" I
Said and she smiled.

"How you feeling? You looked alittle pale" she said.

"I don't know what happened. Just all of a sudden felt weak" I said.

"That's not good Tay. I mean it's probably because of all the tension" Toni said.

"Yeah. Just was too much" I said.

"Sierra okay?" She asked. "She's fine. She's sleeping with Logan now" I said then sighed.

"Your doing a great job Tamar really. I know you and I know you doubt yourself sometimes but you are truly amazing" she said I started feeling emotional.

"Aw thanks tone" I said.

The boys and mommy and Vince came back in.

"Everything cool" I asked. "Yes" denim said and diezel winked at me. I winked back and smiled.

I'm glad everything worked out.