Pain: Her (Harry Styles Fan Fiction)

Chapter 36

I heard the door open and Liam ran after me pulling his shirt down his stomach.

"Alee!" he called out catching up. I was stumbling and tripping over my own steps because of the alcohol setting in. I only had two drinks but it was strong enough to affect me hard and fast.

"Hey, wait!" he said grabbing my upper arm to stop me.

"Hmm?" I hummed turning around.

"Sorry you had to see that, I didn't mean for you to--"

"Liam," I interrupted, "we're not together anymore. You can kiss whoever you want; I don't care." I stated through a friendly smile.

"Did you uh--did you see who she was, by any chance?" he rubbed the back of his neck and stared at me with impatient but worried eyes.

"No? She turned her head the opposite way, but like I said; I don't care." I patted his shoulder and began to walk and giggled my way down the hall. I don't why exactly but funny memories of Harry came to mind which made me crack up. I looked behind me to see what Liam was doing and he was walking back into the room. I began taking deep breaths as I walked down the crowded and heated staircase hoping it would at least provide some stability but it did no help.

"Al!" Niall called holding a drink high in his hand.

"Al? You just call me Al?" I asked as he wrapped his arm around my lower back to bring me in.

"You don't like it?" he smiled at me.

"That's a guys name!" I shout over the music trying to contain my giggles.

"Who cares? Same shit!" he laughed carelessly gulping down his drink in hand and dropping the cup to the floor.

"Your hand is around me!" I remind and he looked down.

"And?" he asks

"Take it away!" I laugh over the music pulling away from his grip.

"I wasn't going to do anything," he says with his arm out, "I was going to tell you that Harry has been looking for you, he looks mad!"

"Mad?" for a second the alcohol dissolved and I was sober but I felt no worry and I was back to my tipsy state.

"Yeah, so you should go find him! He's probably in the kitchen with Conor. They were talking about you and shit so get that checked out!" he told me backing away into the crowd. He gave a wink before wrapping his arm around a tall red head and leading her upstairs.

I'm guessing Conor told Harry what happened because I could see them from where I was walking and Harry didn't look so happy. Conor was leaned over the counter talking to him and Harry listened with his arms across biting him bottom lip and furrowing his eyesbrows. As I got closer, I began to focus on Conor's lips and what he was saying and I'm almost positive he said "I didn't tell her," that or "I need Nutella."

I really shouldn't even be drinking.How will I get home if I get wasted? Alan would never trust me again and would probably lose all trust in Harry. I don't want to be the reason for their broken friendship.

"Hi!" A random girl stopped me. Her hair was long, just below her boobs, and had brown hair that looked natural. Her eyes were grey and popped out more from her gold eye shadow.

"Hey!" I greeted.

"I'm Harley!" she looked way too nice to be at a party like this.

"I'm Alee! Harley? Like the bike?"

"Yeah! Like the bike! I'm new to the school, I don't really know anyway and you seem like the most friendly one here" she complimented.

"Well, thank you! Are you lost or something?"

"No, just thought I'd make a new friend, if you want to of course!" her smile was so perfect it made me jealous.

"Sure! Do you want to go in the kitchen where the music isn't as loud?" I offered.

"Please!" she said as if I read her mind. The adorable brunette hooked her arm around mine and walked to the kitchen.

"Whoa," even though she whispered it, I heard it clearly.

"What?" I replied.

"That guy....he looks really scary.." she gasped looking at him up and down.

"With the lip ring?" I smiled with amusement.

"Yeah! He looks so creepy like he could kill someone!"

"He's harmless." I laughed shaking my head.

"Do you know him?"

"Yeah, he's my boyfriend." We stopped into the kitchen and she looked at me apologetically and I chuckled.

"I thought the same thing so don't worry." I winked and she giggled.

We sat down around the counter that was placed in the middle of the kitchen just as Conor picked himself up from it.

"Hi," Conor smiled towards the girl, "I'm Conor."

"Harley." she smiled but without interest.

"We need to go." Harry said ignoring Harley.

"Where?"

"Somewhere quiet. We need to talk, now." he said seriously before grabbing my wrist.

"I'll see you later Harley! Nice meeting you!" I waved.

"Wait!" she stopped grabbing my other wrist, "will you be back?"

"No." Harry answered me for.

"Yes!" I said at the same time.

"That's Conor. Talk to Conor." Harry told her to shut her up, "let's go." he growled dragging me through the drunk crowd.

"Whoa slow down!" I laughed stumbling.

"Just take your heels off." he rolled his eyes,

"Ew, no! The floor is dirty!"

He stopped in the middle of the room and unexpectedly pulled me roughly into his chest. His arms wrapped rather tightly around me and brought his lips to my ear.

"What took you so long?" his breath against my ear sent chills down my spine making it hard for me stand straight.

"Bathroom. I thought you wanted to go somewhere quiet.." I questioned over the loud music.

"I changed my mind, quiet is something you're not good at doing." he remarked.

"What's that supposed to mean?" when I tried stepping back he slammed me back into his chest.

"If you want to know something, ask me. Don't go behind my back and ask my friends." when I looked up at him, he was looking around the room. Once he made eye conact with me the rage was obvious.

"I don't know what you're talking about." I lied.

"Don't play stupid with me." he growled tighting his grip around my body, "what do you think I'm hiding, exactly? Why must you always do something to make me mad?"

It wasn't that I didn't know what to say it was just I was holding in my laugh because his hands were tickling my back.

"Don't ignore me, Aleevonne." he demanded lifting my chin, "are you laughing?" his features twisted in anger and I couldn't hold it in anymore.

"I'm sorry!" I laughed, "I'm sorry. Really. Really." I shut my mouth to try to keep me from laughting but my lips kept quivering from trying to hold it in.

"You're unbelievable, you know that?" he said shaking his head.

"You're making a big deal over nothing." I giggled resting my head on his chest. Even though he was angry and most probably wanted to push me down the stairs he allowed me keep it there. I could feel his chest rise and fall against my ear and his heart beat was quickening by the second.

"You smell really nice. I love it." I said bringing my hand to his chest and slowly rubbing it. He grabbed my wrist with his hand and stopped me.

"Don't go behind my back and do shit like that." he said and I removed my head from his chest. His jaw was clenched and I could tell he was trying his hardest to control himself and not blow up.

"Calm down--"

"Don't tell me to calm down,' he said through his teeth, "don't do it again. If you want to know something, come and ask me." he repeated.

"What's up with you?" my tone was full of digust and annoyance as I pulled my hand away from his grip, "if you're not hiding anything why are you getting so angry?" the music was getting louder and louder and more people kept coming in; making the space extra tight giving me no choice but to hold onto him. I almost fell from trying to step back but he caught me and held me up.

"Why are you stumbling so much? How much did you drink?" he asked leaning forward to smell my breath.

"Like two cups, I don't know don't change the subject." I was already beginning to feel dizzy.

"I can't take you home drunk."

"Than leave and I'll get a ride." I shrugged pushing him away, but like the demanding person that he is, he pulled me back into his chest. This time, holding me tight enough that I couldn't move. I felt the hard air escape his nose in aggravation and he sucked his lips in together.

"Stop trying to get away from me."

"Stop being an asshole.'

"Stop being a bitch."

"Fuck you!" I spat, "I was just curious!"

"Why are you curious?"

"Because you're hiding something!"

"No, I'm not!" he shouted. Normally, this would startle a few people but the music over powered our voices.

"Than why are you angry?" I asked calmly.

"I'm not angry." he fake smiled.

"But you are."

"But I'm not." he said through his teeth still holding the smie.

"Than what happened last time?" I asked and he stiffened.

"What?"

"Last time, what happened last time. Niall said yo--"

"Fuck Niall, okay? Are you going to believe him or me? Look," he sighed, "Just don't do something like that again. If you want to know something just ask me, alright? I don't want to keep going back and forth." he said leaning into my ear.

"Fine, I'm sorry." I said stubbornly. I bet he think's that he could randomly turn nice after yelling like an asshole; well he can't.

"Don't be stubborn." he told me bringing his hands to my hips.

"I'm not." I rolled my eyes, "what time is it?"

"Nine." he said looking away from his wrist watch.

"That's it?" I groaned looking around, "Oh!" I squealed when I saw the pretty brunette I met ealier, "Harley!" I waved my hand in the air and a huge smile grew on her face. Without saying anything I pushed Harry's arms down from my hips and pushed through the crowd to get to her as she did the same to get to me. Harry called me a few times but I ignored him and thought it would be pointless to yell over the music. I knew that would piss him off and at that moment I didn't give a shit.

I liked Harley. I didn't know anything but her only her name, but I haven't talked to a girl in a really long time. It feels like Ava isn't even apart of my life anymore so maybe I need some new friends.

"Hey, I've been looking for you!" she smiled grabbing my hand, "is everything alright with you and Norman Bates?" If I was sober I probably would've slapped the shit out of her but I laughed with her.

"Yeah, yeah! And his name is Harry!"

"Like hairy balls?" she asked over the music.

"Yeah!" I snickered covering my mouth.

"He's watching us..." she says looking behind me.

"Who?"

"Mr. Bates."

"Harry!" I corrected through a giggle as I turned around. My laugh faded so quickly I almost choked. He was standing in the middle of the crowd as everyone danced and just watched me. His eyes were screwed onto mine and even from afar, I could see his clenched jaw.

"He looks mad." she raised her eyebrows.

"Yeah." I sighed in defeat, "I guess I'll go see what he wants. Could you do me a favor though?"

"Sure!"

"Could you see if there's any coffee in the kitchen? I really need it right now." my head was banging while I rubbed my forehead and she didn't seem to mind to do it for me.

"Sure, sure!"

"Thanks." I smile walking back to Harry. I pushed and shoved through so many people I began to smell like them. I almost fell when I tripped on someones shoe once I reached Harry but this time he didn't catch me. I grabbed his wrist to keep me from falling and he didn't move at all.

"What the fuck is up with you?" I spat.

"We're going." I couldn't hear him but I read his lips.

"No, we're not!" I said stepping back.

"Yes we are." he stared me down; he stared so hard at me I was actually beginning to feel uncomfortable.

"I don't want to leave."

"It's late.."

"So what?" I whined, "I don't want to leave, Harry!" I groaned grabbing his arm and shaking it, hoping to lighten up the mood, "a little while more, please?" I begged and he shut his eyes.

"Harry?" I wrapped my arms around his neck and brought my lips to his and kissed him.

I know he's angry because I went behind his back and asked about him. I would be too if he did that to me, so I understand why he's so upset. I came to the party to have some fun, not to argue and fight with him. I really don't want to party and dance alone and I know his anger won't allow me to have fun since he'll be yelling and screaming the whole time. It's my fault really, so I have to apologize and fix this before we carry this on when we leave.

"I'm sorry, okay?" I apologized tilting my head to look into his eyes that were occupied with the dancing people, "I won't do it again, I promise. I'll just come and ask you." he looked at me than back away when I smiled childishly, "C'mon Harry!" I jumped up and down making my boobs bounce on his chest and I finally got a smile out of him.

"Yay!" I said kissing his cheek, "keep smiling!" he brought his hands that fell to his side to my hips and licked his lips.

"Good girl." I couldn't tell if he was joking or being serious since he said it with a straight face but I kissed him anyway.

"Half hour more and than we'll go, okay?" I pecked his lips again and he moved his to kiss my neck.

"Fine." he surrendered.

"Alee!" Harley waved walking towards us.

"Her again?" Harry huffed and rolled his eyes looking the opposite way.

"The kitchen is empty," she frowned, "it's all beer and shit! There isn't any coffee!"

"Awe!" I pouted, "okay! Thank's anyway!"

"You want coffee?" Harry asked looking at me. The way Harley was looking at him almost made me pee myself; she was so afraid of him it was hilarious. I should have her around us more often.

"Yeah, to help with all this alcohol."

"We'll get it before I drop you off. I'll let you sit in the car until it sets in a little."

"Okay." I said and Harley smiled.

"You're sweet." she told him and he shot her a glare and she flinched. I laughed into his chest and he smiled with amusement.

"I'm just messing with you." he told her and she laughed awkwardly.

"So, I'll see you around!" she waved goodbye and left and Harry immediately turned me around so that my back was against his chest. He removed the hair from my neck so that it was exposed and kissed it while his wrists crossed over my torso.

"This is a good position." I could feel his smile against my ear and giggled. I tilted my head so that he had more access to my neck as he kissed it gently and slowly; so slow that it was driving me insane.

What we were doing was nothing compared to what everyone else was; I opened my eyes to look to the corner and saw a girl blowing some guy.

"We could do that." he said turning me around and cupping my face. He didn't give me anytime to asnwer and pressed his lips hard against mine.

I'm still 50/50 on the whole sex thing. I think it's because I'm scared of the pain. I mean, I know I want to do it with him but I just don't know...what to do? I'm so unexperienced and he is so...experienced so I'm nervous that I won't meet his standards or won't do as good as the other girls.

"Turn back around." he ordered and I followed. I pressed my butt against his crotch as he placed his hands on my hips. I began to move them and press myself harder against him. His hands moved to my rib and breasts and sneak grabbed my boobs hard enough to make me moan. I slightly arched my back and moved my body to the music and everything was beginning to look fuzzy.

"Harry..." I whispered hoping he'd hear me. His hands were too occupied with my body that he didn't hear me, "Harry.." I said again moving myself away from him and holding my head.

"You alright?" he asked catching me before I fell into his arms.

"Just...dizzy...a little.." I drank on an empty stomach which explained why the drinks effected me so quickly.

"Alright, let's go." he threw my arm around his neck and kept the other one around my back as we walked to the door.

"You're leavin' already!?" Niall asked stopping us.

"Yeah, mate. I'll see you later alright?"

"Alright man, be careful it's fucking insane out there!" he slurred.

The cold air hit me which actually woke me up a little, helping me stand and walk on my own. I closed my eyes and Harry held my hand leading me to the car.

"You alright babe?" he asked opening my door.

"Yeah, I think. I don't know." he buckled my seat belt for me and kissed my cheek.

"You're really warm." he says pressing the back of his hand against my cheek. He shut the door and ran to his side of the car and opened the door.

"Shit! I forgot something! Two minutes!" he said shutting the door and running back into the house. Maybe he forgot his phone or something, I don't know but it felt so good in the car. It was ice cold and I loved how it felt on my sweaty body. I pulled the lever to push the seat back and closed my eyes and waited for him.

"We could do that." Harry's voice replayed like a record in my head.

"This is a nice position." his words sending chills up and down my body.

His touch was so heavy and hard on me that I could still feel him. I don't want him to think that I don't want to have sex with him because everytime it comes up, I always reject him. I know he know's that I'm not ready since I've told him maybe 200 times but his touch leaves me frustrated; literally.

I'm glad I stepped up and apologized because if I hadn't we would be arguing and calling each other names again. I think that was the first time I apologized and not him. He seems to be the one to always cave before me and it kind of felt good knowing I fixed it all; or so I think I did.

I opened my eyes and turned to look at the house through the window and searched for Harry. It has almost been ten minutes and the cold is beginning to have an effect on me. I unbuckled my seat belt and took my heels off, opening the door and hugging myself as I ran across the street and back into the house. Just as I stepped in, I bumped into Harry's chest.

"Whoa!" he said catching me before I fell down, "what are you doing out of the car?"

"You were taking too long and I'm cold." I shivered.

"Oh, sorry! C'mon let's go!" Just as he grabbed my hand, I saw someone I thought I knew. I kept looking back hoping to see who the girl was but she was took busy wrapping her arms around Liam and kissing his cheek.

"What?" he said as we ran across the street.

"Do I know her?" I asked him pointing at the girl.

"Uh--no. Don't think so. C'mon get in." he rushed looking away from her. He opened my door and sat back in. He quickly walked around and almost tilted the car from jumping in so fast. He rubbed his hands together and blew in them before he turned the ignition and heat on.

"We'll go get some coffee." he said driving away, "I forgot my phone inside, that's where I was." he informed.

"Oh, okay." I crossed my legs and hugged myself still trying to figure out who that girl was. I don't know why she was stuck in my head but the back of her body looked so familiar.

"On a scale of one to ten how drunk are you?" he asked pulling up Wawa.

"Five...or six...I drank on an empty stomach." I rested my elbow on the door and rubbed my head.

"You're hungry?" he turned the ignition off and grabbed my hand.

"Yeah, a little."

"I'll get you something to eat, alright?"

"Do you want me to come?" I offered getting ready to take my belt off.

"No, stay here I'll go get it. I'll leave the car on." he turned the car back on and turned the heat on higher, "I'll be back. " he released my hand and unbuckled his belt; opening the door and stepping out.

"You should change back into your clothes." he says looking around, "no one is here so hurry." he ordered.

"Okay." I simply replied taking my seat belt off and turning to grab my bag from the back.

"I just saw your ass." he smiled.

"Good." I laughed putting the bag between my legs.

"Such a tease" he shook his head and left.

I took everything out and placed it on my lap. I slid my jeans on and rolled the dress up so that I wasn't half naked in the car. I looked around and quickly took the dress off and slid my sweater on and stuffed everything in the bag.

My head was beginning to spin from all the movement so I stopped and just left everything as is so I wouldn't pass out from being dizzy.

Harry finally came with a bag of food and a big cup of coffee. I leaned over and opened the door from the inside and he kicked it open with his foot.

"Grab this?" he handed me the cup of coffee and the smell of the coffee beans already captured my nostrils.

"It's so warm in here." he says turning the heat down a little.

"It's nice." I said bringing the cup to my nose and smelling it before taking a sip.

"Do they only have Wawa in America?" he asked pulling out of the driveway.

"No, Pennsylvania and a few other states too, I think." I replied holding the hot cup in my hands.

"Ah, okay cause we don't have this back home." he began to bite the skin off his lip and twirled his ring at the same time.

"Who was the girl?" I asked him clearing my throat.

"What girl?" he looked over at me with curiosity.

"The girl who was kissing Liam..."

"I don't know." he shrugged, "why?'

"She looked familiar." I said quietly picturing her again.

"Everyone looks the same when you're drunk." he chuckled.

"Yeah." I laughed in agreement.

"She's probably some slut, who cares." we pulled up a block away from my house and he turned the car off, "we'll stay here for another hour or so until you're okay." he says grabbing the hoagies from the bag.

"Eat up!" he said handing me the sandwich.

"What'd you get?" I wondered unwrapping it.

"Same thing. Oh," he yelped biting into his sandwich, "my cousin is coming from Holmes tomorow."

"Is she really?" I smiled.

"Yeah, I think you'll really like her." he wiped his mouth and took a sip of the orange juice he bought.

"You bought orange juice at night?'

"Orange juice goes with everything." he said with a straight face.

"Gross." I declined when he offered, "but what's her name?"

"Kaitlyn. She's lovely. You'll adore her." he told me with his mouth full.

"Ooh! I can't wait!"

I love meeting Harry's family. His mom and sister are amazing people so I'm sure his cousin will be too.





*Hi guys! thank you so much for reading! Sorry if it was a little long I couldn't find a point to end it at! Please let me know what you think of everything and who you think the mystery girl is :) Also, I said before that I update every 500 reads, well I changed it. Every new chapter seems to get 600+ over night anyway so I thought that updating every 80+ votes would work(with the 500 reads) I'm just going to try it out for a week or so. I think it'll be good motivation :) thanks so much for all your support!!!!!!!!!! please dont forget to comment, vote, and rate!!! <3 *