Can You Save Me?

chapter - 5

I woke up realizing today was the day of Sebastian's party. I decided I wanted to go after debating about it last night. I dressed in my brother's Boston Red Sox sweatshirt and some light colored jeans with my all black vans. I put my hair up in a ponytail and went downstiars. I saw my dad making food. Caleb laughed when he saw what I was wearing.

"I feel like you wear my clothes more than I do," Caleb said smiling. I laughed and shrugged.

"So you're going to that party tonight?" My dad asked smiling.

"I guess so," I said smiling slightly. If looks could kill, my brother would be in jail for murder. He was completly silent for the rest of breakfast. We got in the car and I smiled at him. He rolled his eyes at me. "Cub, don't hate me," I said sadly.

"I don't hate you, Ray. I just want you to be safe," He said smiling slightly. If only he knew.

"I will don't worry," I said smiling hugging his arm. He sighed and kissed my forehead. We got to my school and I kissed his cheek before hopping out. I made my way to my first class and it was stupid marine biology with stupid Lindsay and stupid Austin.

Our teacher was explaining the fish tanks we were getting and how it would work. We got our tank and we each got to pick a type of fish. I picked a Clown Fish and I have no idea what Lindsay or Austin picked. He was giving me strange looks all through the class. It was finally time to leave and I went to my next boring class.

It was eventually lunch after a long and boring morning and I sat in the softball field again in the outfield. I laid out and was listening to music. I zoned out for a while and was just happy feeling almost free there. My happiness was interrupted when I realized it was time to go to gym. I changed in the stall and put my things back in my locker. I made my way into the gym and sat down against the gym floor.

I saw a shadow above me and I saw Sebastian. I smiled and he sat next to me.

"So can you make it tonight?" he asked smiling.

"Yeah," I said smiling and nodding.

"That's awesome," he grinned, "Do you need me to pick you up or anything?"

"No it's ok I'll make my brother take me," I said smiling slightly. He chuckled. After our teacher walked in about 20 minutes late, he told us we were doing suicides to the extreme. We were running then running backwards and then bear crawling back. Whoever finished the fastest would win. This quiet girl and a jock were captains. The jock went first and picked me and more jocks. Lindsay's friends were the last to get picked. Austin and Sebastian were on my team as well as Lindsay sadly.

The Jock, Marcus told us the order and I was dead last. I hated being last because the pressure is always on you. Everyone was going and they were a little ahead of us. Lindsay was horrible, but it was ok. I was after her and I've done this so many times before. She barely tagged my hand and I was already running. I started running backwards the same speed as the guy in the other team. Everyone was cheering for us I kinda thrived on pressure, but hated it at the same time. I was a little bit ahead of him when it came to the bear crawls. I beat him and my team cheered. He sighed slightly and patted my back.

"Nice job," he said smiling. I thanked him and our teacher gave us the rest of gym to just hang out. I immediately went to go take a shower I was really sweaty and I didn't want to do it when I got home. We had about 30 minutes left in class. I took my shower and towel dried it as best as I could and put it up in a messy bun. I got out and it was already time to leave school. I saw Sebastian talking to a couple of his friends and when he saw me he said something to them and made his way towards me. My cheeks were flaming.

"I'm glad you can make it. I'll see you tonight, yeah?" I smiled and nodded and he walked away with his friends. I went outside and saw Caleb's truck I got in and we made casual small talk until we got home. I saw Pixie and she made me smile she was so cute. I pet her and I went laid down on the couch.

"I hate that stupid dog," Caleb said.

"It takes two to tango," I said to him whole Pixie growled at him.

"Are you going to that party tonight?" Annabelle asked. I looked up and nodded. "And you aren't getting ready?" I smiled and shrugged.

"I mean it's not prom. How hard can it be," I said sitting up. Annabelle led me to my room and she was looking through my closet.

"What were you thinking of wearing?" she asked.

I shrugged, "I kinda gonna wing it." she shook her head and smiled. Caleb was laying in my bed on his phone.

"Try this on," she said handing me clothes. I went into the bathroom and inspected them. It was a skirt and a really tight shirt.

"I didn't shave," I shouted. She laughed. Maybe she wouldn't notice my bruises. I changed and came out.

"You look hot," Annabelle said pushing me in front of the mirror.

"No," Caleb and I said at the same time. We finally decided what I was going to wear after a long time. My bruises weren't as bad as I thought, but then it would also be dark. I still had to shave, though. I shaved my legs and hummed to a song playing on Annabelle's IPod. When I was finished, I saw Annabelle with the straightener on. I was a little scared.

"C'mon impress the men, Raegan," she said smiling. My hair was still a little damp so she blow dried it and started straightening it and curling the ends. My hair was really long so it took almost two hours for her to "perfect" it.

We decided in me wearing a light pink high-low muscle shirt with white flowers with shorts. I insisted in wearing my vans and she accepted. I was still a little uncomfortable with what I was wearing, but I sucked it up. I walked out of the bathroom and my brother analyzed my outfit.

"Beautiful," he said kissing my forehead.

"Thank you," I said smiling.

"Don't look in the mirror yet I didn't do your make up," she said. I obeyed and begets her not to put any eye shadow on me. She promised she kept it light and she led me to the mirror.

I looked in the mirror and I saw a happy teenage girl who had fun all the time, but did good with balancing her social and academic life. I saw a girl who wasn't lonely and her family was always there to support her. I saw a girl who didn't have to worry about getting raped when she got home. I came back to reality and shook out the negative thoughts in my head. I was already 25 minutes late, but it was already dark outside.

I went downstairs and heard my dad whistle, "You look great, Hon." I smiled and thanked him. Caleb and Annabelle were taking me and Caleb have me what seemed to be an hour long speech before I left. I kissed his cheek and promised to call him if anything happened. I thanked Annabelle for everything and I braved myself.