Crushing on the surfer (editing)

Chapter 2

Does anyone know how hard it is to impress a guy or even talk to him? Because it's very hard especially when you have nothing in common with the person. Isn't it sad that they only way I can talk to Seth is if it's about homework school or homework? Wait I said that twice but you people understand how I feel!

Danny came back to school today and he had been watching me talk to Seth he had told me not bad but if I wanted Seth I should really make a move and fast. He told me that Seth might already like someone he had said that Seth thought a girl was cute in one of our classes.

Obviously it wasn't me it really wasn't a good feeling to hear that you just lost your chance on your biggest crush...

Even though I see him with there all blonde blue eyes and I'm just me not as pretty as them.
Maybe I just wasn't his type?

So I would understand someone had caught his eye and I didn't.

Exactly what I wanted to hear thanks Danny!

I didn't mention nothing to Gaby or Chris not wanting to think about it because it did bum me out
and it wasn't something I wanted to talk about.

It wasn't Seth's fault for liking someone else because I've been scared to death to actually talk and have a conversation. The only time I talked to him was in our 1st period when I was with Collin and E.j.

He had been looking for answers and of course I gave him the answers because I was that girl to doze off in his presence all we talked about was his sloppy handwriting and laughed.

"hi Seth." I would say and smile hoping it work and our conversation would start that way.

Even though this day didn't end up like it was supposed to i continued being a happy autumn trying not to let this bother me.

I did enjoy kneeing Chris it was so funny he just spazzed out and fell I nicely though helped him out.

Like a good friend I am and we continued to follow Gaby who was trying to get a yes on her picture I thought it was hilarious how she kept getting frustrated I didn't know why she tried on this assignment I don't even try it.
But that's because my teacher loves me and my partner Dave is never here so he helps me have an excuse to not do any work.

I think about it I have had so many chances to talk to Seth and yet I just hid.

It wasn't my fault it was his how dare he be so hot and make me feel so weird I blame him on me having a crush on him it wasn't fair! I had to suffer this crush and he could just be free as a bird.

And believe me I have tried liking other guys but I always went back to liking Seth I don't know why but it's like he's not really like any guy I know.

How hard was talking to someone I mean come on!! I know that tomorrow I will be confident and talk to him I'll convince my self to walk to him and say something..... I just don't know what I can't talk about surfing because I don't surf and I don't know too much about it.

I wish I could tell my mom more about my crush because she is a surfer chick and all her friends were surfers I just don't think I can handle her teasing me about something so serious. Or even wanting her knowing I know she'll ask a ton of questions and then ask my cousin luke a ton of questions about Seth and that would be embarrassing if he found out I liked Seth.

I could talk to his friends but not him because that makes perfect sense. I need Gaby and Chris to cheer me up because I'm seriously bummed.

I got home and sat and did my project while eating chocolate to help me think I don't really enjoy chocolate but it does help me think. As weird as it sounds plus I'm super hungry and it's kinda a survival mode thing going on also I needed motivation on doing my homework since I do want to pass all my classes.

Maybe he's just gay.

Just kidding he's so not gay... But then again he could be I wouldn't judge.

I swear I'm going insane he's so confusing and frustrating I should be focusing on school like I was supposed to be doing. I'm going to Australia after senior year there would be more guys.... Right?

More guys but not Seth...
But there would be Australian guys with cute accents.

Someone please get me some help call a doctor call someone!

All I have to say is tomorrow will hopefully be different.

You hear that Seth i will talk to you!

Well maybe I will...

Ugh where is Gaby's sassy voice when I need it!

I AUTUMN JENSEN WILL TALK TO SETH ADDAMS TOMORROW!

POSSIBLY!

MAYBE!

I DOUBT IT!

FORGET IT I WILL LIVE A SAD LONELY LIFE WITH THREE HUSKYS SINCE I HATE CATS! LOL

NO I WILL TALK TO HIM. Just kidding.