*autmns POV *
On my way home I texted Sammy telling him I'm going to go for a walk to clear my mind he insisted on coming but I told him I would be fine alone.
This brings me back to the day I was upset with him and Seth picked me up I blushed at what happened on that night I never really told Seth but I had lost my virginity to him I wasn't embarrassed ok maybe a little because I lost it drunk but he was obviously more experienced than I was.
I'm not sure if I'll ever tell him maybe one day No one really knew I was a virgin I guess well no one asked me anyways.
It's Saturday night and I searched through my music to find the song that fits with my mood. I finally had found it my fault by imagine dragons.
Except there was no fog but it was a Saturday night how crazy! I just needed to let what Seth told me sink in I know he loves me but I didn't know it was actually love. when we were on really good terms it was really nice and close to perfect. was this my fault?
First it was Seth not Sammy but when Sammy told me he loved me I guess I took it in right away because no one really loved me and well I guess I could say I did fall in love with Sammy we've been together for a year and four months that's my longest relationship I'm happy with him but sometimes I still feel like he's jealous.
Jealous of Seth because he has a son and he had me for a brief second I guess because we are kind of a family and he doesn't have one with me yet.
I don't plan on having any kids soon I want to finish school and wait till Jayden's a little older.
But a family with Sammy doesn't sound so bad he loves kids and he treats Jayden like he's his son.
See this is why I need this walk my mind is confusing I can't make up my mind and it's frustrating.
I go from thinking about Seth to Sammy and it just goes back and forth. I know I love Sammy but am I over Seth? dammit he had to be sweet and caring and lovable and adorable to our son.
When he was excited about the theme for Jayden's first birthday it was really cute I haven't told Sammy the theme I honestly don't know what he thinks about surfing we don't really go to the beach much.
Jayden will be 1 in five months it has all gone by way to fast my baby soon won't be my baby anymore he's growing up to fast and I don't want him to I want that baby I brought home still.
I guess I'm in denial that my sons growing up.
People would probably think I'm crazy 16 and pregnant with someone you barely knew but had a serious crush on never was a thing and while pregnant with his child you have a boyfriend and it's your best friend.
Geez my life is crazy. but who's isn't? I was always mature but I think I have matured even more and I'm proud. I'm a proud teen mother yes I was young but hey things happen for a reason I don't judge anyone anymore.
I'm 17 now and I realized my life is becoming perfect by each day that passes by. we didn't do anything big for my birthday i wanted to stay home with Jayden and Sammy and watched movie and ate pizza.
Those kinda of days I cherish the most. they are so simple but yet so perfect.
I've walked about maybe 6 blocks and I'm starting to get tired I really want to call Sammy to pick me up but then I would seem too lazy.
So I finally decide to walk back and it got a lot darker I'm used to the dark and I actually find it comforting I know people hate walking in the dark because of all the possibilities but I'm not like that anymore because I know it's good to have fear and well sometimes you gotta face your fears.
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Crushing on the surfer (editing)
Teen FictionAutumn is like any normal girl who has a crush. Seth is the opposite from autumn he loves to surf and well she cant.. After one night everything changes in her life Sammy her best friend comes along and decided to try win her love but that night au...