Crushing on the surfer (editing)

Chapter 8

So besides the field trip winter formal is coming up and I actually wanted to go but I didn't know who I wanted to go with.

I would never think me and Seth would go together even though I hope and pray that he would wanna take me.

But I mean if he doesn't I could always take my friend Sammy he was a close friend of mine he was sweet and caring he had helped me try to talk to Seth even though Sammy would get frustrated with me because I couldn't talk to Seth but who didn't get frustrated with me and once I did talk to him all he did was cause problems.

We haven't discussed Seth for a while he thinks I'm getting over him when I'm really falling harder for him even though the whole Stacie scenario happened.

I'm still not positive what happened their.

Winter formal was in a week I was nervous I really needed to talk to Seth and I couldn't wait till the field trip so I knew on Monday I would speak to him about it.

I really needed to stop thinking about so much at night I stress myself out.

I seriously need help.

And I need a boyfriend.

And more friends.

What am I really doing with my life.

Why Seth?

Out of all guys you can easily talk to why him??

But my mind told me otherwise

Because he was different he was a surfer not a typical guy I've falling for he was hard he was a challenge for me and I loved it in a way usually with guys I easily can get their attention I can easily flirt and talk and it was an easy fight.

But with Seth it was hard difficult because I knew nothing he was interested in nor did I have anything in common with him which made it fun I couldn't really talk to him and the more harder the challenge is the more I want to win.

I had noticed I was getting really sleepy and my eyes decided to shut I let myself drift into deep slumber.

* Monday morning*

* BEEP BEEEEEEP BEEEEP*

I woke up to the annoying sound of my alarm I tried to focus my eyes it was 6:20 already time to get ready. I finally turned the alarm off.

Ugh time for school I laid down for a while till I finally went to the bathroom I only straightened my bangs that are still short my hair was in the middle and I undid my braid I looked decent enough.

I looked through my closet for options what to wear what to wear I decided to wear my gray sweater with a white t-shirt and a scarf with blue jeans and my black flats.

My makeup I put eyeliner and mascara with a little gold eyeshadow and I was done.

My mom was waiting in the car with my sisters I sat in the back because my little sister for some reason always sits in the front and my mom never lets me only when she picks me up.

As soon as I got to school I walked to the benches where I usually sit waiting for my teacher to open the door I checked my phone to see the time and it was 7:28 great my teacher won't be here till 7:55 or even later he was always late but I didn't have a problem unless it was cold like today.

Their again like Friday seth came early he's always late or comes later why is he coming earlier that's pretty weird again it was just me and him.

ALONE.

It was my chance I needed to get to the bottom of this. I waited for him to sit, he sat next to me again.

" Hey " he said.

I nodded.

" Seth you need to be honest with me what had happened a month ago I need to know what was going on between you and Stacie." I said calmly

He looked nervous and cleared his throat.

I looked around to see if anyone was coming.

No one yet.

I looked at him waiting for my answer fuck I deserved one after he made me cry.

" Well..." he started off.

" Well what Seth you need to tell me I think I deserve it!!" I yelled. I took deep breaths I overreacted I needed to be calm.

He had looked down and ran his fingers through his hair.

I loved when he did that it was hot but I can't pay attention to that I am mad at him!

" Well after we kissed at the party I really liked it believe me I did I wanted to do it again and when it was Monday I wanted to talk to you but you always ignored me so I figured it was just a hook up and it kinda bummed me out I hung out with Stacie at a party and then we kissed and we weren't weird around each other and we had the same friends so we hung out a lot. So we always hooked up and I guess we had a thing I didn't know if I liked her but I guess she really liked me. I wasn't sure if I had feelings for you or her I guess I liked both of you. Then I finally talked to you and we had lunch and we kissed and it felt different it was a really good feeling then she caught us." he had finally told me.

" Did you love her?" my voice cracked I was trying not to cry.

My eyes were watery I couldn't believe my friend would do this to me she knew I liked him a lot and he did this to he knew she was my friend it was so wrong. He kissed me and then ignored me how was this my fault she knew I liked him yet did things with him that I would rather just not think about.

" Autumn you know I didn't it was just a hookup." he explained.

" I thought I could handle this but I was wrong..." I said while a tear slipped onto my cheek.

" Autumn please don't cry I didn't mean to kiss her I want you...."

" Is that why you told me you loved me Seth." I knew that voice....Stacie

I looked up and just seeing her disgusted me and seeing him look nervous more than ever I was a fool to even speak to him.

I got up I was pissed. He lied to me again how was I stupid enough to even think he could be trusted all he was was a player.

I was capable of doing anything and I wouldn't regret it.

" Seth your a waste of my time why did I even start believing you, you lied to me not once but TWICE!!! You really wanted me huh that's why you hooked up with her if you did want me you would've tried talking to me or going up to me. I'm done with you." I spat out I walked off and looked at Stacie.

" And for you! I thought you were my friend you fucking lost my trust you knew I was in love with him!" I yelled at Stacie.

" Well at least I had guts to talk to him and kiss him not like you." she smirked at me.

" You know what fuck you. Your such a fucking bitch I don't know why I'm friends with you and I have talked to him I had kissed him first don't you remember I guess not so go fuck yourself!!"

I yelled.

" Well at least I was the one he said I love you to. I didn't hear him ever say that to you" she said.

I was already walking I turned around and I didn't know what was taking over but I swung my fist in her face and watched her drop to the ground and I walked away before flipping Seth off.

There goes going to winter formal with Seth you know what I'll just go with Sammy fuck Seth I didn't need him but then again I did I miss his kiss.

What did I do?

I thought.

Did I make a mistake? But he deserved it right?