Crushing on the surfer (editing)

Chapter 39

I missed my baby so much it was odd for Seth to have him during the week. But I decided on letting Jayden stay with Seth for a while since I felt bad.

But I can't wait to get Jayden back I feel so lonely I've been texting Seth non stop about Jayden but I had forgot he was at school.

Sammy is at work and I have nothing to do I checked the time and it was 11:30.

I decided to get out of the house and visit some friends at school. it really does suck not seeing them everyday I really miss them I've been wanting to go back but I'm not planning to till Jayden turns 1 and I can put him in day care.

I get into my car and drive off to school I hope Jayden is being good I really hope he doesn't throw one of his fits. I miss my baby I hate being away from him I honesty hate sharing and well it know it sounds selfish but I do.

I finally get to school grounds and walk into the academy and say hi to some of my old teachers and wait till classes end.

As soon as the bell rings I see Gaby and Chris. I run up to them and give them hugs.

" How are you guys I've missed you too!"

" I'm doing good." Gaby smiled and Chris shook his head telling me he was good too.

" So where's Jayden? did ya bring him?"

Chris asked.

" No not today Seth's dad has him today."

" Why?"

" Because Seth wanted him an extra day and well I said it was ok if he stayed for one more day." I shrugged

" Is this gonna happen all the time?"

Gaby asked

" No he gets weekends he knows that." I looked at the ground.

" That's why I came over here I wanted to talk to you about that."

I looked up seeing Seth.

Gaby and Chris gave us space and told me they would talk to me later.

" Why do we need to talk about this?"

" Because I don't think weekends enough for me autumn."

" But we agreed on that before he was born and you were fine you have school I don't."

" Autumn stop being unreasonable I just want him Friday to Monday. Weekends are to short and you know that."

I was getting mad.

no me and him had a deal.

" No we had a deal Seth I'm sorry."

I looked into his blue eyes to show I was serious.

" I don't want to argue with you about this but I want to spend time with him longer autumn he doesn't see me much and you know that's true can we go somewhere else to talk?"

" Sure." I was holding my anger

We walked to my car and drove to a park it had no swings nothing a boring old park with a pond. He gave me directions to it I know I won't be planning on taking Jayden here.

I stared off and waited till Seth continued.

" All I'm asking it's not like I'm asking him for half a week for fucks sake he spends so much time with you and Sammy that he calls him daddy!"

" What's the problem with that? Sammy has helped raise Jayden too!"

" But there is a difference I'm Jayden's dad not Sammy and I don't know if I feel comfortable with that how would you feel if I had a girlfriend and Jayden started calling her mommy?"

I thought about this he was right I know if that was the case I would be heartbroken and mad. but what am I supposed to do it's not like I can tell Jayden to not call Sammy daddy? and how is Sammy going to feel?

" I'll let you have Jayden from Friday night to Monday afternoon. but on him calling Sammy daddy well I can't stop that I'm sorry."

He just looked over at me with hurt eyes I felt guilty but it was out of my way I can't control everything Jayden does.

He's still a baby he doesn't know why he has two dads there both supportive and caring and loving too him so why does it matter? I knew if I continued to argue this would go nowhere and a flashback of what happened last time came to my head.

I couldn't talk I felt like it was all my fault I just wanted to stay on the ground.

" Babe what's wrong?"

I started off

"Seth he.."

Sammy just looked at Jayden

" Come on buddy let's put you in your crib."

I just sat there crying he is hurt because of me I shouldn't of yelled at him for god sake it was his birthday!

Sammy soon came back and helped me up as we sat on the couch.

" Tell me what happened?"

" Seth he was drunk and wasn't wearing a helmet he crashed he ended up going on the opposite lane."

I started to cry again

" It's all my fault ."

" Babe it's not."

" Yes it is I yelled at him it was all my fault I told him we never were going to be a family he got upset and he probably drank because of me"

I couldn't have that happen again and have me feel guilty for that so I agreed I still feel guilty and Jayden almost lost him once and I will prevent that from happening.

" Seth I'm sorry it's just I miss Jayden can I please pick him up from your house?"

" Sure autumn."

I wasn't sure if he was mad or not we walked out of his car and it was silent.

I looked up at him and hugged him apologizing again. he looked pretty confused but I didn't care I waved bye and headed to his house to pick up my son.

** Seth's POV**

When I first had asked for Jayden to stay longer autumn was furious she acted like I was taking him away from her. we were arguing in front of people and we were loud so I asked if we could go somewhere i gave her directions to some park and we talked.

As soon as I mentioned how Jayden calls Sammy daddy she flipped I haven't said anything plus I don't remember if he's always called him that but recently I heard him call Sammy that and it bugged me. Sammy wasn't his dad I was and I am not going to get replaced hell no Sammy wants to be a dad he should have a kid instead of taking my son. I know that he's Autumns boyfriend it understand he's been there for her but I don't want my son to think he has two dads when he honestly has one.

After arguing her whole mood changed it was pretty weird because after mentioning that her face which was beyond pissed turned into deep sorrow. I wanted to ask her but I didn't think it was any of my business I didn't like seeing her sad and well I wanted to hug the pain away.

She finally agreed on letting me have Jayden Friday nights to Monday afternoon. she then bent down and hugged me which shocked me she never hugs me she hardly touches me since the night I got her pregnant.

I stiffened but then relaxed a bit I didn't know what was up with her but I just enjoyed her hug not knowing when I'll get this chance again.

I watched her walk off.

I wheeled myself back inside our academy hearing all the questions on what happened I could care less at this moment all I cared was that she hugged me, she touched me and well I felt something special in that hug.

I knew that moment I surely was not gonna forget