Crushing on the surfer (editing)

Chapter 13

I was getting ready for my date with Seth it was 5:39 I finally figured what to wear I wore my maroon shorts and my black juicy jacket with my black combat boots.

Make up I went with a little liner and mascara trying to go near the natural side.

I left my house and decided to walk to the beach it was about a 15 minute walk from my house I told my parents that I wouldn't be out too late since it was Sunday and a school night.

They didn't really ask who I was going with they knew how upset I've been about Sammy I guess they knew I needed my space.

I got there and I waited for a while but we didn't really know we're we we're going to meet so I looked out for him I finally found him sitting near the ocean on the sand he was staring out maybe
he was thinking I feel bad because maybe I'm going to disturb his thinking.

I just ended up walking slowly and quietly toward him till I tripped on a rock I fell to the ground really hard and it hurt hopefully he didn't hear me

Too late I heard someone running to me. just great.

I looked up and saw Seth as he picked me up.

" I'm such a klutz." I laughed

" Yea I could tell but it's kinda cute." he chuckled while pushing his wavy blonde hair back.

I missed him I missed every detail about him I was going to miss him I wouldn't see him all this week I just don't understand why he stole.

He leaded me over to the spot where he was sitting and sat down as he patted the spot next to him wanting me to sit right next to him.

"Why did you do it?" I asked

" Do what? I told you it meant nothing." he said

" No why did you steal most important steals booze?" I looked at him.

He soon looked down I already knew he didn't know why he did I know he gets pressured into doing things I see it all the time. Jake can be mean he probably called him a pussy or something I felt bad he needed better friends ones that wouldn't get him in trouble.

" I wanted to drink my night away I thought it be worth it but after what had happened being caught I knew it wasn't worth it." he finally answered

I looked at him pretty shocked.

I looked into his eyes and I saw him doing the same he got closer and grabbed my chin and pushed his lips onto mine as I closed my eyes it didn't feel like how Sammy kissed me it wasn't soft or loving.

Seth's kiss was filled with hunger and it just didn't feel right but i couldn't say much because that's probably what my kiss felt like hell that's how I'm feeling right now.

But even though it wasn't Sammy's kiss I felt a tingling sensation.

After finishing our kiss he looked at me for a while then at the ocean then back at me and smiled.

"Want to go out for a swim?" he asked.

"Want to get eaten by things below your crazy I have no bathing suit on and it's cold." I yelled.

He wasn't taking no for an answer because he pulled me up and unzipped my sweater and threw it on the ground.

"Just go in that you'll be fine." he laughed

" Fine but you know sharks are out their feeding and if I die or get eaten or step on something poisonous it's your fault." I quickly took of my boots and ran to where he was.

After swimming in like 20 degree water I dry up with the towels Seth had brought I checked my phone it was only 7:15.

I had a text it was from Sammy...

* autumn please text me back I only said that because I know how you feel about Seth and I knew you truly didn't feel the same please call or text me ASAP. LOVE YOU*

Great I thought.

I don't know who I love I thought I loved Seth but then all that he put me through and then Sammy sweet Sammy who has never done anything wrong to me.

Expect you know date a fucking skank. geez don't I have luck with men?

Fuck why me.

It was getting cold and Seth decided to drive me home since he didn't want me to walk at night and alone but I was hungry I had forgot to eat so he decided to drive us to McDonald's.

Classy huh?

Not exactly what I pictured our first date to be.

As soon as we got our food he turned the radio on and story of my life by one direction came on.

I turned it up but then Seth turned it down I looked at him and glared.

" I hate those fags." he laughed

Well then geez.

"Well I love them so deal." I stuck my tongue at him

He rolled his eyes and continued to eat.

Sammy would of loved to sing with me.

Makes me think why am I on a date with Seth when I should be thinking what or who I should pick.

Why is it so difficult.

You can't be in love with two people it's not right.

After Seth drove me home he hugged me and tried to kiss me but I dodged it saying goodnight. I could see the pain in his eyes as I rejected his kiss he looked heartbroken.

I didn't go inside after Seth drove away I called Sammy.

He finally picked up!

' Sammy I miss you I'm so sorry I didn't mean it I was mad I... I'm just confused' I yelled and then began to cry.

' autumn calm down I'm not mad at you love lemme pick you up and explain' he said

' alright I love you Sammy' I wiped my tears away.

' I love you to see you soon' he then hung up.

I waited at the end of my block so my parents didn't see me I finally saw Sammy.

I smiled and ran to give him a hug.

He smiled back and said

"Here let's go take a walk."

I nodded and grabbed his hand as we walked into the dark.