Crushing on the surfer (editing)

Chapter 18

Does anyone else know how bad it hurts to be friend zoned.

All your life you were always
"the friend".

When you knew that you could give someone the world.

But yet no one ever even thinks about giving you a chance to show them.

That's always been my position.

It's barely the beginning of break and I'm still so confused.

I'm still sad about Sammy but he came around and asked for friendship.

I won't lie that hurt it had stung but it was better than nothing.

And now I have to stay away from Seth I can never have my way.

Christmas is coming everyone expects me to be happy and cheerful but I'm sorry I'm not going to not when I don't know what to do anymore I haven't made my choice.

Everyone expects me to be fine with not being with Seth nor Sammy. But the truth is I can't stay away from both. They have a hook on me and I don't know why but I can never stay away. Seth he's a jerk but he can be sweet and Sammy has always been sweet and kind hearted he just seems confused.

Just like everyone else.

It's difficult for me but yet I'm the one letting my self feel this way.

I need help I need to be my cheerful self again.

Maybe some day I will be.

I'm just laying in bed getting texts from Sammy and Seth but I'm texting Sammy more than Seth.

If only they knew what was happening to me if only they knew what they were doing to me.

I ended up not hanging out with Seth I made up an excuse saying I wasn't feeling well which really bummed him but if my Nina wanted me to stay away I would for the break until he came back. Hopefully he'll take my mind off of Sammy I really hope he does because I can't stand thinking about what had happened.

I just need a get away.

Someone help me

Why cant I stop crushing on the surfer at school.

*** a/n sorry it's short!! Been going through a lot lately **