Limits. (Zak Bagans Fan Fic)

Goodbye and Hello.

"You're back sooner that I expected." Aaron opened the door and took my bags. "Staying for the winter?" He joked.

"You never know what might happen" I winked.

"Carter coming for a visit?" I stopped and spun to Aaron nearly hyperventilating. "Roni calm down, I'm not being an asshole."

"No no sorry, just a bit paranoid. Don't know why" I knew exactly why but I didn't want Aaron knowing.

"You sure you're okay?" He followed me into the guest bedroom where I tossed my bags. "You look pale white."

"Just on edge, I dunno maybe I'm getting my period?" Nope that was last week.

"No if I'm correct you're due at the beginning of the months, so you would've had yours by now." I stopped again and spun around glaring at him. "I've known you for years! I use to by you tampons!" He argued.

"It's weird that you know my period, just how about we don't talk about that" I threw my shoes off and headed to his kitchen.

Aaron went off finishing his packing while I sat on his kitchen bench eating his fruit, he had nearly all his things ready.

"Carter might not be coming back to Vegas." I spat out, Aaron stop what he was doing and came and hugged me.

"What happened? Do you two-"

"No! Some job promotion, if he gets it he wants me to move back to Seattle." I looked away knowing Aaron's facial expression, it's break his heart.

"R-Roni you can't leave me again, I just got you back." He declared.

"I know! I don't want to move but Aaron this is probably my shot at a marriage and maybe kids?" I shrugged knowing that wasn't good enough.

"You can't just do what he wants just because you're 31 and still by yourself. Look at me! For god sakes I'm no where near where you are and I'm fine. You only move if you know you absolutely love him without a doubt and you'll be happy." I still couldn't look at him.

"Are you happy Roni?" He pushed on me.

"What really is happiness?" I shrugged back, I was in a rut and needed to get out.

"The state of being happy? Pleasure in life, jolliness umm good well-being? Roni are you any of those?"

"Contentment is a state of happiness isn't it?" I pressed my lips together and swallowed my laugh.

"No way, you'll know you're happy when you can't fall asleep at night cause your smile is over taking your body, when being awake is better than sleeping. Knowing when you love someone you can't live without them and Roni it seems you have been fine without Carter being here." He was right. "That's just my assumption."

"I've been contemplating on whether to walk away or try harder." I moved from the bench and sat at the kitchen table. "Sometimes, you gotta pretend everything's okay and maybe it'll turn out okay."

"Roni you can't think like that, you can't stand on that line between giving up and seeing how much more you can take. You're making yourself miserable."

"I guess I have a lot to think about." I paused and took notice of the time, it was time for Aaron to go.

"Look babe I gotta go, ring me, text me whatever okay if you're upset don't go through it alone okay, I love you okay." He kissed my forehead and left.

I knew what I had to do but I wasn't 100% sure so instead I grabbed a wine bottle and headed upstairs to the bathroom and made myself a big bubble bath and drink away the night.

I grabbed my phone and started to text Carter; we need to talk, no. We need to break up? No, we need to think about what we truly want? No.

I tossed my phone and had some more wine, I didn't want drown my feelings with wine but people say it helps well people on Facebook says it helps. After about 5 mouthfuls I was turned off on the idea that this would help, so I put the wine down and got dressed. I chucked on my white off the shoulder baggy shirt and white short shorts, I came back downstairs and decided to pick a movie and snuggle in Aaron's bed.

I was about to settle on a choice when the door was being slammed, a very drunken man was blabbering 'Aaron'. I went to answer the door and got a surprise to see Zak highly intoxicated.

"Mmm well well well you're a pretty version of Aaron." He lent back on the pole and nearly fell, I grabbed him and got him on his feet.

"Za-- oh fuck you smell like Tequila." I was so repulsed by the smell I stood back.

"Wet pussy shots, vodka and yes maybe tequila but hey I'm a grown man." He allowed himself in the house and started to take his jacket and shoes off. "I'm here to see Aaron!" He demanded and slammed his fist on the table.

"He ain't here Zak, remember he is with his family" I picked up his shoes and placed them in the basket and place his jacket on the chair. "Come sit and have water?"

He waltzed out to the pool nearly stripping off, this was going to be an interesting night.