Limits. (Zak Bagans Fan Fic)

Getting the Help I Need.

We laid there panting heavily, I was cuddled into Zak's sweaty chest despite being sticky and hot I didn't want to move.

"Have you seen Aaron?" He played with my hair.

"No. Not yet." I knew Zak was going to hound me but then again I knew I should have seen Aaron after I left the hospital.

"Well he is coming by tonight then the whole gang is, we all were so worried about you." He kissed my forehead.

"Zak do you think I'm cleansed?" I sat myself up and used a pillow to cover my boobs.

"To an extent. I'm going to have to cleanse you once a week. That was a pretty long attachment, I can't believe it went so unnoticed." He seemed uncomfortable about that attachment, he wouldn't look at me. "Here" he fiddled in his drawer and pulled out rosary beads.

I laughed. "Do you have these things everywhere?" I held them up.

"Roni. I have loads throughout the house, you need to wear them." He wrapped them around my neck. "What's wrong?"

I hissed as they went around my neck, I wasn't fully saved yet. It burned but the longer they were on the pain subsided.

"I'm clearly not clean." I got up and took myself to his bathroom, I needed a shower and a little time on my own.

I locked myself in and cried in the shower, I didn't want Zak to hear me so I had the shower on full blast. I sunk to the bottom on the shower, clutching my knees together and I rested my head between.

"I'm so fucked." I whispered.

Around about 30minutes later I came out to hear Aaron has already arrived, he was just what I needed. A hug from Aaron would make this all go away.

"Aaron!" I gasped. I ran straight to him and jumped into his embrace, he caught and spun me around.

"You're you?" He smirked.

"Getting there. I've missed you!" I closed my eyes and cuddled him tight.

Once I opened my eyes I saw Zak, folded his arms and intently glaring at me. He knows what Aaron means to me.

"Alright we ready to have the talk?" Zak clapped his hands.

"Talk?" I asked.

"Yea Zak, let's sit." Aaron followed Zak.

"What talk?" They still were ignoring me.

"Aaron wanna sit in the kitchen or outside?" They spoke to themselves.

"Hello! What talk?" I slammed the vase on the table but I broke it. The smashing sounds caught their attention.

"You Roni, to talk about you." Aaron sighed.

"What about me?" I smiled.

"Your attachment. How you're going to feel better, how are you going to live, demonic free" Aaron looked at Zak. "We can't have you smashing up the place all the time."

I looked at their faces and knew it was a problem, we- I had to fix it. I didn't want to hurt Zak or Aaron anymore and I guess finding help with benefit me in the long run.

"Okay" I talked low. "What can I do?"

"We found a priest you can visit" Aaron spoke and I nodded along. A priest sounds good, do a few sessions and that's it's.

"In England. We want you to go to England." Aaron spoke. Zak looked frustrated and grunted, he walked away covering his eyes.

"En-England?" My mouth dropped. They want me far away? With no one? "Zak?" I called out for him.

"You need to go to one. C'mon Aaron isn't there one closer?" Zak spun around. "I can't do this."  Zak rubbed his face.

"No she needs to go. She needs help. Roni you panicked in the hospital saying what if they kill you or what if they never leave, this place will help." He explained it.

"Okay."

The look of terror on Aaron's face I knew it was serious. I had to do this, Zak's eyes watered up as I agreed to go.

"When do I leave?"

"Tonight, that's why I'm here. I'm taking you." Aaron grabbed my bags from around the corner. "Whenever you're ready lets go."

"Will I come back? Back here?" I was asking Aaron but I looked at Zak. He nodded, a sign of relief went through me.

"You'll come back, as long as it takes to help you. Longest is around 30 days... maybe more." Aaron told me.

"Aaron let me take her to the airport, please?" Zak grabbed a bag from him. "Let me say my goodbye."

Aaron nodded. He hugged me good bye and left.

-----------------------------------------------------------------------

"Another airport." Zak sighed and he placed my bags down. "Another goodbye." He sniffled.

"Hey ssh" I pulled him in for a quick kiss. "I'm coming back, I need this. I need this for us and for me." I reminded him, he hugged me tight.

"I wish it was closer. I found a place closer but Aaron said no!" He got angry.

"Me too but then you'd be tempted to see me and I'd be tempted to run away and find you." I teased.

"Promise me Zak you'll be here when I come back. Promise me you'll pray for me, think of me? Promise me I'll be okay? I'm so scared." There I said it.

I was scared. I couldn't do this alone, I started to panic and anxiety took over me. My fingers trembled as I clung onto Zak, my palms were filled with sweat.

"Roni you can do this. You'll be okay, I promise. I promise you'll get through this and when you come back you'll be cleansed and better for it." He sighed heavily.

My plane was called over the PA system and we both looked at each other. If I kiss him I won't let go, if I hug him I won't let go. "Zak say goodbye and I'll walk away. If I hold you I won't let you go." I stepped back a bit.

"Goodbye Sweet Pea." He smirked.

My heart fluttered as he called me sweet pea, I blew him a kiss and trailed off to my boarding gate. I closed my eyes and prayed this flight would be quick, the cleanse would work and I was would be back in Zak's arms in no time.