Limits. (Zak Bagans Fan Fic)

Old Love.

A few days past and I was reliving the last, amazing moments I had with Zak. I couldn't sleep much being at Aaron's alone so I spent my nights watching movie after movie.

Aaron hadn't called or texted so I knew he was doing interviews and soon would have his investigation, depending on how it goes he'd come home with a lockdown hangover. How fun.

I needed to distract myself and find something to do, I know I needed to find a job and pronto, I also needed to catch up with my grandma. I decided tomorrow I was going to visit my gran and spend some family time with her.

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"Hey gran" I called out, I headed over to where she was on the chair.

"Oh Roni" she cheered. "It's been so long." She reminded me.

"I know, I've been busy ever since I came back. How's the home treating you? Your nurses being good?" I hated her being in a old home but she needed it, qualified nurses needed to take care of her they knew what she needed.

"Always good, how was Seattle? Where's um Craig? No umm Cameron?" She guessed.

"No gran, Carter" I looked down. "He is um back in Seattle, we've broken up."

"I never liked him. Your father was a coot" she rolled her eyes.

"Carter gran!" I don't know if she was pointing out Carter is somewhat of a man like my father or she was distracting me. "I'm going to put these new dresses in your room, I'll be back."

As I headed to her room, I detoured on the way back and went to find a nurse. I was concerned about my gran so who better to ask than a nurse.

"Excuse me?" Five nurses looked at me. "Um I'm Roni, Eliza Beeth's granddaughter" one nurse popped up.

"Yes, hello. Finally good to see a family member here, we've been trying to organise a meeting with family." She didn't looked pleased.

"She only has me and I've been in Seattle, sorry are we able to have a meeting now or can someone tell me what's been happening?" The regret filled my throat and it started to burn, I was uncomfortable and I knew these nurses would think low of me.

"Mrs Beeth her dementia has become more severe in the last month and her brain is deteriorating excessively." She paused, gathering up paperwork. "You need to work out a end of life plan, then hand it back to us. If you need our councillor will help you through this. I'm sorry." She patted my back and left me to head back to gran.

What have I done?

I sat back by gran and started to overlook the papers, it was very direct but my mind wasn't able to understand as my head was hurting me to think I may have caused this.

"Hey gran, if choke do- do you want to be saved?" I whispered to her, trying not to choke on my words.

"Huh. Who are you and why do you wanna choke me!" She got carried away. "Go away satan lady!" She screamed. Nurses came to her aid and started to settle her down.

"Eliza that's your granddaughter" they rubbed her back and spiel calmly to her. "She's is back from Seattle" they cheered.

"No. Please I'm tired" she wailed and begged.

"Look, I'll come back another day. Let her rest" I bent down and kissed her. "Bye, I love you."

I drove home with massive regret holding in my heart and mind, I've neglected the one person who raised me. The person who chose me over everything, I wish life had a rewind button.

I cried hard all the way home knowing she doesn't remember me and I have to make the choice of her end of life plans. I pulled up and crawled out of my car and noticed a man asleep on the door step.

"H-hello?" I nudged him. He snorted and slipped back down on the concrete. "Carter?" I questioned.

"Roni" he woke himself up and pulled himself off the ground. "Why are you crying?"

"Stuff with gran, I didn't realise the impact on me leaving affected her. She's dying Carter, she doesn't remember me." I cried out and he caught me, he held me tight just the way I needed. "Stay tonight?"

"Ofcourse" I unlocked the house and headed straight up to my room, we both got comfortable and laid in bed together.

"Roni I don't like how you ended us, what about me?" He spoke softly, I grunted at him in response. "We all make mistakes, I'm sorry."

Tonight, I didn't want to argue. I was tired and worn out, Carter knew everything about me so him comforting me in this situation was what I needed. Carter drifted to sleep first and I took a good hard look at him, he was perfect. We were perfect but now I'm different and we aren't so perfect.

"I'll always love you Carter." I kissed him softly. "But I'm falling for another man."

Our love was maybe is strong but not matter how strong it is I'd never go back, it's like reading a book over and over again. I know how this all ends and I'm not prepared to for this.

By morning, Carter was gone and tonight Aaron and Zak return.