BH6 Boys x Reader Fics

Can't Do It (Tadashi)

WHHHAAAA TWO FICS IN ONE DAY!!!! It's been awhile! I figured I'd make up! Enjoy :D

Reader is conflicted about confessing their feelings to Tadashi

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Today was finally it, you thought to yourself as you walked onto the SFIT campus. You had given yourself plenty of pep talks to keep yourself motivated. Your body was trembling, but in a more exciting than nervous way. Nothing else was on your mind except for one important thing. Today you were going to tell your friend and crush, Tadashi that you liked him.

You had felt this way for a long time. You always thought he was quite handsome the first time you saw him. Though, you grew to like him more once you actually got to know him. He was humorous, caring, intelligent and sweet; you admired all those qualities more each and every day. You somehow managed to get yourself out there and make conversation - the two of you had been friends ever since.

There was something about the way he talked to you that made you feel so safe and comfortable. Whether it be in person or texting, he never failed to brighten up your mood. When he encouraged you, you could feel your cheeks heat up with a huge grin to match. Gushy love songs seemed to make more sense anytime you heard them. Whenever you thought about him, butterflies fluttered in your stomach to the point where you felt nauseous, but it never bothered you. You couldn't put your finger on it, but having feelings for him made life more interesting. Whether he felt the same or not, you felt special because of him.

And that was your biggest fear.

You were self aware that him rejecting you wouldn't be the end of the world. Someday down the road you would be able to move on and meet someone new. You and Tadashi would remain good friends. But that didn't change the fact that rejection still hurt. It would still ache for days even if the most you've done is shared a few short hugs with him. Tadashi was one of a kind. He had every quality you were looking for and finding someone else like him would be next to impossible. It would at least be worth the shot to confess your feelings.

Unfortunately, you had been telling yourself that for the last month. Every time you worked up enough courage to tell him, you ended up bringing yourself back down. You lost count of how many times you typed an 'I like you' text and backspaced it. You wanted him to know how you felt badly. But at the last second, you always chickened out.

He doesn't like me the way I like him.

He must think I'm boring.

He just needs some space.

I'm probably bothering him.

He's so busy with his projects and family. I wouldn't want to get in the way of that.

I don't want him to feel bad for turning me down.

But today you had enough of this constant war inside your mind. You won't feel any better until you tell him. Even if it doesn't end the way you hope, it'll feel good to get it off your chest. Who knows? Maybe he does like me back. Maybe he's been feeling the same way I've been this whole time and we'll both share a laugh about it.

Walking through the halls, you started walking down the aisle where Tadashi's lab was. Your could feel your rapid heartbeats pounding inside your chest. Taking a deep breath, you assured yourself that you could do this.

Arriving at the door of Tadashi's lab, you mentally rehearsed what you wanted to say for the millionth time.

Hey, I need to tell you something. I...I really like you. There's a lot of things I like about you and whether or not you feel the same, I felt like you deserved to know that.

It was cheesy, but you didn't know what else to say.

I think you're fun and caring and I really admire you.

You formed your dominant hand into a fist, preparing to knock.

But I wouldn't blame you if you didn't feel the same.

Your fist came to a sudden stop.

I want this to work...but I could be getting my hopes up for nothing. Tadashi deserves better. I should just cherish the friendship we already have.

Your arm fell back to your side.

We get along so well like this. I wouldn't want to ruin that.

With a heavy, defeated sigh, you glumly walked away from his lab, trying to fight tears that dared to form. You weren't sad, but rather frustrated. You always got to this point and backed off. It was as if you were running in circles with your emotions. Even if you didn't know how Tadashi felt, you had an idea of what he would say. "(Y/N)...I'm really flattered, but I think we should just be friends," you heard in the back of your head.

You were too distracted by your own thoughts to hear that Tadashi's lab door had opened. Turning his head, he saw you as you slowing walked back down the hall.

"(Y/N)," he called out, grabbing your attention. You turned your head around the face him; your heart skipping a beat. "Is there something you needed?"

You figured he asked that because he may have seen your shadow leave his room. Do I tell him? No, it's too late. Is it? Maybe I should...

You forced yourself to smile as genuinely as you could. "O-oh...I just remembered I have to get something from my lab. I'll catch up with you later, okay?"

The confused look Tadashi sent your way clouded your emotions with guilt. "Sure. See you later, (Y/N)."

You ended the short-lived conversation with a wave, now rushing to where your lab was. I can't do it, you thought with a tear rolling down your face. You entered your lab, locking the door behind you. And as you slid down to the cold, hard floor you wondered if you would ever be able to tell Tadashi the one thing that's been on your mind. 

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And there you have it! Not like my usual Tadashi-like fics, but I had the motivation to write one like this. Lets just say I uh...feel a bit of a connection to this one atm haha oops. But it was really fun to write regardless! And I hope you liked reading it :D