Got7 Scenarios (Kpop-Muses)

What You Deserve - Jaebum (A)

You hadn't moved in about half an hour, and you started to worry that you couldn't move even if you wanted to. All you could do was stare down at your nearly full cup of tea, which was cold by now. It didn't really matter though, because you were swaddled up in one of your boyfriend Jaebum's comfiest sweaters. It still smelled like him.

Unfortunately, the sweater was one of the fews pieces of him you had seen in quite a while. A few of his shirts were still folded up in your dresser drawer, and you hoped it would make the rest of your clothes smell like him as well. It was impossible to describe exactly the scent, but it was slightly musky and it relaxed your muscles like rays of the sun on a warm day. Although, being with Jaebum was pretty similar to being with the sun.

It had been just over three weeks since you had last seen him. Sure, there had been longer periods of separation when he was on tour, or too busy with practice to do anything but eat and barely sleep. After all, you had been together for nearly two years, so that was bound to happen considering his career.

This time was different, though. He wasn't away on tour. He had practices, sure, but they had actually started to calm down, and he finally had free time to spend with friends and, of course, you.

It started with him claiming that he already had plans, which didn't really bother you. You were both very ambitious people, so you had a lot going on, though you always made time for each other. But then he started ignoring your texts, your calls. And if he did respond, they were short and passive aggressive texts about how he didn't have time, even though you knew he did. Other members of Got7, whom you were close friends with, had even offered to hang out, so you knew they were free. Once Youngjae had texted and asked what was wrong with Jaebum, as apparently he had been laying around doing nothing for a few days, but you had no answer.

No matter how hard you tried to talk to him it seemed that he simply didn't want to see you, or even tell you that he wanted to end things. You thought after the thousands of 'I love you's that had been shared between you two, and all the time you had spent together, you at least deserved a goodbye.

But, you simply loved Jaebum too much for your own good. If he didn't want a goodbye, then you could deal with that, no matter how many nights you spent staring at a blank ceiling in an empty bed.

The doorbell rang and your heartbeat picked up, before you remembered that it had been so long since that sound had meant Jaebum.

Slowly you dragged yourself from the couch and stepped quietly over the wood floor of your apartment. You had no idea who it could possibly be at such a late hour, but at least you looked at least moderately okay. It helped a little to fake being okay on the outside when you felt like absolute garbage on the inside.

You pulled open the door and stood, frozen. Standing before you was a tall, extraordinarily handsome guy, wearing black jeans and a black hoodie, with hair the same color. You recognized him as your missing boyfriend, but something was off. His eyes had lost their usual sparkle, and his lips weren't on the verge of a smile or smirk as they usually were.

"Y/N..." He said quietly, without confidence.

"Jaebum."

You stood standing there like idiots before you opened the door wider and mechanically gestured an offer for him to come inside.

However, the staring contest continued once your door was closed and locked behind you. It was Jaebum who ended the silence, speaking slowly at first.

"Y/N... I know that you have absolutely no reason to listen to me right now. I've been a terrible boyfriend, if you could even call me that. I'm so sorry for treating you so horribly, and I know that I don't deserve your forgiveness. I should never have stopped answering your texts, your calls... The last few weeks have been absolutely miserable without you."

You swallowed hard. It took everything in you not to get angry, furious even. But Jaebum wasn't okay, and you could see that.

Even so, you needed answers.

"Why?" You said, mentally cursing how pathetic you sounded. "What made you want to leave?"

"It's hard to explain..." Jaebum realized from your expression that his reply wasn't adequate, "It's just that... Y/N, all I've ever wanted is to make you happy-"

"And you thought completely cutting me off would make me happy?!" Your frustration got the better of you for a moment.

"No, no of course not!" He took a step closer, and you allowed him to stay there. "Y/N, you deserve so much more than me. Don't you see that? These past two years have been the best of my life, and a lot of that has been thanks to you. Every time I look into your eyes I see everything I've ever wanted. You've given me so much strength and courage, even when you had little to share. You've sacrificed for me over and over again, and you've never asked for anything in return.

"All I've ever wanted is to be able to give to you what you give to me, but I'm just not enough. I want to be the man of your dreams. I want to give you the world, but I can't. I've been so selfish, calling you mine when someone so much worthier could be doing so.

"You just," Jaebum was sniffling as he fought off the tears that were threatening to spill over onto his cheeks, "You deserve so much more than I can give you."

"That is just about the most ridiculous thing I've ever heard." You said, making him look up at you in shock, unsure if he was even hearing you correctly. You stepped forward and rested your hands on the sides of his face, wiping away the tears that had begun to shed themselves.

"Im Jaebum, how could you ever think that you aren't worthy of anything, let alone of me. Do you really not realize how incredible you've made my life? Because of you, I never spend my days feeling alone, because I know you're always here with me in my heart, whether or not you can be here to hold me.

"I am so proud of you and everything you've accomplished and all of the hard work you've put in to make your dreams come true. And it's not just your own dreams that you've worked so hard for, but the dreams of your six best friends. You've made their dreams come true, too... And mine.

"Every day that I've spent with you is a day that I've spent with the love of my life, who makes me happier than anyone else in the world. I love you so much, Jaebum, and I always will. I don't care where we are or who we're with or what happens, I will always love you. You have always been and you will always be so much more than enough."

Jaebum couldn't find the right words to say, so instead, he pulled you into a hug so tight that it hurt your ribs, but you hugged him back just as hard.

"I love you so much..." He whispered into your neck as you inhaled everything about him. "I promise I'll never leave you again."

"You better not," You replied, feeling your own tears finally reach the surface, "For the smartest person I know, you can be an idiot sometimes."

"I deserve to be called a lot more than an idiot," Jaebum said, pulling away only far enough so that he could look into your glassy eyes.

"Well then maybe you should kiss me so I'll have something else to do with my mouth." You shot back with a grin.

"Deal," Jaebum whispered, finally placing his lips on yours.