Is it the same,
Asking myself am I making the same mistake,
Signs and signals flashing in my head,
But by heart is telling me not to let go,
Dear god, I'm scared,
The first time around was no fun at all,
I can't even talk about that stuff without breaking down,
Don't is the one word echoing in my head,
Blame wrapping itself around me already and I hardly know you,
Rationality saying,
Don't you dare get too close,
This will be the same,
Saying,
Watch,
You are already making the same mistakes,
That one word don't is running off with my sanity,
Cause my heart won't budge an inch,
Asking me if I'm really completely sure that this is the same,
And the answer is no,
Honestly, how am I supposed to really know unless I go all the away,
Until I get to the point where it will already be too late,
My heart is saying,
You can take this,
You've done this whole one-sided love thing a hundred times before,
My heart is asking me, when has your life been good anyways,
Just take it easy,
But that's where my head comes in,
Rationality telling me that I'm worth more than worthless love dreams,
That I should hold that perfection in my hands,
But I'm conflicted,
Because I wonder why I would let perfectionism control me,
When all its ever done is rip up my whole damn life,
It is no friend of mine,
My brains got a couple good points,
But my heart is the one winning,
I'm ready to throw it all away for the second damn time,
Yet, fear still got a place on my chest, I'm terrified,
Cause when I fall in love, it's hard,
Don't is the one word echoing through my head,
But like I said,
My head is losing this fight.
