help me do this - Aaron Carpenter FF

Chapter 42 - miss you

—Lisas POV—

After talking about 2 hours we disconnected the phone call. My hotel room is very quiet and I'm not tired. Really there's only one feeling inside me:

Sadness.

Though I know it's only 5 more days, it's been way too long already.

I miss his strong arms holding me, giving me the feeling he's never going to let me go, making me feel safe.

I miss him making me smile all the time and him being a dumb, cute asshole.

I miss being weird with him and not having to worry about it.

Tears come up and just in this moment I feel stupid.

Why am I crying? It's not going to change anything. Why is my body giving this stupidness to me?!

And here we go again.

If I'd be with him, it would be okay to cry. Sometimes you need to cry and let it all out.

But right now I just feel stupid.

The tears continue to stream down my face and even though I try to calm down, I can't stop it.

Baby I need you.

I text him, even though it's dumb.

I'm right here.

He texts me back. That would be too nice.

You're always on my mind and so you're always with me, wherever I am.

Aaron makes me cry even more. The feeling he gives me is not describable. And I miss the strength of the feeling. I feel connected to him now. It's like I was lying next to him, but when I opened my still crying eyes and look next to me, there is an empty space and not the warmth of his breath on my skin.

I miss you next to me.

I grab the pillow next to me and push it onto my face. My whole body hurts, although it's only my brain imagining the pain.

I promise when you're here again, I'll never let you go anywhere.

He makes me smile, but the aches are still hard.

But I need you now...

It's not possible, but it's just what I'm thinking.

Remember we are always together, no matter what happens and no distance can tear us apart. Be strong. We can do this.

He's right. We can do this. Because we are Aaron and Lisa, the couple Shawn refers to as dream couple, the couple which does carpool karaokes and don't give a fuck.

I love you.

I don't know why, but everytime he says those words to me, he makes me feel so important.

I love you too. Thank you for everything.

What do you mean?

I mean everything. Every word you said to me, every single one of your touches. You make me feel so good. Just thanks for that.

Sleep baby. I want you to be the most perfect version of the Lisa I know tomorrow/today.

Good night.

I hold my phone close to me and sleep.

—Aarons POV—

The last week was hard for both of us, I know.

Our 2 month should've been celebrated, but instead, we were thousands of miles apart.

But I guess, you need to involve breaks sometimes.

Unexpectedly, Shawn calls me.

He never calls normally, he always texts.

„Shawn?" I answer my phone.

„Hi, yeah. Are you doing something today?" he asks and sounds a little rushed.

„Um, no. Why? What're you up to?" I ask.

„"Well, I might need your help with something or someone to be honest. Just come to my house." he quickly tells me and I keep sceptic.

„Okay?"

„It's important." Shawn convinces me.

„Alright, be there in 10." I say and hang up.

Who would he need help with? Probably Kate. He told me he was partying with her yesterday, so maybe it was too much alcohol for her.

I quickly go dress and drive to Shawns house.

His car is parked infant of it and it was the only one, so his parents must've went somewhere.

I knock and Shawn yells: „Open!"

After entering I find myself in the Mendes' living room and I hear someone else is there too.

„Hey, glad you're here. I know you don't wanna see Nash, and stuff but I found him last night on the sidewalk totally high. He really isn't well up..." Shawn tells me and when I walk towards him, I see Nash sleeping on the couch.

He looked as if he hadn't slept in days, he didn't look like the Nash I knew.

„Fuck..." I exclaim.

„I dunno what to do, bro. If we tell his parents, they'll totally freak out."

„They know." I whisper, still tarring at Nash.

„You think so?"

„Yeah, I mean look at him. Anyone would see he isn't okay." I utter.

„You're right. But maybe we have to find out about this shit. They can't just leave him alone on the sidewalk." Shawn thinks out loud.

„Maybe I'm gonna talk to him." I say.

„Cool, do you wanna do something until junkie-boy wakes up?" Shawn asks me and I nod.

We agree to watch a movie, as we always do. But we didn't really have any other opportunities, 'cause we couldn't leave Nash alone.