-- Aarons POV --
I hate to see her cry, with the tears I've made. So I follow her.
Though my brain says she cheated on me and she lied, my heart loves her.
"Come on." I say and extend my hand towards her, which she ignores.
She is so into crying, she doesn't even notice what happens around her.
I lift her up and let her down into the passengers seat of my car.
Lis doesn't react. All I want is her to stop crying, because it hurts me more, than her kissing Shawn.
Or Shawn kissing her?
As quick as possible, I drive home and carry her up to my bedroom.
"Please stop crying." I beg her, while carefully laying her down on my bed.
"I don't want to lose Aaron." she mumbles, obviously not knowing I was sitting next to her.
"I'm here. You're at my house." I wake her into reality.
"I can't-" she sobs, sitting up.
"I just need to think." I reply.
"If you don't want to do this anymore, I can understand. You were always too good for me anyways. But I just want you to know that I love you..." still tears spill out of her eyes, but her throat is clear and I can understand every word. And every single one hurts.
Instantly I put my arms around her. Maybe I'm not supposed to do this now, but I just feel she needs someone to hold her and I need someone to hold.
"Sh, stop crying..." I try to sooth her, though I almost cry too.
I just don't know what to do.
My brain tells me to leave her, to break up.
But my heart loves her and I know she loves me too.
"C-Can we work this out?" she suddenly asks looking up at me.
"Do you want to work this out?" I ask back.
She nods.
"I love you but it's hard, cause your only supposed to kiss me and.."
"Believe me, I didn't want this" Lisa wants to convince me.
"Just go sleep now." I say and get up from my bed.
"You won't join me?" she mumbles very quietly.
"I um, I'm just gonna go outside for a while. Tryna think. I'll be as quiet as possible when I come back." I assure and leave the room.
Silent I go outside and sit on the veranda, where I want to sort my thoughts, but there is only one.
Can I forgive Shawn?
And I ask myself, if the question should be
Can I forgive Lisa?
but I it's not.
I need her. But do I need Shawn?
My best guy friend just forced my girlfriend into something. I'm not dealing with him for the next few days, I suppose.
"Hey.." a soft voice says from behind me and I feel a hand at my elbow.
"Why aren't you sleeping?" I ask Lisa.
"I can't..." she murmurs.
"There's too much to think about. I feel bad." she tells me.
I can't help it. I forgive her. When I look at her, I just can't believe she would be willing to make out with Shawn.
"It's okay." I say and hug her softly.
"I'm sorry..." she mumbles, but I ignore that.
Carefully I lift her up and she puts her legs around my waist.
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help me do this - Aaron Carpenter FF
FanfictionToo shy for love? You need a friend to help you. But what if the friendship suddenly breaks? Everyone needs someone to help them out, but incidents happen and you can't trust anyone anymore..