Him

Chapter 1: Him

Sam wasn't your average guy. He was the guy every girl swooned over, with jet black hair, pale skin, piercing ice blue eyes and standing just over six feet tall with his incredible smile he was "Mr. Perfect." He was popular for sure, especially with his bright personality and sense of humor. Sam always wore black hoodies, jeans and converse. It was his signature look.

Alyssa (My best friend) and I sat down at a table in the corner of the cafeteria as we saw Sam walk his way past the main hall with his two best friends, one either side. Our eyes followed him across the room. "Alyssa...its Sam." She stares at me as I continue to watch him. she begins snap her fingers in my face as she shouts at me "NINA!... EARTH TO NINA!" I snap out of it as I look up at her sheepishly. "I was staring again wasn't I?" she begins to laugh as she opens her juice. "What's this? Number 23 today?" I roll my eyes while she laughs harder. "I cant help it, you know I've liked him for two years now." I get a simple sympathetic look before she continues to sip on her juice. "I know. Im pathetic." she scoots next to me as I mess with a piece of paper on the table. "Listen...you two are friends, maybe you should just tell him already? We're seniors so, do something crazy." My face turns into and expression of horror "Do you know all the bad outcomes!? All the things that can go wrong?" she shoots me a sarcastic look "like the world exploding right? Have you looked at the possibility that maybe he feels the same way?" I begin to laugh as she suggests this "Yes, he definitely likes me...righttttttt" i notice she isn't laughing and slowly stop to look at her, she isn't amused in fact shes a little irritated. "Nina, who does he go to whenever hes hurt? Upset? or in need? who does he go to when he needs to talk about his breakup with jenna?"

I felt chills run up and down my spine at her name. Jenna was his ex. They dated for about six months before she decided he wasn't what she wanted and moved on to his best friend... ex best friend. Jennas name was all i had heard come out of his mouth for two months straight as i attempted to help him through it. As much as i loved spending time with Sam, i did not enjoy hearing about her over and over. Why was he so caught up on a girl who treated him like garbage? Everytime he told me all the things she did, all i could think about was how i could do it better, or how i would show him everyday that i cared about him. I would drift off into day dreams of us together, happier than we had ever been.

I knew he didn't feel the same way about me. I've thought of every outcome and all of them end with me and a broken heart. We've been best friends since i could remember, then just one day randomly during sophomore year i began to have feelings for him. It went from sophomore year, to junior and continued into present day senior year and it was the same every year. Nothing but hopes being crushed by a new girl who was aways better than I.

"Alyssa... I help him with girl problems and everything else. I'm just the friend. I'm the one who's friendzoned. So i'll just finish the year off that way. He's moving away for college anyway..." Alyssa frowned as i pretended not to notice.

We sat their quietly until we heard a loud thud on the table. Our heads shot up as we saw Sam standing there with the biggest smile. "Hey!" Sam leaned over the table and hugged us as his two other friends jonathan and hunter sat down. I could feel myself get nervous as i began to slightly shake and sweat. "Hey!" Alyssa and i said in unison as we hugged back. "How are my two favourite girls doing today?" I smiled a bit at his words. His voice was one that could soothe anyone it was so smooth, low and deep it could melt you. "Good, you?" alyssa responded.

"That's good, oh same just tired. Didn't sleep much last night." Jonathan and hunter snickered a bit at him until Sam shot them a death glare. "What about you Nina? How are you?" He asked while smiling. I was day dreaming and hadn't heard him until he was behind me wrapping his arms around me asking. "Ninaaaaaa" he said slowly. I jumped and turned around to look up at him and gasped. "yes..." i asked trying not to stutter. Sam looked at me straight in the eyes with a slight grin. "I asked how you were" he mess my hair up before grabbing a seat next to me. "I...I'm good. Just me i guess." i pull my sweater over my hands and cover my mouth as everyone looks at me. Sam laughs and pulls my hands down "That's good, why are you so nervous? Nina its just us... or is it because hunters here?" Sam winks at me. I begin to blush until i realize that Sam thinks i like hunter. "EW NO!" I shout a tad too loud. Everyone at the looks at me with wide eyes and open mouths. I look at Sam quickly and can see hes pretty surprised. Hunter rolls his eyes and stands up "God you're a bitch! That's fine, no one likes you anyway. Not even Sam, the boy everyone knows you're obsessed with" He storms off grabbing his backpack and knocking a few things off of the table. "HEY! HUNTER!" sam calls out. My face is the brightest of reds and i can feel my eyes burn as i hold back tears. "I need to go to class" i grab my bag and run out of the cafeteria as i finally feel the tears come out in an endless stream down my cheek.

I find my way to the back end of the school in the hidden corner of lockers. I press my back against the wall and slide down as i continue to sob. Sam heard all of that... and i hurt hunters feelings. Im just perfect aren't i? With my knees against my chest i rest my face in my hands and cry harder.