Him

Chapter 10: In the corner

The night was filled with a cacophony of sounds; basic dance music, people talking over each other, and the clinking of cups and other glassware. I sat in the corner next to a couple in the middle of a very intense make-out session. I shifted uncomfortably in my seat as the music seemed to get louder and my hopes of the kissing couple going to a private room increased. I thought tonight would help but it wasn't.
I changed my view and caught eye of Alyssa hitting it off with a random guy. "Ew.." I thought. "Social interaction." If Alyssa had listened to my thoughts she would've called me a cynical little shit, and she wouldn't be wrong. In the end I know she'll hook up with him and he'll break her heart... multiple times, each time begging to come back. And she'll let him...until eventually he breaks her inch by inch until she can't take it anymore. I should've thought about the possibilities of coming here, I was being rash because of my feelings... ex feelings for Sam. He always blurred my judgement.

I look around to a group of girls in very short dresses. My brain slowed down time and showed me the possibilities of going to that group. A: I wouldn't fit their look or what they want. B: Their intent is to pick up guys tonight and that's not what I'm here for C: I'll probably be made fun of since a couple of the girls in the group earlier mentioned Michael and I's name as I walked past them.  So no. Can't socialize with them

I scoured the filled room to a group of guys. A: being the only girl is not smart
B: the boys were getting a little touchy earlier with a girl who clearly didn't want to. Not a good group, reason: safety.
I sat back down and slowly smacked my head against the wall, regretting my decision to even come. As I begin to think about leaving, I feel a hand on my shoulder. I look up shocked at who it could be, Alyssa was still dancing and I knew no one else here. Then it hit me like a train. "Hey" I heard a familiar voice say. My heart began to race and my mind began to scramble, I could feel my breathing get louder and I could feel my hands begin to shake and become weak. I began to whisper in my head hoping it wasn't what I thought. "Please don't be Sam, please don't be Sam." I looked up and my heart dropped, sure enough there stood Sam. He looked down at me and smiles reassuringly.
I get up ready to leave but Sams strong grip grabs onto my arm. I look up at him annoyed but he grips my arm tighter as I try to move. "Let me go!" I yell. No one can hear the scream beneath the music. "Listen...Nina, we need to talk." His soothing voice and apologetic eyes capture my soul as I quit tugging away and takes an actual step towards him.
"What's there to talk about?" I ask trying to keep my head strong. Sam pauses for a minute and I can tell he's trying to think. "Us" he replies after some time. I drop my arms to my side and he lessens his grip on my arm eventually dropping it. "Us" he says again as if i hadn't heard the first time.

"There is no "Us"to talk about" I say indignantly beginning to walk away once more. Sam grabs my arm and pulls me close. "We're still friends...no matter what happened, right?" I didn't want to sound like I cared that he hurt me. I wanted it to be strictly business. "Yes we're still friends, no matter what happens, nothing more and nothing less." I could feel his eyes set on mine and quickly closed them. His hands slowly slid down my arms and eventually into my palms as he entwined our fingers. My eyes quickly shot open as I look him directly in the eyes. "I think we should dance..." Sam says in a deep smooth voice... his voice, the one that always leaves me breathless and gets my heart pumping. Why Is it that whenever he speaks a word I just agree? He apologized for it and I wasn't single at the time of him an jenna... I have no right to be mad, so why not dance with your friend? What could possibly go wrong?

The next thing I knew the music was blaring and the party was getting wilder and I found myself lost in a delirious crowd. My head was spinning and I couldn't see straight as the colored lights flashed me straight in the eyes. I was dancing nonetheless and I felt random parts of my body being groped, but not my back, no back was covered completely yet still very warm. I hadn't really noticed in the large crowd that behind me was Sam, my back pressed against his chest and my body pushing harder against his as lowered myself down and stood back up swaying my hips along with me. What was I doing?... was I grinding on Sam? "I should stop" I thought to myself..."but do you really want to?" I cleared my mind of any thoughts and turned around looking him dead in the eyes, face to face. He looked confused for a split second but quickly got rid of it as soon as I bit my lip and smiled at him, stepping closer so that the only heat I could feel in the room was his body heat. Soon enough we both got into it and we just danced with no cares in the world as the hours passed by; 11, 12, 1, 2 am.

Everyone was beginning to leave, and alyssa was nowhere to be found. I found myself stumbling over my own feet as I looked around frightened. "Where is she?!" my mind was scrambled and I couldn't think straight. I sat down and looked for my phone... WHERE IS MY PHONE?! I couldn't find anything. "Nina" I heard my name being called all the way from across the room. There stood Sam waving my phone around in the air. I ran all the way to him taking my phone and quickly only to find it dead. "Whats wrong?" Sam asked cluelessly. "I don't know where alyssa is and I need to get home, my mom is probably worried sick and I just ..." My eyes began to burn and I could feel warm tears flow down my cheeks. "Hey" Sam cups my cheeks and lifts my chin up to look me in the eyes. "Listen, nina... it's ok, ill take you home." I take a deep breath and smile as Sam raises his hands and wipes away my tears. I look up at Sams icey eyes and run my fingertips down his cheeks and down his jawline. I can feel his eyes follow my fingers as his eyes slowly close. His arms around my waist pull me closer until little to no space is between us. Every breath he takes I can feel against my chest, I could feel his heart too and it was racing... almost as much as mine was.

"Sam, should we..." before I could finish my sentence I felt the soft touch of his lips against mine and then pure ecstacy. I find myself wrapping my arms around his waist as his found his way around my lower back. For a good two minutes I am surrounded in utter bliss but it comes to an end as I fell his soft warm lips softly part from mine sucking them lightly. "Jenna and I are done by the way." random mumbles and stutters escape my lips. "Come on, I got you" I follow Sam out of the car curious what else the night had to offer. No double thoughts just going with whatever happened...I wanted to take a chance, I wanted nothing more then Sam.