Him

Chapter 7: If you grab it, it's yours

My back was against a wall again... this time a white one, facing a man who was very clearly pissed off. " So you want to tell me why again you were sneaking into the pool this late? Or at all?" He asked unamused. My eyes shifted to Sam who had a very calm expression on his face which annoyed me just a bit. I nudged his shoulder and pointed at the old man. Sam took a deep breath and looked up at the man. "We wanted to swim." he replied with. My mouth dropped to the floor. "SAM!" I looked at the man and apologized. "Im so sorry, we were just trying to visit the pool for old times sake. We won't do it again I promise." I grab Sam's arm and try to pull him out. "Where do you think you're going missy?" I stop and look the old man. "Hopefully home..."

"Sit down. What's your mothers number?" The old man sits down at the table and picks up the phone ready to dial. My eyes dart back and forth between the old man and Sam. "Oh...Actually sir, I don't live with my mother. My boyfriend and I live together." "Yeah..." Sam begins. "Small apartment in the woodlens. Very nice" The man stares at us intensively then sighs. "Get out then. And don't sneak in anymore, I will find out if you do." I smile, and grab Sam's shoulder leading us to the door. "Thanks!" I shout to the old man as he waves us off.

Sam and I enjoy our giggle fit as we walk out of the old mans office and back to his car. We stop and take a breath, look at each other, and laugh harder. We get in and, start the car and just sit there face forward quietly. "Tonight was fun..." Sam said without looking at me. "It was...I wasn't expecting to have this much fun" We both laugh lightly as he begins to drive. "Hey Nin.." I cut Sam off before he can finish. "Can we pretend it never happened? It was just a mistake. Kissing you confirmed what I already knew, I love Michael and I cant hurt him. I only care about him romantically" I was monotone and cold. In the corner of my eye I can see Sam's face change slowly from a lighthearted smile, to a face of confusion and concern.

"Nina... you said earlier that you liked me... you even agreed that you should break up with Michael. Why do you want to stay with a guy who doesn't care about you? You deserve so much better." I can hear his voice lower into a whisper. It takes every inch of will I have to not break down. "It was in the moment Sam. You're my best friend... why would I ruin that. I never said I liked you...you just took a piece of gossip you heard from your friend and assumed it was true. I love Michael. He treats me just fine, what happens in my relationships is none of your concern actually. Im a big girl Sam, I don't always need you to save me."

I stare out the window and silence fills the car. "Im not trying to save you Nina, im your friend... I want to be here for you. I am here for you. Nina, Michael cheats on you every day, why are you acting so oblivious?! You know he's more trouble then he's worth, he doesn't deserve you! He's a fuckboy, he chases skirts Nina, he doesn't even hide it! I know you're pretending not to see it! Im your friend, we're supposed to tell each other these things and help one another!" Sam stops yelling for a moment. "FUCK!" He then smacks the steering wheel forcefully. I had never heard Sam yell before... all I knew was that I didn't like it. He was scary when he yelled and I began to shift in my seat uncomfortably.

"Friends don't do what we did tonight Sam." I responded with. "For fucks sake Nina it was just a kiss!" I cringed with every loud word. I could feel my blood boil until I couldn't hold it anymore. "NO SAM IT WASN'T JUST A KISS, ARE WE FORGETTING WHAT ELSE WE DID? WHERE OUR HANDS WENT?!" I slipped my hand past his thigh and grabbed his crotch slightly and rubbed lightly. "Ring a bell now?" Sam bit his lip and shifted in his seat while he moved one hand off the wheel and tried to move mine off of his "Sensitive area" as he had put it earlier. I rubbed harder resisting his hand. "THAT'S NOT WHAT FRIENDS DO!" I shouted at him.

Sam Pulled the car over into an empty parking lot, undid his seatbelt and forcibly moved my hand away as he hovered over me... His breathing was heavy and I caught a bit of his scent again. My back was against the window and the crevise of the car door. I could feel his warmth as his face was to the side of mine breathing down my neck and whispered. "Then what does that make us Nina? Since friends don't do this..." He reaches his hand up slowly underneath my shirt cupping one of my breasts. I didn't want this... but I did. I really wanted this, but I shouldn't. Seeing him this way sent adrenaline all throughout my body. Sam began to suck on my neck, his warm tongue touched my skin and sent chills through my spine. I let out a small moan before I moved him back.

"Sam...no...I meant what I said. I don't want to ruin our friendship over something we cant have. I want to be with Michael."

Sam fixed himself and sat up straight fixing his hair. "You're right...im sorry. Maybe I just read the signs wrong... like that crotch grab." I couldn't help but laugh at what he had said. He looked at me and began laughing too. "Im sorry, it was an example" I shoot him an akward smile. "Its ok Nina, why would you like a worthless guy like me." He laughs at himself. "You're not worthless Sam!" I said in complete shock. "I was just teasing you Nina, don't take tonight seriously ok? We just messed around. We're not what each other wants and that's clear"

Sam drops me off at my house and helps me back in. "Tonight was fun... thank you Sam." I say before turning around. Sam pulls me into a hug. "Tonight was weird, but Im not letting that get in the way of our hugs." I rest my head against his chest and hold him tightly. "But as a sidenote nina...One you grab something, its yours to keep. That's the rule of the world." Sam laughs as he kisses my head. "Just kidding, night Nina." "Night Sam." I say before he climbs out.

..."I love you" I Whispered to myself. "I love you Sam...