Him

Chapter 11: What happened?...

I don't remember what happened, all I know is that when I woke up the next morning my head was all groggy and my cheek was rested on Sams chest. I got up confused and a bit worried. I looked around, I was still in Sams car and it was 10:26 am. WE SLEPT IN HIS CAR! I took my phone, which was plugged into the charging port in the front to see 5 missed calls and over 93 texts from my mother. I texted my mom back frantically telling her that I was alright and still alive. Should I tell her I was with Sam... maybe it would be safe to say I was sleeping over at Alyssa's...

"I'm ok mom! Sorry my phone was dead, but I slept over at Alyssa's, sorry I couldn't answer!"
  I could hear Sam waking up in the back. My body froze and I attempted to make as little noise as possible, I hadn't noticed earlier that he was shirtless. We had fallen asleep in the back...but was that it? No, I wouldn't do anything like that. I wasn't that desperate to have sex with a guy straight after a breakup...what if I was a rebound? Someone he only came to when he needed them? Their fallback. The backup. I shook the thought from my mind and listened to Sams mumbles and moans. "Nina?" Sam asked as he began to sit up.
  He leaned his back against the door with his legs across the seat and his head leaned back on the window. I could see every curvature of his body, every detail and every bit of his soft skin. I pulled myself together realizing that I had been staring...

Sams eyes opened slowly as the sun reflected off of them giving him the illusion of clear eyes. "Nina?" He asked again in his tired morning groan, "I'm here" I replied shyly, it was more of a mouse squeak if I was honest. A smile crept up on Sams face and he opened his arms. "Come to me, let me hold you...only if you want" he closed his eyes and reached out his arms opening them. "Um...Sam, my mom was worried sick."
   He shot up as he realized we had spent the night in the car, I watched his face and realized that he was trying to remember last night...he was trying to do what I had been trying to do, replaying last night. Sadly enough we couldn't remember anything past getting in the car. His face changed from thinking to a bit scared.      "What...what is it Sam?" I asked hesitantly. Sam shook it off and wrapped his arms around me pulling me back down with him. I didn't resist, in fact I held him back.
   No matter the situation whenever I was with Sam, it was only Sam. No one else. I had no idea where we were, what happened and what was going on...but I didn't care. All that mattered was that I was in his arms and that in his arms I was comfortable. The most comfortable I had been in a long time, did I know it was wrong? Yes absolutely. Did I really care? Absolutely not. I wanted to do this. I wanted to be the only one in Sams arms, I wanted to be here and now, I just wanted Sam.
  His warm fingers traced the side of my face upwards and ran his fingers through my hair, stroking softly. This was peace, this was no worries. I wanted this feeling more than anything, I surrounded myself with his warmth and drowned in it. His fingers trailed down my hair, down my neck and rested just above my chest. He presses his hand down and falls silent. "Why're you so nervous Nina?" I feel my face turn bright red. I look up and he's calm, eyes still closed. "I..I'm not" I say trying to be assuring.  A smirk creeps up on his face. "You sure?" He asks in his deep voice. I don't say a word as I swallow hard. He knows my heart is racing a million miles a minute and he's not afraid to point it out.
  "I'm sure. I promise" I turn around and face him resting my hand on his cheek and look up at him admiringly, staring deep into his eyes. His beautiful, ocean blue eyes. He smiles down at me and suddenly I see something. A deja vu moment.
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I grip at the door as moans fill the car, my fingers run down the fog covered window leaving clear lines to show how dark it is outside. My lips are are being lightly bitten and sucked on, my hips grinding against the person above me. It's Sam. We're in his car...
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That was last night. I only remember one part... what else happened? Why can't I remember? "You just gonna stare at me, or ya gonna do something about it?" He laughs and sits up straighter. "We should probably head home." He says. "Yeah, yeah you're probably right"  I sit up and begin to crawl in the front seat when he pulls me back and sits my ontop of  him, kissing my lips softly then pulling away smiling. "Ok, now we can go."  I smile and brush a strand of hair behind my ear. Sam sits up and gets in the front seat slipping his shirt on. I look in the mirror, all of my makeup is smudged. Lipstick smudged on my bottom and top lip, mascara and liner running down my cheek and my eyeshadow under my eyes. I looked like a hot mess. Sam smiles and looks over at me with a goofy grin. "Looking good hot stuff!" He laughs. I smack his arm annoyed. "Shush you!" I giggle. Sam leans his head back and takes a deep breath.

"Yanno, Nina. I haven't had this much fun in a long time. I kind of wanted to thank you for being here for me, I know I never thanked you for every time I needed you and you were there. Which is every time. You've been there when no one else was. You're my best friend and I love you for it. With you I can be myself, all I ever wanted was to be happy, and with you I am. Thank you Nina." He reaches over and kisses my cheek then starts the car. I'm quiet the entire car ride home, just claiming I'm tired. But I'm lying, that's not what

Best friends do.