Riarkle One Shots

Doesn't Deserve to Know

"I'm sorry. I just don't think we're compatible that way."

"Why do you think that?" I asked desperately.

"Riles... I don't love you like that," Farkle explained. "I'm sorry."

That happened three months ago and to this day I still feel so much pain. I admitted my feelings and he shut me down. The whole group had found out what happened not long after which made things even more awkward between us.

In fact we don't even go to each other's houses anymore or do our homework together. I've avoided him at all costs and he's done the same. It's just easier that way.

So today is Auggie's birthday celebration at Topanga's. All his friends will be there and of course mine will too. In fact a majority of the guests have arrived already.

The kids run around playing the games my mom and I set up while Maya, Lucas, Zay, and I all watch. Part of me wants to join in because it looks like fun, but I know that's just childish.

"So is Farkle coming?" Lucas asks causally.

I shrug. "He was invited."

"He'll be here," Zay reassured us. "He wouldn't miss the little guy's birthday."

He has a point. I don't think Farkle's ever missed one of my brother's birthdays unless he was dying or out of state. That's just the kind of person he is.

I sighed. "Maya, do you wanna get a drink with me?"

She nods and we go over to the counter with the drinks. I grab a juice box and my best friend gives me a look but just laughs. We step to the side due to the fact that my mom and Katy are bringing out the cake. We watch and cheer as they sing happy birthday and my not so baby anymore brother blows out the candles. I smile and Maya goes over to get some pictures.

"Guess I was just I time," Farkle tells me. His voice surprised me a bit and he can tell but he doesn't say anything.  "Sorry I was late. Just wanted to get your brother a good present."

"Um, yeah it's fine," I tell him. After I said that I began to walk away 

"Wait!" Farkle called out causing me to turn back to him. "I know we haven't been all that close lately, but I don't want to avoid each other anymore."

"No trust me. It's makes things easier on both of us." This time I walked out and sat on one of the year tables outside. Why can't I just get over him?

The door opened and I turned. There stood my little brother.

"Auggs. You're supposed to be opening presents."

He shook his head and sat with me. "I don't care about presents. Not when you walk away from Farkle."

I sigh. "Look this is more com-," I tried to say complicated but my brother cut me off.

"Riley I've heard you cry almost every night since he said no and now that he says he wants to be cool again you walk away?" he seemed to be asking me. Sadly I don't have an answer.

I also start to feel awful about letting the kid hear me cry every night. What kind of sister lets their little siblings hear their cries?

I look deep into Auggie's eyes and tell him, "Auggie, I'm putting up a wall so I don't get hurt again. I can't do it. The crying and wishing things went the way I wanted them to. The staying up at night because I have nightmares. The faking a smile so that my friends think I'm fine," I try to hold myself together for my brother's sake. It doesn't work. I cry and Auggs gets up and hugs me. He doesn't say a word as my tears fall faster and faster. After a few moments I pretend my tears are slowing and tell the kid to go inside.

"Okay, but wash your face before you come back," he commands then leaves.

I laugh and get up. I'm not going back inside. I'm going to go home and have Maya meet me later. I think tonight's an ice cream and OUAT marathon kind of night.

~ ~ ~ ~

I open the last present with my girlfriend Ava by my side. She happily takes from me to put it with the others as I get up to talk to Farkle.

He was standing with the other guys, but comes toward me when he sees me.

His eyes are weary as he asked, "How bad is it?"

I glare at him. "She's too scared to ever let you back in. And honestly I don't blame her."

He rubs his face and sighs. "What have I done?"

I roll my eyes, angry at him for hurting my sister. "You lied to her when she told you she loved you."

"I only lied because I didn't want to lose her."

I let out a bitter laugh. I may only be eight years old, but I've been married to Ava for fifty plus years. It changes you. It also makes you realize that love always requires the truth. "Well look where that got you."

I walk away and go to my parents. He doesn't deserve to know that she really does still love him. Especially when he loves her too. I won't ever let him hurt my sister ever again.