emptier → nate maloley

nine

i woke up in nate's arms, all the memories of last night coming back to me. his nose was pressed against my shoulder making me smile. i carefully slide out from nate's arm, needing to pee. the first thing i find is his shirt so i slip it over my naked body. i quietly sneak out and close his door behind me. when i turn around, i swazz making me jump back. 

"swazz what the hell?!" i whisper shout. 

he smirks, looking me up and down. "so i'm guessing you're responsible for the moans i heard in the middle of the night."

i tuck hair behind my ear, looking away in embarrassment. not this again. 

"welcome back mia." he chuckles and shakes his head, walking away and i make my original journey back to the bathroom.

after i do my business i make my way back to nate's room and i see him sitting up on his phone. he hears me open his door and looks my way. 

"i was worried you left until i saw your clothes still on the floor, then i got scared you were walking around naked... until i saw my shirt missing." he chuckles making me laugh too. 

"sorry." i say quietly with a smile. 

he shrugged, "you always looked good in my clothes."

after all these years, he still found a way to make me blush like crazy. 

"come here." he says to me, directing to his lap. i shyly move over to him and sit. his arms instantly go around me and he places kisses all over me. i giggle and try to push him away. 

"ew, stop." i laugh. 

"never lil mama." he breathes on my neck, causing goosebumps to form. 

i smile happily. i used to be so happy way back then. i've been so used to have to wake up in the morning and practicing how i was going to smile for the rest of the day. for the first time i didn't have to. the smile came naturally. god, i wish i wasn't so empty without him. 

i frown when i remember i have to leave tomorrow. 

"what?" he furrows his eyebrows when he notices my mood change. 

i shake my head, "it's just we have to go back to the real life soon." i say making nate display a look of confusion. i sigh, "i have to go back tomorrow and deal with things with shawn."

nate frowns, "can you stay?"

i shake my head again. "nate i have classes."

"i'll come with you." he shrugs. 

"nate, i graduate in six more months." 

"so?" he shrugs. 

i sigh, "i can't ask you to move out with me. your life is here."

"so is yours." he whines. "i'm not losing you again mia villegas."

"you're not losing me okay." i cup his face with my hands. "sure the distance might be difficult but i'll come and visit."

"what about your dad?" nate asks. "what is he going to do about us? he hates me."

i bit my lip. he's right. my dad loves shawn and hates nate even though he's never even met nate. and my dad would hate me if i left shawn for nate. 

"i'll figure out something." i say and nate sighs. "but in the mean time, i'll figure something out okay? i have to get back home, but i'll come see you again before i leave." nate nods and i plant a long kiss on his lips before i put my clothes back on and leave. 

it's almost eleven by the time i make it back home. 

"where have you been?" dad asks me when i go to return his keys back on the rack. 

"i got hungry and went to go get some breakfast. hope you don't mind i took your keys." i flash him a smile trying to make it believable. 

he nods, buying my excuse. he then takes his keys back off the rack. "i have a few errands to run so you'll be here with bryan. get along. and stay out trouble."

"don't i always?" i say almost withy a frown.