emptier → nate maloley

thirteen

"hey baby," nate groggily answered the phone after i accepted his  FaceTime call, one hour after mine. "sorry i didn't answer. i took a nap."

 i smiled once seeing his sleeps face. "it's okay. do you want me to hang up so you can get back to sleep?" i suggested nicely even though i was lying and didn't want to hang up. 

nate shook his head, wiping his face. "nah. i think swazz and i are gonna head out to the club soon."

i frown. "a club?"

"yeah," he nods. "it's kaitlyn's birthday and sam suggested we go to the club and turn up for her birthday." i press my lips together and nod. 

"cool." i say. 

"aw baby don't be mad. i promise i won't do anything, you got my heart and you know it." 

my lips instantly go up into a smile and my heart flutters at his words. "i miss you." i slightly pout. 

"i miss you too. you coming out for christmas right?" 

i nod. "i have to explain to my dad why shawn's not with me. fun!" i sarcastically add. 

nate's eyebrows furrow, "you still haven't told your dad?"

"how can i? he loved shawn like his shawn. he honestly loved shawn more than i did." i slightly chuckled but nate's face remained unamused. i sighed. "it's not easy nate, i'm sorry. i'll tell him when i go down there."

"thank you." nate nods. 

"and that's when you'll meet him."

i watched as nate's eyes quickly widened. "what?"

"you have to meet my dad sometime nate." i say. "i'm not a teen who sneaks out to meet her boyfriend. i can't avoid it anymore.

"i know," he says. "your dad hates me and i didn't even do shit to him." 

"he was a real harass three years ago but i think he's lightened up. i think maybe he was just wasn't okay with the fact that his little girl was in love and i think shawn kinda introduced him to the idea, so he's okay with it." i shrug. 

"whatever, man." nate shrugs. "look ma, i gotta go. i'll call you tomorrow."

"bye." i mumble as the call ends and i'm met with a blank phone screen. i bite my lip as my mind goes back to alyssa's and i's conversation earlier this evening. as soon as the call ended, i felt dull again, washed out even. my happiness comes back when i'm talking with nate... i can feel it. 

maybe it's just the long distance. long distance relationships truly suck. hopefully when i see him face to face for christmas, things will go back to normal.