The Pregnancy

Chapter 31

It was a long boring ride home from the airport, I nearly fell asleep twice, but I finally made it home. I put my car in park, took a deep breath, and mentally prepared myself for being home alone for six long months. I mustered up my strength to get out of the car and go into the house. I'm always scared someone is going to break in and kill me, I know it's probably not going to happen but it's a fear of mine. I think I got that fear from my mom, she was always scared to leave me and my brothers home alone for that very reason.

I walked into my house and something seemed off, I don't know what it was  but something wasn't right. I walked upstairs hoping I wouldn't find anyone lurking in my house or anything. To my surprise there was a bouquet of a dozen roses sitting on my dresser. "How cute Luke left me roses." I said picking up the note that stuck out of them.

It read: Sorry, sometimes I take you for granted but I promise it's only because I feel that you are the only one in the whole world who will understand me for who I am...

What does Luke have to be sorry for? Maybe not putting these in a vase, because he shouldn't be apologizing to me he should be apologizing to these roses. I thought as I went downstairs to find a vase, which just happened to be in the highest cabinet we had in this house. I climbed up on the counter to grab the vase when I heard footsteps. That's it, I called it, this is where I die.

"I see you got my roses." I heard a familiar voice say from the kitchen door. I turned around on the counter, slowly not wanting to lose my balance, to find Niall leaning up against the doorway holding BG. "I missed you these past couple of days." He said as I jumped down from the counter not saying anything. I grabbed the roses, walked over to the garbage, and threw away the flowers. 

"I thought you had a plane to catch." I said grabbing my dog and bringing him into the living room with me. I think it was safe to say I was still a little angry with him, or as the kids now a days say, I was still a little 'salty.' I didn't even want to look at him, I thought I'd have six months to stop being angry, turns out I only had six hours. "You know I really don't even ant to talk to you right now, so you should probably go jump on that plane and catch up wit your band mates." I said shooting him a nasty look, if looks could kill he would be dead three times over. 

"Alex, I get you are mad at me, I'm mad at me. I should never have ignored you, but I did, it happened, and all we can do is move on from it. You know you can't stay mad at me forever." He said as I rolled my eyes at him. 

"Get out, get on the damn plane, and leave." I said starting to get even more angry. I mean if throwing his flowers away wasn't enough I don't know what is. "I don't want to see you right now." I said as he tried to sit down by me. "I mean it, leave." I said through gritted teeth.

"Alex don't." He said realizing I had tears streaming down my face. "I never meant to hurt you. I was giving you and Luke space so you guys could work things out, for the sake of the family. But now I realize I don't care if that family ever works out because we can have our own family, and who cares what people think. If they think its my fault, that I stole you away, so be it." Niall said as I was starting to get even more angry.

I set BG down knowing if I carried him with me he was going to get hurt. "Get out before I force you out." I said standing up and walking over to open the door. "NOW." I screamed causing him to jump. "Please Niall just leave." I said as he started walking towards the door. "You know when I dropped Luke off at the airport I was kind of sad that you didn't come, mainly because I thought you were avoiding me. But now? You show up at my house, uninvited, and break in. Who the hell does that? That's not normal. You think just because you are Niall Horan from One Direction you can do whatever you want without any repercussions? No, that's not how the real world works. Yeah you hurt me, but this hurts even more, thinking that I'm just another one of your fans who would kill to have you randomly waiting for them in their house. I'm not just a regular One Direction fan, and right now I'm not even a fan of you. I love you boys and not just because you are One Direction, but because we became friends. But obviously you can't see that, so leave." I said as he turned around to look at me but before he could say anything I slammed the door in his face knowing that would hurt him and maybe just maybe he could get a hint of the pain I feel right now.

I went back into the kitchen knowing I'd never forgive myself if I left those beautiful roses in the trash. I quickly ran over to the garbage to scoop out the flowers hoping they weren't on some nasty garbage and be ruined. Thankfully they were just on some napkins that Luke threw away for some reason. I filled up the vase and threw them in it. I quickly ran upstairs knowing I was about to break down for saying such awful things to Niall. But maybe that will makes these six months easier to deal with knowing he isn't still hung up on me and the idea of us being a family, it just wouldn't have worked out, it couldn't have worked out.

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Sorry for not updating yesterday I didn't feel good so I went to bed earlier, only find out my nephew was born in the middle of the night so I've been a little preoccupied this morning, so this might be the update for yesterday and today, I'm not sure yet.