The Pregnancy

Chapter 26

I know I should be getting dressed but I can't bring myself to doing that.  A small part of me is still hoping that Luke will call and tell me he was wrong, tell me that we can't just throw two years down the drain. Tell me that we can somehow work it out. But I don't want to give up Niall. Why can't my life be like a soap opera and I get two boyfriends? Why can't they just understand I don't want to give up on either of them. "Are you okay in there?" I heard Niall ask as he softly knocks on the door. "Can I come in?" He asked peaking his head through the crack in the door. "I mean I don't mind seeing you naked again but I thought I should get permission the next time I do." He said as I laughed a little and wiped away the tears.

"Yeah you can come in." I said looking up at him and smiling. "I'm a mess I'm sorry. I'll get ready and we can go." I said standing up and trying to push past him so he wouldn't see that I was crying. I was quickly pulled into his embrace which only made me cry even more.

"Shhh, Alex it's okay. What's wrong? Why are you crying?" He asked which only made it worse. "Do you want to lay down on the bed for awhile?" He asked as I nodded. We climbed into bed and I laid my head on his chest and just listened to him inhaling and exhaling. Hanging onto every sound like it was my favorite song. "You know when I was younger, around four years old, my mom taught me how to ride a bike without training wheels so I could ride around with my brothers and all of his buddies. I was so excited that I asked Greg right away if we could go out and ride. Of course he was an annoyed older brother that said no, so I went to my mom. My mom told him and his friends they needed to go out and take me on a ride with them. So we all went outside, I put on my helmet and we all got on our bikes. They took me to part of the neighborhood I've never been to before, and they took me a crazy way. We made so many random turns, we even rode through someones yard. Then the boys told me to wait and they would be back in a minute, that Greg just wanted to go see if another one of his buddies was home to come on a ride with us. So I waited, and I waited, and when I thought I should give up waiting I waited a little more. Finally it was starting to get dark and I didn't know where to go. I tried biking back but I couldn't remember each turn we made. I turned a corner that I don't remember seeing before and out of no where this car came screeching around the corner. I got so scared I fell off my bike, my face hit the pavement, I scratched the shit out of my knee and palms. The car pulled over and my only thought was this is it, I'm getting abducted. Low and behold it was my mom coming to find me. She picked me up off the street bawling. She asked what happened and I didn't want to throw Greg under the bus so I just shook my head and cried. She threw my bike in the back and buckled me in. When we got home she told Greg and my dad to go watch TV. She took me into her room, laid in bed with me and played with hair, trying to get me to calm down, kind of like I'm doing with you. She asked me softly what happened and told me that I wasn't going to get Greg in trouble. She promised me that it would never get back to my dad unless Greg told him himself. So I told her, everything that happened. She got up, walked out of the room, and came back with ice cream. And we talked and laughed and had the best time."

"Why are you telling me this?" I asked looking straight forward at the wall. The door creaked open as BG pushed his way into the room. He jumped up on the bed and came and laid down with us.

"I'm telling you this because I'm trying to show you that even if you think it will get someone in trouble, or you're worried you will hurt someones feelings, it's better to talk about it with someone. Don't just bottle everything up. I want you to feel like you can tell me anything and everything. Alex please tell me what's wrong." He begged making me realize what a great father Niall would make which made me cry happy tears. "Why are you crying now?"

"I was thinking about how messed up this whole situation is. That I didn't want to be the mom who brings their child into a messy dispute between everyone. I was thinking about how I wish we could have met earlier and that this baby was yours and honestly for a split second I wished this baby never happened. I wished that I didn't have to go through this. Because if this baby never happened I wouldn't have to deal with Luke saying how much he hates kids and wish that both of our babies had died. And then you sat here begging me to tell you what was wrong and I instantly knew you would be an amazing father, and for a split second I saw you and me and a little boy waddling around our house with BG and I was happy, we were happy." I said sitting up and looking at Niall who to be honest seemed a little angry. "What's wrong? Did I take it to far?"